The Laid Back World of Heather!

Summer

2011-07-14T23:44:00.003-06:00

I haven't posted in a while because I have been busy with school, work and homework and vacation. I am almost done with the four gospels and then I will be in Acts. I went to the Temple last Saturday to find out that it is closed so I will try again this Saturday and if the temple is closed again then I will go to another one.

My Bishop spoke in church last Sunday. He talked about making Christ our center, and that it doesn't matter if we like our boss or our Bishop. All that matters when we stand before Christ is how much do we know him, what did we do to honor him. What have we done to serve him.

Vacation with my family in Bryce Canyon was beautiful. Lizards, chipmunks, and butterflies were all over the place. Then we headed down to St. George and went shopping at the outlets and went to see the Little Mermaid. It was a cute fun show. Zion's National Park was our next stop and that was beautiful as well lots of lizards, deer, squirrels, butterflies and dragon flies. Then we came back home.

Over 4th of July weekend my family and I went to a cabin, it was a lot of fun. Didn't get much sleep, but we saw a lot of deer and moose. Riding the 4 wheelers was a lot of fun. Did a lot of reading and writing in my journal which was good. I did a little bit of homework. We went out to the lake up there which was fun. And watched some really loud fireworks which was awesome!

I want a vacation!

2011-06-20T00:36:00.001-06:00

I need a vacation, it would be nice to go to Newport Beach again!

Living in Seattle!

2011-05-19T23:08:00.003-06:00

Oh my heck ok what is the deal with all the rain in the Salt Lake Valley? It's like we live in freakin Seattle! It has been crazy how much rain and snow we have been getting. We still have snow up in Big Cotton Wood canyon, there are people that want to go camping but can't. I hope we will have sunshine for a while when all this rain stops coming.

So I haven't posted in a while but that is because I have been super busy and when I haven't been super busy all I wanted to do is just sit and relax. I am so glad that I have everything done and I don't have any homework or tests until Monday! In April I had my first CNA class and it was good I got an A I still have a 4.0 and I should still have a 4.0 when all my work is graded. I hope I don't need any extra books for my next two classes. I hope I just need my medical assistant book.

Now I get to catch up on my fun reading. I need to finish the last book of the Hunger Games and I bought the second book of the Kane Chronicles and the first book to Beyonders by Brandon Mull. I am also reading a Georgette Hayer book called the Masqueraders. I am still reading the New Testament and I love it, I am in St. Mark.
Also I have been in the emergency room 3 times the first time was because I had a kidney stone and at the time I had no idea what was going on. Then the other two times were because of acid reflux, at the time my heart burn wouldn't go away. I went to the doctors last Friday and my doctor asked me if I had ever been told that I have a heart murmur and I said no. So he sent me to get a Ecocardiogram on Tuesday but I haven't heard anything back yet and they said they were going to call me yesterday; so I hope they call me soon so I can know the results.

Church is good they made all new wards and stakes for the singles, I am going to love my new ward; it's nice meeting in a building that is closer to my house and actually in our ward boundaries. There are a lot more guys than girls in my new ward I hope I get a calling soon.

Sunsets!

2011-02-27T00:27:00.005-07:00

I took this at Arches National Park near Sand Dune Arch.

I took this at Lake Powell, at night you can see the stars in the Lake it's gorgeous.

I took this in Taylorsville, one of my most favorite Sunsests!

Snow Forts!

2011-02-20T02:35:00.004-07:00

My younger sister that I love so much. When she would get home from work we would watch movies; or if a new episode of LOST was on, we would watch it down stairs in the dark. It took me a while to know when she wanted me to be around, cause she would say to me...are you coming or are you going to be there? But what she really meant, I want you to come or I want you to be there. We are both so easily entertained, a lot of things that we think is funny, isn't funny to others. She is married now and she misses our movie nights I do too, but life gets busy. We always loved to play in the snow and we still do to this day. This picture I took up in Oakley at my brother in-law's uncle's cabin in February 2010; we both built this fort in the snow it was fun.

Nature!

2011-02-11T22:15:00.006-07:00

Some fall red Maple leaves that I took last fall in 2010.

Some wild flowers up Doughnut Falls that I took a picture of in the summer of 2010.

Fall Leaves!

2011-02-10T16:17:00.001-07:00

Gorgeous red in the fall of 2010.

SNOW

2011-02-10T00:17:00.001-07:00

One of my favorite winter pictures that I took in December 2010.

My Cup Runneth Over!

2011-02-08T16:03:00.004-07:00

Just this last Sunday was very good and here is why.
In Relief Society we talked about that we shouldn't think less of ourselves, but that we should think less about ourselves and give service when we can. Also one of the girls mentioned about how sometimes it's our own selves that hold us back and that it's like Christ is standing at the door knocking and there isn't a door handle on his side and it is us on the other side that have the door handle and we have to let Christ in.
Then in Sunday school we went over two stories of Christ the first one was Jesus teaches in a synagogue in Nazareth and testifies that he is the Messiah of whom Isaiah prophesied. The people angrily reject him. Then the next story was the one about when Christ tells Peter James and John and the others to throw their nets on the other side of the boats and then he tells them that he can make them fishers of men. Then the teacher asked the class, how has our life been affected because of your decision to follow Jesus Christ? A few people in the class shared some really neat things; but sorry I can't remember what they said exactly; but I did share my thoughts and I said well when I was 18 I finally had my own testimony and that I had my own testimony because I wanted it, I had the desire to build it, and not because I was expected to have one, and now that I look back on my life I have seen the hand of the Lord in my life and he does answer me, like for example all my life since I have grown up in the church, I have always heard people including my family taking about when they get answers to prayers or when they feel the spirit so strong, that they get the burning in the bosom, now I didn't know what that was like for the longest time and it kind of bothered me a bit, but finally when I read the Work and Glory the first book and Joesph Smith is telling one of the characters in the book about the first vision; and as I was reading that I really did get that feeling like my bosom was burning; and I was so amazed and thankful that Heavenly Father answered my prayer even if it took a while, and also that He reconfirmed my testimony that he will always be there for me and answer my prayers. Also this is the first time I have finally been fully committed to school and for the first time I am a full time student and for the first time I really like school and because I am trying to do all that I can I am doing very well in school at least better than I ever expected to do. Then in Sacrament meeting the Stake President came and everyone that got up gave good testimonies and I got up because my heart was so full and it wouldn't feel right if I didn't get up and thank my Heavenly Father so I got up and bore my testimony and I said I know that Heavenly Father lives and I am so grateful for all that He has given me and I know that Christ lives and that he gave his life for us so that we can return to Him and be forgiven of our sins, and I am so grateful that Christ died for me; and I am so grateful for the Book of Mormon and I know that it is true and that Joesph Smith translated it through the power of God and I know that President Monson is the prophet for our world at this time; I am grateful for my family and friends, and for everyone in the ward and their examples to me. I am grateful the gospel and I love it and I know that it is true.

Winter!

2011-01-28T22:38:00.003-07:00

So Christmas Eve is what I am going to start out with I slept in which was so nice. Then I helped my mom make Christmas Eve dinner, it was kind of weird though and it didn't feel like Christmas Eve because there wasn't any snow on the ground and I don't know about you but for me I have to have snow on the ground for it to feel like Christmas is going to happen. Dinner was good most of my family was there except my younger sister and her husband because they were at his parents. But it was a really nice evening then we met up with my aunt and her family and went downtown to see the lights on Temple Square. The lights were very pretty this year even if there wasn't any snow on the ground. Then at 10:30pm I went with 4 other girls in the ward and went to Midnight Mass at St Marks, that was awesome and one of the most coolest things I have done. It was a very beautiful mass in a beautiful church. Christmas was very good and lots of fun, it was nice to be at home with just my family. All in all it was a fun Christmas. Then the day after Christmas it decides to snow in the valley, church was good numbers were few but it was nice and fun that way different but still good.
It also decided to snow on New Years Eve so it was even more of a winter wonderland.
I am still reading the Book of Mormon well better late then never, I need to be better about reading every night. School started last week and I already feel swamped, I really need to go to the temple asap. Institute starts this week so that will be good and it should help me feel better about school. 2010 went by a little too fast for my liking, and I was really bummed that we didn't get a white Christmas in the Salt Lake Valley. January 8th I had to drive home late at night from work in a bad snow storm it was really pretty though the valley covered in sparkly snow and just quiet stillness, ah it was very peaceful, even though it was a little scary driving home in it. Then it started snowing January 10th in the morning so I wasn't shocked to see an accident off on the side of the freeway as I was driving to school just before the 4500 South exit.
Oh my goodness the first week of school was absolutely crazy and I gave myself such a headache because I was so stressed out from a test that I took for my Medical Laboratory class. Then when I got to class the second week my instructor let me retake the test which was such a relief. But I still get a sick feeling before I have to take the tests in my Medical Laboratory class.
I had institute on Friday and I enjoyed the class, I learned a few things that I didn't know about the New Testament before. I really like the instructor. There are also a few really good looking guys in the class, and I am going to try to assert myself and get to know everyone in my institute class.
Church is good I missed out on gospel doctrine because I went to the Preach my Gospel class and it was good we did some role playing which was fun, but I still kind of missed gospel doctrine because we are studying the New Testament and I absolutely love the four gospels, in my opinion if you want to know more about Christ read the four gospels, it helped me to know and understand Christ better.
Along with the Book of Mormon I am reading a book called The Foundling by Georgette Heyer so far it's pretty good, I don't know if there are any risky parts in it yet but it doesn't seem like it, but I guess I won't know until I done with the book. Then I plan to read the Red Pyramid by Rick Riordan. Then I think I might go and by the first book to the Hunger Games, that everyone keeps talking about and read those, and see if I like those books.
I didn't have work on Monday the 17th or school which was very nice and much needed! Work is boring I wish they would let me clean a different area for awhile. I need a little bit of a change at work. I need to go to the temple asap!

Winter Wonderland!

2010-12-20T01:58:00.003-07:00

Well school has been taking over my life, but it hasn't been too bad, a little crazy at times. There has been a few times that I have wanted to through my Medical Assisting workbook out of a window because I couldn't find a answer in the book. Ha ha! As of right now I still have a 4.0 GPA which is awesome!

So besides school taking over my life, work is still evil but it pays the bills, and I am getting good work reviews so I can't complain too much. I enjoy every time I get to go to the temple and do temple work and it's also time for me to just sit in the chapel and talk things over with Heavenly Father and just enjoy the peace and calm of the temple. Ah I love it there is no better place for peace but the temple or unless you are lucky enough to live up in the mountains in the peace a stillness of the wilderness. I so want to get away from the city right now I so would love to go up in the mountains right now and go sledding, tubing, snowmobiling, snow shoeing ah that would be so epic. The mountains have so much snow on them right now it is very pretty. In the valley we have nothing which is sad, I don't think we will have a white Christmas.

Thanksgiving was good I helped my mom make half of the meal and the food was so good! It was nice to have a few days off from work and school and just be home and with family. In the valley we got dumped on with snow we go almost a foot in the Salt Lake and then a week later we got dumped on again and ended up with two feet in the valley. Then it got warm and it just rained and melted all the snow in the valley.

I am finally all done with Christmas shopping which is nice, I still want to do some Christmas baking before Christmas day. This year when my mom asked me what I wanted for Christmas I had no idea really. For once I didn't really want anything, so I had to think about it for a few days.

But I do love the quiet stillness when it snows it's as if you are walking in the air when all the world is white and the snow is falling all around you. Sundays are still my favorite days. But this Sunday in Relief Society we went back to lesson 18 for some reason, it should have been lesson 24 about the Sabbath Day. Sunday school was good. Sacrament meeting was very good this Sunday.

I do plan to clean my room while I am on break from school, my room really needs it. I am off for two weeks from school. Happy Day and Christmas is almost here!

Golden Mist

2010-10-20T08:56:00.003-06:00

Wow what a crazy past two months I have had. It has been a while since I have posted last. School is a lot of work, but for the first time in my life I actually like school which is so weird! Every Monday and Wednesday this past month I have got up around 6:30am. About the time I am driving to school the sun is rising. It is really pretty, because just before it peaks over the mountains the sky is a golden mist, and it makes it worth waking up at 6:30am.

School is good it's just a lot of homework and tests! But now I am done with two of my classes that I have, and on Monday I will have a new class. I done with all my tests and homework for my App 101 and Med 102 and I have A's in all of my classes so far. I hope I continue to get A's. This next four weeks I have just one class and it is on Monday and Wednesdays; it a Communication class, it seems like fun. Work is work, sometimes I hate it sometimes I don't. I did take Monday off from work and I went to my wards FHE it was fun we had a Halloween party it was good to see friends in the ward.

Of course it had to snow the week of Halloween; it even snowed in the valley and it was not fun cleaning it off the car and 8am it was freezing! I hope it doesn't snow again until Thanksgiving. It can snow all it wants in the mountains but in the valley I want it to stay away. I did miss institute this week I slept in. I do want to go to the temple this week. There is also a Halloween party on Saturday at friends house that I am going to, and then November will be here. It's like we had a short fall and then went straight to winter.

Monsoon Season!

2010-08-30T13:20:00.003-06:00

So I started school and it's good I really like it. Though I wake up every day at like 6:30am and I don't go to bed until midnight or later which is usually not that good of a thing to do. But I live through it, I really like the pace that it is set at; I like having a class for 4 weeks and then switching to a new one for the next four weeks, I am a full time student and I work part time. So it's good it keeps me on my toes, and school is at times so intense that when I have free time I spend it doing homework. But it will be so worth it in the end.

Last Sunday it was really windy and rainy so we have this little field next to our drive way and there is this really big huge tree that is very old so when I got home from church there was this big branch that had come down and was laying across our driveway and our front yard. Thank goodness nothing got damaged but also our power went out Sunday at 4:40pm and didn't come back on until 7:20 am Monday morning. Monday I went to school and did my power point presentation, turned in English homework worked on my essay paper went to work came home and worked on my paper some more and finished up some other homework that was due. Tuesday turned in everything that was due then went to work and then went over to Sunny's and Allie's for a girl's night out party and watched When in Rome. Friday was my day off I went shopping and then I went to a party with some friends that I haven't seen in like 6 months and had a awesome time it was really good to see them. Then Saturday I ran errands and then came home and made chocolate chip cookies, then I went to a party at Erica's and Heidi's new place and that was fun.

So yesterday at church we were combined with the boys and Brother Akerlow gave the lesson it was on weaknesses and sin it was good. Sunday school was good and Sacrament meeting I got an answer to a question that had been going through my mind a lot lately. Then I went to the mingle and talked to a lot of people in the ward and then went home to eat dinner and celebrate my aunt's birthday and we went to temple square then went back to my aunt's house and had cake and ice cream, and we watched some home movies.

Also it has been either super hott or thunderstorms off and on and it has been muggy so it has been like a monsoon season in the Valley also because of it raining so much the mountains are still pretty green it is awesome. Today I woke up to a huge thunderstorm that was raging which was pretty cool. I went to institute today I am taking a class on the New Testament and so far it's awesome. Much to my surprise when I got out of class today I saw a few of my friends that are in my ward. So that was pretty awesome. For now it has stopped raining but it most likely will start up again soon.

Speachify!

2010-08-30T00:25:00.002-06:00

So I spoke in church on the 22nd of August so I thought I would share it with ya'll

I was really surprised when Brother Akerlow asked me to speak because this is my first time ever speaking in this ward. Also I don't like to stand up in front of a bunch of people and talk because I get really nervous. I have read the Book of Mormon many times and the the Book of Mormon is the first book of scripture that I have read from cover to cover.

But this time around I began to wonder why is this book so important? The first thing I though of was president Hinckley's promise. So I thought well that is true but there has to be more to the Book of Mormon than just that. So I remembered that Elder Holland gave a talk in Conference on the Book of Mormon last October. So Elder Holland said, "Love. Healing. Help. Hope. The power of Christ to counter all troubles in all times-including the end of times. That is the safe harbor God wants for us in personal or public days of despair. That is the message with which the Book of Mormon begins, and that is the message with which it ends, calling all to 'come unto Christ' and be perfected in him. That phrase -taken from Moroni's final lines of testimony, written 1,000 years after Lehi's vision-is a dying man's testimony of the only true way."

In addition the paragraph on the title page of the Book of Mormon says "And also to the convincing of the Jew and Gentile that JESUS IS THE CHRIST, the Eternal God, manifesting himself unto all nations." But what I think sums it up best is when Joseph Smith translated the Book of Mormon into English through the gift and power of God. He said that it is: "the most correct of any book on earth, and the keystone of our religion and a man would get nearer to God by abiding by its precepts, than by any other book." So why is this book so important? Well it came from God, it is a correct book, it is the keystone of our religion, and it is a way we can get nearer to God.

Another thing that really stuck out to me is the story of Lehi and his family fleeing out of Jerusalem and what Lehi did before they fled into the wilderness. Lehi is shown in a dream many amazing things from the Lord. And Lehi became so overjoyed that he went among the the people of Jerusalem and prophesied so Nephi writes in 1 Nephi 1: 18-20 he says, "Therefore, I would that ye should know, that after the Lord had shown so many marvelous things unto my father, Lehi, yea, concerning the destruction of Jerusalem, behold he went forth among the people, and began to prophesy and to declare unto them concerning the things which he had both seen and heard. And it came to pass that the Jews did mock him because of the things which he testified of them; for he truly testified of their wickedness and their abominations: and he testified that the things which he saw and heard, and also the things which he read in the book, manifested plainly of the coming of a Messiah, and also the redemption of the world. And when the Jews heard these things they were angry with him; yea, even as with the prophets of old, whom they had cast out, and stoned, and slain; and they also sought his life, that they might take it away. But behold, I, Nephi, will show unto you that the tender mercies of the Lord are over all those whom he hath chosen, because of their faith, to make them mighty even unto the power of deliverance."

So I began to wonder why would Lehi go and preach unto the people even though he probably knew that they would want to kill him if he went out and preached unto them? Well I came up with the answer that Lehi knew that the words of the Lord are worth dying for and that being a member of the Church of Jesus Christ is worth it, because we all know that this life is not the end, and that if we live worthy of the blessing to come, we can return home and live with our Father in Heaven and our Savior who is Christ. I know that the Book of Mormon is true and that it does truely testify of Christ it is a wonderful and beautiful book that Joseph Smith translated with and through the power of God and I testify like Elder Holland says in his conference talk "No wicked man could write such a book as this, and no good man would write it, unless it were true and he were commandeed of God to do so." I know that the Book of Mormon is the word of God, and I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ Amen.

Kings and Queens!

2010-07-28T00:19:00.004-06:00

So I realized that in my last post I didn't explain enough about the train ride; when I had thought that I did. Well so my ward had an overnight camping trip up in Midway and we all when on a train ride on the Heber Creeper. It was very cold because it rained the entire time but other than that it was fun.

So for the 4th of July I went with my family up to Sugar House Park and we watched the huge fireworks burst right over our heads it was gorgeous! Later on that week had a BBQ with some of the wardies for my birthday. I also celebrated with my family later on and it was a pretty good birthday! Played night games with friends in my ward another night then spent the rest of that night socializing.

I have come to realize that we are all kings and queens in charge of our own lives. We have to decide when to change and if we need to change. Sometimes we can't see the change and it takes a while to see it. Other times it takes someone else pointing out that we need to change. Change can be hard at times; and sometimes it just seems so hard that we don't want to do it. Yes it is so much easier to give up and not work for something that we want; and all just because it seems hard. Well for me I needed a change. But we have to take risks and have a little faith that everything will turn out alright. So I am starting school on August 2 at Stevens Henager College I will get my Associates Degree in 20 months in Medical Specialties.

School is going to take over my life for the next 20 months but it will be good even though I am a little freaked out about school and wondering if this will be all worth it and I am a little freaked out about wondering if I can do it! I really hope I can and I really want this to work out. Cause I don't want to be stuck at community college for another 10 years. So this is my only good option right now for school. I just hope that my life doesn't get anymore crazy that it will by August 2nd, I just really want to be able to handle school and get done with homework.

There are some really amazing people in my ward that are such good examples to me. They help me to want to be a better person. I have been thinking about the story of Hannah lately and how she would go to the temple everyday and tell the Lord her problems. Oh how I need to start going to the temple once a week again. I also need to start doing my Stake calling again and find out who is the the co-chair over everyone in my Stake calling. My Stake calling is the only one calling that I haven't been doing right now. So I need to get on it, and step it up.

Life Under the SUN!

2010-07-02T14:37:00.002-06:00

So the train ride was fun, though it was so cold it rained the entire time. In the morning since they had a lame breakfast a group of us in the ward went out to eat for breakfast in Midway and that was fun. Sunday I taught the lesson and I was so nervous for the first ten minutes then I calmed down, but everyone told me I did such a good job which made me happy. I would love to teach again so I hope I get another chance because I loved it even though I was nervous. So then we started getting really really HOT weather, which I absolutely love! Also I went to guess who's coming to dinner and that was a blast. Then on Saturday I went and had a BBQ party with some friends of mine from institute and has been 3 years since all of us have been together in one place; so it was good to see them again.

Friday after work I went with Nicole to Mona and we camped out with some of her friends from Logan; it was good to get away. Then the next day we went swimming and we were going to go hiking but we were very hungry so we got food. We went to where we were staying for the night in Manti and then we got cleaned up a bit; and then went to the Pageant which was so awesome and fun. I crashed as soon as I got into bed; and since I had to be visit taught after church, Nicole and I went home and made it in time for sacrament meeting. Then went to the mingle and talked to a bunch of people. Finally I went home and had dinner with my family and then we had FHE with my aunts family. I went to Jen's place after FHE with my family, and few of the wardies were there and we played games it was a blast. I went to work early on Monday because I was so tired from the weekend. Went to Fhe after work and I got to see some fireworks which was awesome. Then I went with Julio and Rhett and got some food which was fun.

Wednesday I went swimming with Jen and Jourdan; and it was awesome since it was such a Hot day; and we got food at Sonic. Thursday I got my nails done and I got a pedicure which was so nice to do. After work I met up with a group of the wardies up at the capital to watch Sandlot. It was a blast and so warm out, perfect weather for watching a movie outside. Saturday I am going with my family to watch fireworks some where for the 4th of July. In the Book of Mormon I am finally done with Jacob chapter 5 I need to be in Mosiah but I don't see that happening just yet. But I plan to read a ton on Saturday so hopefully I will be in Mosiah by then.

Rain!

2010-06-23T23:21:00.003-06:00

Well I finally think it will be summer in Utah, that is if it will ever stop raining. But when it does and the air gets warm, it smells like summer here in Salt Lake. The trees are finally filled out with leaves; and since it has rained so much this spring the mountain that has the big U on it, is so green. I don't think I have ever seen it so green.Lately though now it has been very warm, and I am loving it!

As a ward we are reading the Book of Mormon and we need to be done with it by 8-23-10 so hopefully I can do it. I will give it my very best to finish in time. I am on chapter 8 of first Nephi and it's neat to notice things that I didn't the last time I read this most wonderful book. I don't think I ever fully realized how much faith Lehi had in the Lord. He probably knew that the Jews in Jerusalem were not going to believe him when he told them that Jerusalem would be destroyed, but he still went out and preached risking his life. It shows me that being a member of our church is so worth it and that it is worth risking your life for.

Memorial Day was very warm and I had the day off from work, I was hoping that we would have FHE as a ward but for some reason they canceled it. I guess they figure a lot of people are going to be gone, I had BBQ with my family for dinner and then I went with some of the wardies to a bonfire party, it was a lot of fun!

I am trying to eat better again and not eat so much chocolate. I need to go and get a gym pass at 24 hour fitness again and get going to the gym 3 times a week. Work isn't too bad. I had Wednesday off, so I went to the institute class that some of the wardies go to on Wednesday night. I have also started going back to the temple once a week which is really nice and brings me such peace.

Gorgeous!

2010-05-15T12:53:00.003-06:00

Ok so as a girl I am very hard on myself when it comes to my looks. Growing up I have never really felt gorgeous. Even now it's sometimes hard to believe, even though I am content with who I am. I guess it's just my personality; I love it when boys tell me that I look pretty; I love it even more when I get asked out by a really hot guy. I feel gorgeous when I get asked out by any guy.

Don't get me wrong I am content with who I am and I don't care what people think about me. But I do care what I think about myself. So that is why I like to have people tell me that I am pretty, beautiful or gorgeous. I like it when I get approval from other people it makes me feel good about myself. I mean who doesn't?

Though beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and it's only skin deep. Really what matters to me most in a guy is personality. I want someone that I can talk to and has a lot of the same interests as I do. But we don't have to have everything in common, but just enough that I can have someone to talk to, and will tell me things. I love being the center of attention. I like to look pretty too; I like it when I look in the mirror and think to myself, that I am beautiful.

Whenever I try to say that my younger sister is more gorgeous than I am my mom gets a little angry at me. I mean I am not going to jump off a bridge just because I think my younger sister is more gorgeous than me. I just think that she is really pretty and she is in better shape than me. I know that I shouldn't think that I am not as pretty, as my younger sister, but I do.

I have known that I just need to be true to myself and to Heavenly Father and that's all that matters; and I don't need to worry about what other people think of me. I have been able to carry that since I was 24. I know who I am and I know what I want in life. But sometimes it's just nice to hear compliments.

Christ's Love!

2010-05-08T00:15:00.003-06:00

So when I finished the Book of Mormon last time in my scripture reading I decided that I would read the New Testament. I must say that I have really been loving it. I have found a better understanding of the Savior's love for everyone. I have really enjoyed reading the 4 gospels again.

I absolutely love the parable of the Pharisee and the Publican in St Luke chapter 18 verse 9. "And he spake this parable unto certain which trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and despised others: Two men went up to the temple to pray; the one Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I thank thee, that I am not as other men are, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this publican. I fast twice in the week, I give tithes of all that I possess. And the publican standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes to heaven, but smote upon his breast, saying, God be merciful to me a sinner. I tell you, this man went down justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shalt be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted."

That parable reminds me of the Rameumptom story in the Book of Mormon. It was a ah ha moment after I read the parable in the New Testament, cause it's just another testimony to me that the Book of Mormon is true.

A girl in my stake gave a talk about how many miles are we away from Christ and told the story about the women that had the issue of blood. She just had to touch his hem and she was cured. Then she told the story of the man that walked five miles or so to see Jesus; so that Jesus would go and heal his son. It made me think how many miles are we willing to go to see Christ and how far away are we really away from Christ are we right behind him like the woman with an issue of blood or are we farther than that? And how many miles are we willing to go to be near him again if we have walked away from him?

Another part in the New Testament that I love, is when Christ says a scripture over and over again that has been on my mind a lot and it made me see how much Christ loves everyone. It's near the end of St John in chapter 13 just after Christ has washed the feet of the Twelve it's verse 16. "Verily, verily I say unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord; neither he that is sent greater than he that sent him."

Love!

2010-05-04T22:52:00.002-06:00

So when I said that I ask too much of Heavenly Father, I mean that I feel like I always pray for what I want instead of praying for what I need. Or I feel that I pray selfish sometimes. I like talking to Heavenly Father and I like to tell him what is going in my life. I mean don't get me wrong I try to remember to pray. I hate it when I forget, and I do tell Heavenly Father what I am thankful for. I try to do my best every day.

I am so thankful for all that I have and for my friends and family. I love nothing more than spending time with everyone that I love. Life would be nothing without them.

I have a final tomorrow, it's my only final. I hope it goes well. I am so excited for school to be over with this semester. I have been getting a little sick of school. I am not going to school over the summer. I want and need a break. I want to see if I can get a internship or maybe some volunteer work. I finally decided what I want to do with my life and I want to get into med school. It's the main thing that really interests me in school. I do still dream and want nothing more than to be a wife and mother. I want to be married in the temple.

I need to get my self a gym pass I hope this Saturday I will have time to get one. I really need to start going to the gym again. I do have plans on Saturday but not until the evening. I do need to go to the temple this week. I hope I make it.

Life!

2010-05-01T17:04:00.003-06:00

Wow it's been a while since I last posted. I wanted school to be some what over with. I just have my final to take and then I will be done with school this semester. I have been putting money into my saving for school in the fall. I finally decided what I want to do with my life I want to get into medical school. It will be a lot of school but I might as well do something that I want and love.

Sometimes I feel I ask to much of Heavenly Father. I love being a member of the Church of Jesus Christ. Lately I have been reading the New Testament in the book of St John I love that Christ says that he did not come into to the world to judge but he came to save. General Conference was so good I loved a lot of the talks. I have been going to the temple I haven't gone in a while I need to get back into going weekly.

Well my brother got fired from his job almost a year ago and he still doesn't have a new one. All he does is sit at my parents house and play video games and watch movies or TV. Or he goes over to a friends house. Maybe he looks for a job, I have no idea though if he does or not. I think if he was actively looking he would find one at like Wendy's or something like that. Well I hope he gets one soon!

I want to go hiking a lot this summer. I would love to go up to Bear Lake and lay out on the beach at least maybe 3 times this summer. I can't wait for the summer and I hope it gets warm soon.

Exhilarated!

2010-03-25T00:21:00.006-06:00

Why is it that when I stand on top of a mountain cliff with the wind rushing at my face, or when I take a rain walk in a thunderstorm and breathe in the smell of the rain, or when it's a gorgeous day out and I don't need a jacket and I can drive with the windows rolled down and not get cold, with the air smelling fresh, that I feel so calm, and peaceful. I guess it's because I love the outdoors, and I love being in nature and I don't get to be outdoors as long as I would like. It also leaves me feeling exhilarated.

Last Friday I went out with a good friend of mine and we had a wonderful time at Barnes and Noble. I bought a book of course, it is very hard for me not to buy a book from that store. I bought Alice in Wonderland and Through the looking Glass, it's a very intriguing book. I like it a lot. Then Saturday I went out with good friend in my ward to Applebee's and then we went over to another friends house in the ward for a party and played games and watched Breakin' and Roller Derby. It was a lot of fun.

Sunday was ward conference and it was rather good, at least that is what I thought; though I wish someone in my ward would have taught the Sunday school lesson. Then the Mingles committee went all out and made this huge meal for everyone and it was very good. Then I went home and I was so full that I didn't eat dinner with family. Instead I made chocolate chip cookies, and they turned out really good. Then went over to my aunt's house to visit with her family which was nice.

Monday went to school I was a little late, then I went home ate dinner with my family. Then I went to my wards FHE activity we had a very good lesson, and we played killerball which was a lot of fun. I left for work after that. So I slept in the next day which was very nice. Work hasn't been so bad lately it's been really nice getting a break from what I usually do.

Conference is coming up, and I can't wait. I am happy that I don't have to work during conference, but I do work late Sunday night, and I am not looking forward to waking up for school the next day. But I do get that Monday off so when I get home from school I am going to take a nap. I am so happy though that the sun stays out longer now, and the weather has been so warm which is just awesome.

Well I can honestly say that when I am hiking in the mountains on a nice day or looking at the stars at night, and spending time in the mountains with the wind rushing at me on a very warm day, and being able to smell the rain, and hearing the thunder along with the rain pounding down is very exhilarating!

Fight for the Good in Life!

2010-03-16T23:30:00.005-06:00

Well the warm weather is coming around again and it's making me wish it was summer! It's nice and all having it warm in the valley, but it never lasts especially in the spring. I do hope that when the next storm comes in, that it just rains in the valley and the snow stays up in the mountains. Because snow in the valley does nothing for the water that we need in the summer, the snow in the mountains is what we need for water in the summer.

I read all of the Percy Jackson Lightening Thief books and I really like them. I am reading The Hobbit for the second time in a row and I am reading The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, Angels & Demons, and the New Testament. Huck Finn is really sad but good. I did go and see the Percy Jackson movie and I like it, it's good. I have also seen Alice in Wonderland and I love that movie, I love the whole lesson behind it, and how good overcomes evil. And that you can find that you are brave and you can defeat your own fears. I have also seen the Blind Side and I really love that movie. I want to see How to Train Your Dragon when it comes out to theaters. I also can't wait for the last book of Fable Heaven to come out.

Church is good we just had Stake Conference, and a lot was said that got me thinking; which is cool, so here is bit of what was said. "We are here for a certain purpose and to have experiences that are good and hard." "Temple work has a great benefit for all and not just one special group." "All roads lead to the Temple." "The earth would be utterly wasted if members of the church did not come to the Temple and do service for the dead."

"The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep."
Robert Frost-

It was a really good Stake Conference; I really liked that the Salt Lake Temple President's wife quoted Robert Frost, because sometimes the woods are really lovely dark and deep and I would just like to go into them and spend months in them enjoying the beauty of nature and life; but things need to be done, and life can't be lived by standing still; we all have a part to do and people need us; and they need us to carry our load, but we are never alone Christ is always there standing at the door knocking, but we have to let him in, we have to make room and time for the Savior and Heavenly Father. Once a friend told me that I make life as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ sound so easy, so I told this friend well that's because it is, but we are the ones that make it hard, we are the ones that shut the door to Christ, we are the ones that turn away. With man some things are possible but with God all things are possible.

Can't Stop Me Now!

2010-03-13T00:24:00.002-07:00

I went and watched Alice in Wonderland on Monday and I really do love the the movie and this song performed by Avril Lavigne. Also since I have watched the movie it has got me asking the question...Why is a raven like a writing desk?
Alice Lyrics

Trippin out
Spinning around
I'm underground
I fell down
Yeah I fell down

I'm freaking out, where am I now?
Upside down and I can't stop it now
Can't stop me now, oh oh

I,I, I'll get by
I,I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I,I, I won't cry

I found myself in Wonderland
Got back on my feet, again
Is this real?
Is this pretend?
I'll take a stand until the end

I,I, I'll get by
I,I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I,I, I won't cry

Summer Sun!!

2010-03-02T22:43:00.003-07:00

Well the Olympics are over with, I am sad to see them go; but maybe now I will be able to get better sleep at night. School is still kind of kicking my trash, I wish I loved school but alas it vexes me a lot! I do need to go to the Temple this week. I really wish that life would slow down a bit or stop for a while. But I guess life has to go fast so that we can learn to keep up with it and it helps us in the long run.

On Sunday there was a fireside up at the U of U institute; Sister Bednar spoke and it was a really good talk she had some really good advice. I wish they would put her talk on the church website, but I doubt it.

Work is alright, I do wish I had more hours but during the morning to afternoon. Instead of evening to late night. I would rather have that instead of a raise.

I am watching Lost and I must admit that I am addicted to this show. It is driving me a little nuts because the 6th and final season is susppose answer questions; well it answers some questions, but it also makes more questions.

It was also really warm out side tonight when I got home from work. Why does the weather keep on taunting me with summer weather I am so ready for it to be summer. I am so sick of the cold and it being winter. I so want to go to bear lake and sit in the water and the beach. I want to go hiking and boating as well. There are some many movies out in theaters right now that I want to see.

Under The Sun!

2010-02-22T02:25:00.006-07:00

There is something that I want to write but for some reason I don't know how to write it so that it will make sense.

Well one of my best friends keeps on saying that she is going to leave and move up to Canada for a while I don't want her to. She is the only one that leaves crazy voice mails like I do; and we have a lot in common, she has been a true friend. It makes want to cry when I think about her leaving.

Also a friend of mine came to church in a bad mood, I don't know why. But that also made me feel sad. i guess it made me sad because my friend knows to act better than that.

Another good friend of mine is getting married shortly and I would love nothing more than to be at the celebration but money is the problem as well as work. But I am so happy for her, I wish her the best in life with her future husband!

Well I still want to believe that planet earth turns slowly and I wish I could just sit back and enjoy the beauty of the Utah mountains. I want summer to come, I am sick of the winter and it being so cold. I need the sun. It has felt like I have been away from the heat of the sun for a very long time. I need to be back under the hottness of the sun!!

I Want to Believe that Planet Earth Turns Slowly!

2010-02-08T01:19:00.006-07:00

Sometimes I feel that life is spinning way too fast for me; and I want nothing more than for it to slow down. Or maybe even stop for a while. Or just be like how it is on Sundays, I must admit that I love Sundays; going to church is a lot of fun and I usually learn a lot, I Iove the mingles that we have after church; and we have such a awesome activities committee, and fhe committee. I do need to do better in my callings and I want and need to go to the temple this week because I did not do it last week.

Work still stresses me out and it drains my energy so much sometimes; and I hate it when I have nightmares about work it’s so not fair. You would think that once I am away from the place that I would not have anything to do with work but no I have to dream about it, curse it all!

School is also another thing in my life that stresses and drains my energy. I wish I was done and knew what I wanted to major in; but alas I am not that lucky and nothing really interests me. I wish I could just live in a cabin and have a horse ranch, now that would be a lot of fun just mountains and horses for the rest of my life, that would be awesome! Ah maybe someday when I have a million dollars.

Well all that I can say is that I am hanging in here, and don’t worry about me I am a big tough girl; I tie my own shoes and everything, I can take care of myself all the bad stuff will not bring me down; because I know that I need trails in order to survive in this life. I can take the good with the bad because the good always wins; and I know that my Heavenly Father will always be there for me; and that he tests me so that my weakness will become my strengths.

Harsh Storms!!

2010-02-06T20:29:00.004-07:00

So went out to dinner tonight with my family and my aunts family for my cousins birthday. I am stuffed, good thing it's fast Sunday tomorrow. I am so happy that it's the weekend and that I got to sleep in today otherwise I don't think I would be alive today.

The Olympics are starting next week I can't wait. It's going to be so much fun watching the snowboarding, ice skating, skiing, bobsledding, and so much more. And there is a new episode of Lost next week as well which I can't wait for. I hope they answer more questions and don't leave it hanging as they did last episode. Tomorrow is church and it should be good since it will be the First Presidency Message and it's called On Being Spiritually Prepared, and I love the opening sentence; “If we do not have a deep foundation of faith and a solid testimony of truth, we may have difficulty withstanding the harsh storms and icy winds of adversity which inevitably come to each of us." President Thomas S. Monson

It reminds me of something that I have said before andthat is I like to stand and face the storm head on, because when it comes down hard, I find out that I can handle it. Right now I am watching Cool Runnings and I like what Junior says about knowing what you want and if you want it bad enough then you will get it. But above all else we must come unto Christ and follow him in everything; because then he will make our burdens easy and light and he will take our yokes upon him; and we must always stay in the light and the darkness will not be able to overcome us. And we should want to come unto the Lord.

Next weekend I will be going up to a cabin for a short vacation and that should be good with my family and being able to get away from the city.

Buckle Up and Hold On!

2010-02-03T02:52:00.003-07:00

For some reason lately a scripture has been running through my head a lot and it's Proverbs 3:5-6 and it says "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not to thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths."

I guess the reason why that has been on my mind a lot is because a few of my friends have been afraid to put their trust in the Lord and take risks. They are also scared to fail but that is how you learn and gain experience. No one is perfect and Heavenly Father doesn't expect us to be perfect but he does want us to give it our best; and to not give up and to keep going no matter how hard it gets. I really like the quote from Haunted Mansion "You try you fail, you try you fail, but the only true failure is when you stop trying." There is always hope and I really like what was said in conference by an Apostle and he said "Choose to live by faith, not fear."

Also what comes to mind when I start thinking about these things is Christ he will always be standing at the door knocking but we have to let him in, and even though it sounds so simple, well because it is because the plan was made by Heavenly Father with the help of Christ we are the ones that make it hard that is why it is said that we are lower than the dust of the earth. Only we can let Christ in only we can push him away. Another thing that comes to mind is Anne M. Dibb's talk from last conference about holding on she said "We learn and grow by overcoming challenges with faith, persistence, and personal righteousness. I've been strengthened by President Thomas S. Monson's endless confidence in our Heavenly Father and in us. He has said: "Remember that you are entitled to our [Heavenly] Father's blessings in this work. He did not call you to your privileged post to walk alone, without guidance, trusting to luck. On the contrary, He knows your skill, He realizes your devotion, and He will convert your supposed inadequacies to recognized strengths. He has promised: 'I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up' " (Sugar Beets and the Worth of a Soul," Liahona, July 2009, 3-4; Ensign, July 2009, 5-6).

When I was at work yesterday I noticed an article from the Ensign that someone had put up on their office wall and so here it is.

Gordon B. Hinckley, “Put Your Trust in God,” Ensign, Feb 2006, 63

It isn’t as bad as you sometimes think it is.
It all works out. Don’t worry.
I say that to myself every morning.
It will all work out.
Put your trust in God,
and move forward with faith
and confidence in the future.
The Lord will not forsake us.
He will not forsake us.
If we will put our trust in Him,
if we will pray to Him,
if we will live worthy of His blessings,
He will hear our prayers.

No matter what Heavenly Father wants us to be happy; as long as we don't give up and endure to the end and do the best that we possibly can; then there is no need to fear and we will have faith. Just believe in yourself because Heavenly Father already does.

There's Always Gonna Be Another Mountain!!

2010-01-29T22:51:00.004-07:00

Life has a funny way of making things work out, and then again life is funny when things don't work out. I guess it is for the best, but I will always have that what if. Lately I have been so wrapped up in my life and a book and school; that I have been kind of staying out of touch with a few friends, so to all of my friends who are reading this........How are you all? Sorry I have been out of touch I would like to say that I will do better but I am not perfect. But I love you all so much! I know my fault for letting our friendship slip away. But in the end I hope you all will find it in you to forgive me. I will say though that I will try my best to keep in touch.

Life is hard some days but for the most part I know I need it to be hard. It's the only way that I can live in this world. I have known for a while that I don't need to prove myself to anyone anymore; as long as I am true to myself and Heavenly Father, I am not worried about what other people say about me. The cup is always half full with me.......always! It's never half empty!! Because I was born for the storm, and oh how I need it! Even though sometimes I don't understand it!

School is good, I didn't do so well on the quiz; but I hope things will improve when I get my laptop that's coming. I must say that I am a U.S. History freak but I am learning new things. Church is good I just wish they would fire me from my stake calling but I don't think that will happen for a while.

There are a lot of things that I want to do in this life, I know that I won't be able to do everything; but I can try my best to do what I can! Lately there have been a lot of thoughts going through my head because of what people have said or I just have been thinking about it. So here are a few of them.

"Some may say, “I don’t like myself.” Sorry. You can shape who you become, you can be more than you are today, but you will always be you." Elder Anderson CES Fireside Jan. 10, 2010

"I like to stand and face the storm head on, cause when it comes down hard, I find out that I can handle it."

"Kind words are sweet tones of the heart." Hymns 232

"So how can you see what your life is worth, Or where your value lies? You can never see through the eyes of man, You must look at your life, Look at your life through heaven's eyes."

"There's always gonna be another mountain I'm always gonna wanna make it move always gonna be an uphill battle and sometimes I'm gonna have to lose."

Winter Coldness!

2009-12-28T21:40:00.002-07:00

So Christmas with the family was awesome. Just opening presents with the family, and having a yummy dinner; and just being able to be lazy all day and not have to go anywhere! Ah it was nice! Saturday I went to lunch with friends from high school; and then I went shopping which was a lot of fun. Then I went and watch Invictus with a friend in my ward. That was such a good movie, the ending kind of dragged on a bit, but it was fun to get out of the house!

Sunday went to church, then came home had dinner with my family. Then we had family home evening and the lesson was very good. It was on Ann M. Dibb her talk was called Hold On. She quoted President Monson and he said "Remember that you are entitled to our (Heavenly) Father's blessings in this work. He did not call you to your privileged post to walk alone, without guidance, trusting to luck. On the contrary, He knows your skill, He realizes your devotion, and he will convert your suspposed inadequacies to recognized strengths. He has promised: 'I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up' " ("Sugar Beets and the Worth of a Soul," Liahona, July 2009, 3-4; Ensign, July 2009, 5-6).

When I read something like that I feel so blessed to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ, it also gives me a lot of hope to keep holding on, and if we do the best that we can and keep our covenants then our testimonies will be strengthened . I also loved the quote " We must hold on tight to the iron rod and never let go."

Today I went with my mother and watched the Blind Side and that is such a good movie. It dealt with Christian values which I thought was awesome and I should do better in my own life, because I know better!

It also has been really cold where I live. I also enrolled for another semester of school, I just hope I have enough money!

So Tinsel!

2009-12-10T13:02:00.003-07:00

Well I thought since I have time now and I am not longer stressing about my final project, because yay, at last it is done and over with. Now all I have to worry about is the test. So as long as I study for the test it should go well for me!

Halloween was a lot of fun the day before Halloween I went and saw a show with a few friends and afterwards we went to Denny's so that was a lot of fun. Halloween I spent with my family doing trunk or treat at my family ward stake house. It was a lot of fun seeing all the little kids dressed up in their costumes! Then I went over to a friends house and had a little party then we went out to a show and it was fun to go with friends in my ward.

November I got sick and was out of work for 4 days; went to the doctor got some meds and then felt better. Thanksgiving came and that was a lot of fun. I got to see my family and eat dinner with them, it was nice to just spend free time with them. Had some pie and played games with my family!

Now it's December and Christmas is just 15 days away I can't believe how fast this year has gone by. It's also really, really cold here; at least there is snow on the ground, it's going to snow more this weekend and I hope it does. I still need to do some Christmas shopping. I want to make cookies for this season I just hope I have time to do it all. I need to got to the temple I haven't gone yet this week. I will need to go by tomorrow because I don't like going on Saturday it's too busy. So just one test next Tuesday and then I will be done with school for the semester! It's so pretty now that we have snow on the ground, it makes me happy!!

Winter

2009-11-30T17:11:00.002-07:00

Wow what a month. Halloween was a lot of fun this year because I actually had the night off. So I went to trunk or treat with my family and then I went and had fun with friends. Then the first week in November I had H1 N1 and that was not good but I got better. Thanksgiving with the family was good and a lot of fun. We had dinner at 2pm and then played Wii and Rock Band so it was a awesome day then Friday I went out with a friend we went down town and looked at the lights around temple square. Saturday went and slept over with a friend that was pretty fun. Well that is all for now. I will give details later.

Four Seasons!

2009-10-28T22:46:00.002-06:00

So it is super cold here in the valley! Well it's super cold to me, I must admit I didn't think that it would get this cold so fast and that it would snow this early. Although the mountains are very beautiful with snow on them; so now it looks as if we are surrounded by snow, which is pretty neat looking. The seasons have been putting on a wonderful show for me in the valley. Spring was nice and wet but it also got warm, summer was hot and it was nice to get out of the city as often as I did, and go up in the mountains. Now we have fall and the leaves changed colors, not just in the mountains but here in the valley as well. Yesterday we got our first snow fall, and it's super cold to me but it looks awesome well the mountains look awesome!

Tomorrow I have a test, then I am super excited to go to the temple. Well I should be studying for my test instead of blogging. The only thing that I am not excited for is work, but got to get money some how. I am also going to a show Friday night and Saturday night, which should be fun; so I can't wait!

So other than it being super cold here, I love that we have the four seasons in Utah. There are some movies that I want to go and see like Where the Wild Things Are, and I want to get the last book of the Leven Thumps series. I need to finish the last book in the Prelude to Glory series I have just 100 pages left. Then I think I will start reading the last book in the Harry Potter series and finish the Hobbit as well. I want to watch Arsenic and Old Lace again before Halloween is over. I love that movie it makes me laugh a lot!

Smaller Things!

2009-10-27T00:40:00.007-06:00

Ok so October is almost over I am sad to see it go, because the sun is going to start setting much earlier than it has been. But at least this year we had a good fall; all of the trees have been changing color especially in the valley which has been awesome.

I am still loving my institute class on Tuesday nights. Brother Wilcox is such an amazing teacher I am learning so much about the book of Revelation. I am also reading the book of Matthew in the bible and it is so cool to read it after I have been to Israel because now that I have been to Israel the stories are a little more clear. School is good I don't like going and taking notes but I am doing well on the homework and tests. So it makes me happy that I am not failing.

Church is good too! Especially Relief Society and Sunday school for some reason lately I have been getting a lot out the lessons! I guess it's because when I comment I am able to focus more on what the teacher is trying to get across. Sacrament meeting has been good as well, fast Sundays have been really good lately; and this month and last month we have has some really good talks. I have still been going to the Temple every week which has been awesome I am loving it. The Temple is amazing!!!!!!!!!!!

FHE activities have been fun as well this Monday we went to a corn maze and that was an adventure! Also last Saturday I went to the ward activity and that was a lot of fun; and then I went with April to the Jesters Royal and that was super fun, I laughed so much that my face was hurting by the end of the night it was really good! Also it has been fun getting to know people that are new to the ward. I really do like all the people that are in my ward!

When I went to do my visiting teaching today I decided that I was going to walk to her house, instead of driving; cause it wasn't too long of a walk to take, and walking is very good exercise! But as I was walking down the street that my grandparents used to live; I couldn't help but notice how small the yards and houses seemed now that I am older. I don't know why but when I was younger every yard seemed so huge, well when your smaller things seem a lot bigger. It did make me a little sad I guess because it also felt different. But it was nice to get out of the house and take a walk; and to walk through the leaves that have fallen off of the tress and hear the leaves crunch under my feet; and smell the crisp cool clean air, and to feel that Fall has come to the valley.

October!!

2009-10-05T22:55:00.002-06:00

So last Monday we had sports night for FHE it was fun, I didn't play any sports, I just chatted with people. Then I had institute on Tuesday and school; school was alright I just had to take notes. Institute was fun though. Then went to work for the rest of the week it was also fall break for school, so no school on Thursday or Friday yay! Then Saturday was conference and it was awesome I got tickets for the afternoon Saturday session it was awesome!! Then I went with my two sisters and had girls night out we went to the Pie and then we went shopping and then we watched Fame. Fame was a really good show I loved it! Then Sunday watched conference both sessions, again it was amazing!

Then my mom came home from Disney Land and told us about her trip and then we went over to my aunts house for my cousins birthday then off to work I went! Tonight for FHE we were going to go to the capital and take a tour but then we stayed at the institute and played a game and then had ice cream. Tomorrow I have institute class it should be good. I also have a test this week I hope I do alright! I did go to the temple last Friday that was awesome, I wanted to go on Thursday but I woke up too late and so I couldn't go.

So it's finally October I love that it's October, I thought September would never end. I love that the air smells crisp and clean. In the valley we had some awesome thunderstorms and it snowed in the mountains. Fall and winter are going to be awesome except for the sun going down at 5pm!! Well I guess that's all that has happened since I last posted.

A Friend!

2009-09-26T23:33:00.004-06:00

So Friday was a lot of fun I woke up went to institute then went to the temple. Went home then went shopping then to work. Then off to April's house to watch movies and eat pizza!!! Saturday cleaned house did visiting teaching then off to Relief Society Conference! Got to see a really good friend and then went to Leatherby's and other good friends came as well. So it was a really fun weekend!!!!!!!!

Well a good friend of mine from work moved back home to Canada. I haven't heard much from him, he was like a brother to me and now that he is gone, it's like he doesn't know me at all. So not fair, he said he would get on facebook more and we would be able to talk. Cause at work we would talk all the time, and now it's like we never were friends. What's up with that I really don't understand he was like an actual brother to me I really loved the brother, sister relationship that we had. How come now that he is gone that he talks to all his other friends that he left behind, but doesn't talk to me. It really makes me sad that he won't respond to my messages now. I really valued his friendship!!

I guess it's another reason why I have such an amazing visiting teacher, she makes me feel included and I don't feel so left out in the ward and outside of the ward. She is a true friend and lets me call her whenever I feel like it, and she doesn't get sick of me or make me feel like she needs to hang out with this person more when I am around. She is like another sister to me, just like 6 of my other bestest friends are!

Utah Fall!!

2009-09-24T22:52:00.003-06:00

So winter is coming which will be exciting but I don't want the sun to set at 5pm; and the darkness to come. I mean don't get me wrong I love the winter season and I love Christmas; I like Thanksgiving and the snow! But I don't like it when the snow melts and it's just cold and dark! At least conference is coming and that is always so good and a good friend is coming for a short visit this weekend! School is over with for this week!

Also my visiting teacher is going to come over; and visit teach me and then we are going to play or have an adventure of some kind! Also I am going to go to the temple tomorrow so that is a bonus! I still really love my institute class and I wish could stay longer at FHE! I wish I didn't have to wake up for school. I wish I didn't have a headache right now.

Well fall is finally here in Utah well at least northern Utah, and I am excited for the leaves to change colors and to be able to have the windows rolled down because it's no longer hotter than 80 degrees! I love the way the air feels and smells it's so crisp and clean; and when we have thunderstorms in the fall it's awesome! Also Halloween is coming and I admit I like Halloween it's my 3rd favorite holiday! Well sorry the post is short I don't really have much else to say!

Laughter with Friends!!

2009-09-16T02:22:00.004-06:00

So I have been going to the temple every week which has been awesome!! I am loving it!! It's also finally nice to have a really good friend in the ward; now I don't feel so out of place and it's also amazing that she likes to do things with me out side of church!!!!!!!!!!!!! She is awesome, and a true friend!!

School is good, work is not bad even though some days I just don't want to be there! It will be better when I can have my work hours from 8am to 4:30pm! Still hoping that something will happen so that I can change my work hours, any prayers would be helpful! I really need full time work!! It's so much fun going to FHE and going to Brother Wilcox's institute class! I don't like waking up for school though!

Saturday was a lot of fun, April and I went to a party then we went and got ice cream with a couple of guys in the ward, and it was so funny they thought that we were trying to trick them into a date with us! It was hilarious, ah it's fun to hang out with those two they really make me laugh a lot!! It was good to hang out with another good friend of mine at Barnes and Noble, we didn't buy anything which is amazing for us to do! But it was fun looking around the store I did find a lot of books that I want to buy though!! Well I am getting really sleepy so I am going to end my post now!!

Music!!

2009-09-10T00:21:00.003-06:00

This one of my favorite songs it helps me when I am having a bad day!

Just A Ride Lyrics /Artist:Jem

Life, it's ever so strange
It's so full of change
Think that you've worked it out
Then BANG
Right out of the blue
Something happens to you
To throw you off course
And then you

Breakdown
Yeah you breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me
Because

It's just a ride, it's just a ride
No need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
Sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
Don't be scared
Don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
But don't forget it's just a ride

Truth, we don't wanna hear
It's too much to take
Don't like to feel out of control
So we make our plans
Ten times a day
And when they don't go
Our way we

Breakdown
Yeah we breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me
Because

It's just a ride, it's just a ride
No need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
Sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
Don't be scared
Don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
But don't forget it's just a ride

Slowly, oh so very slowly
Accept that
There's no getting off
So live it, just gotta go with it
Coz this ride's, never gonna stop

Breakdown
Don't you breakdown
No need to breakdown
No need at all
Because

It's just a ride, it's just a ride
No need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you all around
Sometimes you're up
Sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
Don't be scared now
Dry your eyes
It may feel so real inside
But don't forget enjoy the ride

Fall Madness!

2009-09-03T21:43:00.004-06:00

So I have a new visiting teacher and she is just awesome and the best ever! So I went boating with my ward which was so much fun, I got a darker tan which is always nice. We also had a BBQ which was yummy and I had so much fun with April! I went out on the boat twice and tubing is so much fun. It was good to get out and do something different for a change. I did also clean my room this month, which makes me so happy!

Well I thought I was over a guy that I was dating a month or so ago; but it turns out that I am not! But I am stronger than I seem. I will get through this, it will pass and probably sooner than I think it will. And I like two other boys in my ward; and with one of them it's really hard to be around, because a friend of mine likes him. So I say that I am a damsel, I am in distress and I will handle it; it will just be a little hard. But I know I need to go through this because it will help me in the long run!

So I started school last Thursday and it seems like it will be good, although half of the time this semester I will be so tired, I just need to get myself to bed earlier than I normally do. I am also going to FHE every Monday and going to work late shift. On Tuesday I have an institute class in the evening and it is a really fun class Brother Willcox is so funny and I am learning so much. I love my Tuesday night institute class! I also went to the temple this week which was amazing I am going to go every week. I am going to try to go on Thursdays so that I can sleep after school on Tuesday. Then I won't be so dead for work on Tuesday night.

I really hope I get my work hours changed from evening to morning soon I really need it with the way things are happening in my life and I really need full time instead of part time. It would just be the best thing ever to happen to me if I could work from 8am to 4:30pm!!!!!!!! Also summer is ending and that makes me so sad that the sun is going to set at 5pm again but I love the snow and the season that comes with it I just don't like the darkness that it brings, and the cold days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Summer Vacation!!

2009-08-24T12:01:00.003-06:00

Do you ever feel like when you go on a vacation and you love it so much, that when it's time to leave and go back home that you don't feel like you are going back home, but that you are leaving home instead. Well that's the way I felt after leaving my brother in law's uncle's cabin. It was so peaceful and beautiful. Being able to hear the wind in the trees and the grass and not have any city noise was awesome! I was sad to leave when it was over and I really did feel like I was leaving home. We got to drive the ATV's and I went on a couple of walks around the town, played pool and watched movies had fun in the hot spa, looked at the amazing stars at night and just had fun with the family!

Well my good friend Angela came to visit from Texas and brought her friend Katie along with her and it was awesome. We went to Leatherby's and then hiked Doughnut Falls, Silver Lake, and Twin Lakes. On the way back down from Twin Lakes I slipped and fell and got this huge cut on my left knee, but it wasn't too bad I would hike all day every day if I could and even with a big flesh wound. Then we went to Bear Lake, we played in the water and got sunburnt. Also on the way up to Bear Lake people were herding cattle it was awesome to watch! On the way back to home from Bear Lake we stopped and looked a the Logan Temple which was nice to see! We also went up Butterfield Canyon and had smores. The last night Katie and Angela were in town we went over to Camille's house and watched a movie ate popcorn and talked.

Sunday woke up early went with my family to the Oquirrh Temple dedication at 9am then went home and ate lunch then I went and took a nap. Had dinner with my parents and then we went to the city cemetary and looked at prophets and apostles graves that were there. It rained a little bit but not bad. The sunset was gorgeous!

I will miss Angela and Katie now that they have left, I had tonz of fun while they were here in Utah. I got to do a few things that I have been wanting to do all summer long. I am so happy that they were able to come and visit it was so good to see Angela again and it was fun to get to know Katie!!

School is going to start in a few days I confess I do want to go back to school, but I don't want to take tests or be graded on anything; if I could go to school like that I would be so happy for school to start instead of dreading that my summer is over. At least I have one thing to look forward to this week, on Saturday my student ward is having a boating activity so that should be tonz of fun!

Fun Summer!

2009-08-05T23:18:00.003-06:00

Ok so I pretty much ready for school this fall semester! I don't have to buy any books so far which makes it even better!! So I want to see if I can get a job in my department during the morning, day hours. Because then I could go to FHE and I could go to the Temple more often and I could do my stake calling; and life would just be so much more easier to handle. So I just need to wait until my supervisor comes back and then I can apply for the position. I would work from 8am to 12pm which would be so awesome; and then I could have my boss put my name down for a full time position and then when one opened up I could get that; and that would just be amazing so I hope this job change will happen soon at least by next Friday!

This Saturday is my family reunion on my mom's side it will be fun to see those that come! So it will be fun, we are going to Wastington Park and it will be fun to walk around and explore! Since my sister's husband has a uncle that owns a cabin we are going to the cabin next weekend with the whole family which will be so much fun! We get to go swimming and 4 wheeling and just be lazy and play games and eat food! I can't wait!!!!!!!!!

So summer is ending and I must go back to school I am kind of happy to go back, but at the same time I am sad to see summer go. I love the summer it is my favorite season, I love the heat and the warm summer nights and being able to look at all the stars with no jacket on. I do need to go to the temple as soon as possible. In my personal reading I am in the 7th chapter of Moroni and in verse 41 it says "And what is it that ye shall hope for? Behold I say unto you that ye shall have hope throught the atonement of Christ and the power of his resurrection to be raised unto life eternal, and this because of your faith in him according to the promise." and that verse hit me so hard I had to got back and read it again; I just thought that verse was so amazing that if we just have hope and faith in the atonement of Christ that we can recieve the promise of eternal life! I am so thankfull for my Heavenly Father and my Savior Jesus Christ for leading me in my life. I know the Book of Mormon is true, and I am so thankful for the guidence that it gives me! The summer so far has been a fun one and I have a lot of good memories!

Realize!!

2009-07-25T23:33:00.003-06:00

Now that I have broken up with a boy that I was dating, I have come to realize a few things. I now have a better sense of what I want in a guy that I date. He has to be on the same page as me spiritually, and socially or a page ahead. If I ever start worry about other people's opinions about the guy that I am dating then it's just not going to work; and I need to feel calm with the boy that I date. With the next boy that I date, the relationship will have to go very slow. I have also realized that my mom needs to live forever so that I can always ask for her advice on things!

I went to the zoo the other day and it was a lot of fun! But it also made me realize again about how much I miss my grandparents; oh how I wish my grandparents were still alive and able to come to the zoo with me, or I wish that I could take them out to dinner or go to a concert or theater production. Or I wish I could go on vacation with them, and just to be able to call them on the phone and talk with them and tell them that I love them.

I got to see my younger sister and her husband on the 24th which was a lot of fun; it was good to see them I am happy that they came over and had dinner and did fireworks with us. It was also good to see my aunts family! I had to work on the 24th and the 25th but it wasn't bad because I got off at 5pm so I was still able to do stuff which was nice; and I do get two days off next week which will be a lot of fun.

Well I am starting to feel very tired so I think I am going to go to bed now, and get some sleep so that I can wake up and be on time for church!!!!!!!!

Summer Hotness!!

2009-07-20T01:34:00.003-06:00

Wow this year has been pretty crazy, but I have been having a lot of fun! It is still hotter than ever here in Utah, but I prefer it that way I guess that's why I was born in July, because I love the heat! Summer is also my favorite season and the 4th is one of my favorite holidays!! Well I went to a party at my good friend Aimee's house and I went to the Oquirrh Mountain temple open house and that was really neat it is such a beautiful temple. I also did visiting teaching I still have one more girl to visit teach and then I will be done for the month, I do also need to go to the temple.

I also went with my ward up to Brighton for an activity we hiked up to Lake Solitude and then had dutch oven dinner and dessert! It was a lot of fun. Church was really good last week and this week. I really liked the story that Manelle shared in Relief Society about her mom; I just feel really bad because I was late but most of the time I am always late for church, I hate it I don't like or want to be late. Katie's lesson in Sunday school was good as well, I just hate it when I don't make any comments. Then it was guess who's coming to dinner I went to Jeff's house and we had tacos and it was really yummy! Also Hiram taught us how to breathe fire, and that was pretty neat; we also played a card game which was a lot of fun!

I was also dating a boy but things got way out of hand and so I broke up with him; which I am very happy that I did, because it just didn't feel right. But now I like another boy in my ward and I am not sure that he likes me. I think he used to like me, but now I am not so sure; so now it's kind of a wait and see if he gets that I am flirting with him, and hopefully it will be sooner rather than later, because I would like go out with him. I also might have another date with another boy that I met at my friends house at a party, that is if he ever calls me; it will be fun to see how that plays out.

The 24th is coming up this week which should be fun! My family and I usually go to the parade and then have dinner and have fun with fireworks! But this year I think we are just going to have a dinner and party and then have fun with fireworks; which is fine with me because then I get to sleep in! Saturday I will probably make plans with friends; so this week should be good I hope! Work will be lame but what is new about that, I usually find fun at work so it shouldn't be too bad! I also went a watched Harry Potter 6 opening night at 12am with some friends in my ward it was a lot of fun, but I was so out of it and tired when it was over! It was a good movie I wouldn't mind watching it again in the theater!!

Hot Summer Days!!

2009-07-07T12:14:00.003-06:00

Wow a lot has happened in the past week. Most of it has been work but on the Friday July 3rd I went out with my friend Jessi down to Provo to the freedom days event that was going on down there and that was a lot of fun we also went to the mall and went shopping. Then we went to Apple Bee's and that was very yummy!!!!!!! Since Saturday was the 4th of July I spent it with my family, at Sugar House Park. We went to the Park around 11am and stayed there the whole day it was a lot of fun. A few of us went down to Barnes and Noble and we also got some food! Then The fireworks went off into the sky and it was beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday I went to church it was good and also I got talking to a boy and we have plans for Saturday and I am going to see if he wants to do something tonight after I get off of work. So we will see what happens, we will see!!!!!!!!!!

Finally the weather has been nice, and the sun hasn't been disappearing for a weeks at a time anymore! I am loving it even though it sometimes feels like it's too hott!!!! But I have to admit that I love the hot I guess that is why I was born in the summer! Today is also my birthday which is kind of neat! I am not really having any parties today because I am partying with my family on another day. But I am afraid that this month is going to be packed and that I am going to be double booked a lot! Oh well at least I will be busy!!!!!

Summer!!

2009-06-30T12:53:00.003-06:00

Today is the last day of June I hate to see it go since summer is just starting; hopefully in July it won't rain as much! I went camping with my family just this weekend and it was fun. It was really cold because we were 10,000 feet up the mountain and the stars were very pretty you could see the milky way band; there were lots of deer, jack rabbits, and chipmunks. It was a lot fun hiking and just being with most of my family, and the caves were beautiful as well. I did get sun burnt but not too bad it will go to a tan soon!

Last week I did a few things with friends and that was a lot of fun! I can't believe the forth of July is coming up, I will be going with my family to Sugar House Park. So it should be fun! Then the next Saturday I have a party to go to I just hope I don't have to work before the party! Work is lame and a little boring now that one of our leads is back! I would like to see some more movies that are in the theater this summer, and I do want to star gazing in the valley some time this summer! Also I have finally reached my goal I have lost 30lbs, I am so stoked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rain, Rain Go Away!

2009-06-22T00:09:00.004-06:00

Don't get me wrong or anything but it really, really, really needs to stop raining in the Salt Lake Valley! I mean we just barely got out of winter; and now the sun is disappearing again. I need the sun to come out; and I need summer to start or I think I might just go mad! No not really but I just have been missing the sun! June is almost over and I hate to see it go so quickly; tomorrow I am going into work late shift so that I can go to FHE we are having hot dogs and playing outdoor Volleyball. So it should be fun, I don't think I will eat hot dogs though, I think I will eat before I go to FHE. Because I should stay away from the junk food as much as I can.

So this Friday most of my family and I are going to Great Basin National Park and I am going to hike my little heart out! So it should be lots of fun we are camping at the park which my family hasn't done in a long time so that should be interesting! I bought myself a air matress and a new sleeping bag so I hope I don't freeze, and I hope it doesn't rain on us! So last Wednesday I had the night off from work and my friend Rose and I got some pizza and then went and watched Night at the Museum 2 and it was really funny! It was a fun night away from work! Also I went on a free tour around the Capital Building and that was way neat, I want to go again and I want to go see the 8th International Art Competition that they are showing at the Conference Center.

Also this year I have been wanting to go river rafting, so I made the comment on facebook that I want to river rafting really bad and my friend Aaron said "Blow up a floatable & stick it in the bathtub! Just close your eyes & swish the water around...almost like a Class II..." that comment made me laugh so hard for about five minutes it was so freaking hilarious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That just totally made my day about 100 times better!!

Roller Coaster!!

2009-06-16T22:27:00.023-06:00

Well last Saturday I went out with my family to Denny's, and had dinner with them it was nice being able to see my sister and her husband. Then they came over to the house for a bit after Denny's so I got to visit with them a little longer. Sunday was guess who's coming to dinner, I made enchiladas, it went well enough, even if I couldn't have it out side in my back yard. Church was good I was actually on time for once it was a miracle! I don't like it when I am late!

Monday I went to work and then I went bowling I only played one game though I got a 107 and for someone that hasn't bowled in two weeks I think I did pretty well! So since I worked on Saturday I have tomorrow off and I am going to tour the Capital and go to the Pioneer Museum, and then I am having dinner with my good friend Rose and then we are going to see Night at the Museum 2 and maybe some other people will join us so it should be and eventful day!

So lately I have been thinking about things, I was hoping for boy that I had met to be interested in me enough to want to talk to me a lot on facebook. But alas it seems I repel boys I am tired of ending at a dead end all the time. I hate having to start all over again, but for some reason I can't help myself I met new boys and I get new crushes and it starts again. I just wish it would end or at least come to an end soon, I am tired of getting my hopes up; and I am tired of the boys that like me more than a friend; because I don't like them the same way and it makes me feel bad, because I can't be what they want me to be. Even though, I wish that I could; but I know in my heart that I can't like them more than a friend. I want to give up but every time I try to give up I get pushed forward which is good, but I hope that this roller coaster of trying to find the boy for me will end soon. I know that things will never be perfect and that it takes a lot of hard work for a relationship to work, but at least the roller coaster of dating and flirting will be done!

But I am so thankful for all that my Heavenly Father has given me and I guess all this dead end stuff is experience that I need for the future. I am so thankful for the Savior and his sacrifice for us so that we will have the opportunity to return to Heaven and live with God the Father and Jesus Christ.

Positive Thinking!

2009-06-10T23:06:00.002-06:00

So I am not missing Alberta so much anymore. I am missing how the stars looked in Montana. I do want to go back to Alberta again someday. But for now I am happy with being back home. So yesterday I went to one of the Concerts in the Park on Temple Square and since it was raining they had in the Assembly Hall. The concert was good the group that performed sang really good but they just had some really cheesy jokes and it kind of got old after a while. Then I went to work which was fine it wasn't as lame as I thought it would be.

When I got home after work I wanted to charge my cell phone; but I couldn't find my cell phone charger! Uh it was horrible I looked every where and so I gave up for the time being so that I could get some sleep. So then I woke up today and looked everywhere; I even looked in places where I don't take my phone charger! But still no luck so I just went and bought me new one! If we didn't have a thunderstorm today I would have been in a very bad mood for the rest of the day! Today is also my mom's birthday which was nice, I had to work; but she and my dad went out for dinner and a movie.

I am hosting guess who's coming to dinner at my house, and I want to have it out side so I hope that it doesn't rain on us. So far it is just going to be partly cloudy; but if it does rain I am pretty sure that I can move the dinner to inside my house since I don't have a big group coming for dinner. So it will all work out but I would really like to have it outside in my back yard! Friday I am going to a party at a friends place and I will have to bring a snack, but it should be fun! Then I have to work on Saturday but I am happy that I get a day off the next week so it shouldn't be too bad.

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2009-06-10T02:07:00.000-06:00

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Life is still Sweet!!

2009-06-07T22:04:00.003-06:00

Friday I had the night off so I made plans with my good friend Rose! So we decided to go up to the State Capital Building and just run around and look at things. It was a lot of fun then we went to Brigham Young Historic park, for a concert that was going on at the park and that was fun. Then we grabbed some food; and then went and found a good spot to look at the Valley at night and to eat our food!!

Saturday I didn't sleep well so I woke up late and then went to a friends baby shower; I got to see some of my friends that I haven't seen in a really long time; and that was a lot of fun being able to see them!! Then my friend Camille took me up to Sandy and we hiked along Dry Creek and that was just amazing! It was really beautiful even though it rained on us a bit!

Then today I was late for church surprise, surprise! But it was good, Rick did a good job on his lesson even though again I didn't make any comments. I feel bad when I don't make any comments in Sunday school. Because it was a really good lesson and Katie did a really good job last sunday when she taught! Uh! Well then in sacrament meeting I sat down next to a boy who was somewhat new in the ward and he was pretty good looking, and he introduced himself and he seems very nice; I should have invited him to go to a concert with me on Tuesday but I didn't think of it until he left church! Well there are other concerts, and I will have a chance to talk to him again! So I will live, anyway sacrament meeting was pretty good! Then I went over to my aunt's house with my family and my sister and her husband were there and it was good to see them both! And I go to see my other sister which was nice! So this weekend and Sunday was good!

Another 50 word mini saga!!

2009-06-04T11:38:00.002-06:00

"So how are you liking Alberta?" He asked me. "I love it here, it makes me so sad that I have to leave tomorrow." I said. "You would give up living in Utah to live up here?!?" He asked. "Well I wouldn't want to live up here forever." I said.

Life is Still Good!!

2009-06-01T17:21:00.002-06:00

So I lost 3lbs in Alberta which makes me so happy; so that makes a total of 24lbs that I have lost!!! Saturday there was an activity at my Bishop's house so I went there and talked to some of friends and the Bishop's wife made breakfast; which was yummy, then I went hiking in Mill Creek Canyon with my good friend Rose and that was fun and very beautiful!! Then went over to my aunt's house and had dinner and I got to see some of my cousins, which was nice!!

Sunday went to church we were combined with the boys in the first hour, Sunday school was good, Katie did a wonderful job, even though I didn't make any comments! The last hour of church it was kind of hard to focus. The mingle was good and then I went home and had dinner with my family and then we had fhe with my aunt's family. Then I got visit taught which was most wonderful!

Life is Good!!

2009-05-28T23:52:00.011-06:00

Well I got my wish I was able to go on at road trip and have a vacation!! I went to Calgary Alberta, Canada! I left Wednesday night with my friend Jen, and three others. We made a short stop in Idaho Falls and got to look at the Temple and grabbed something to eat. It was really awesome to get to see the Idaho Falls Temple at night! Driving through Montana at night was pretty neat; the stars were so beautiful that it made me want to cry! As we were driving through Montana we see this white light on the mountain, so my friend Kar and I were wondering what it was; and in the back seat Jen kept on saying that it was Mary, but we thought that she was talking about something else, so finally I asked Jen, "Jen what is that big bright light on the mountain," and she says "It's Mary," and then it finally dawns on us that it's a statue of the the Virgin Mary on the mountain; and we just start cracking up laughing, it was so funny!! Then we got into Alberta around 5am and it was freezing cold!! Then we got into Calgary, and we got fed breakfast at one of Jen's friends house, which was really nice! Then I went with Jen and we visited some of her family which was a lot of fun! Jen and I got fed dinner at her brother's house and then they taught me how to play poker, we only played for fun though! I won a few hands! Jen and myself had fun with her nieces and nephews at her brothers house, jumping on the trampoline, I have forgotten how much fun a trampoline is.

Then the next day we went to the Calgary Olympic Park where they have the ski jumps and the bobsled track, and that was neat; they also had a Hall of Fame and a Museum. Then I went with Jen and her mom and we watched Angels and Demons; and then we went out to dinner along with Jen's dad to Montana's; the food was to die for! It was so yummy, we so need a Montana's in the valley!! Then I with Jen to a friends house and we played a game and that was a lot of fun. So Saturday we went to Banff National Park and it was so beautiful!! First though we stopped at Cougar Creek and we went on a hike and we also got to play in the water which was fun, I did get a sun burn. Then we finally got to Banff and had dinner; the down town area looks like Jackson Hole. Then we finally got to see some sites. We saw the Bow Falls and the Banff Springs Hotel, and Lake Moraine and Lake Louise both of the lakes were still frozen but still very pretty, at least I thought both lakes were still very beautiful! Then we went back to Calgary to go to bed.

Sunday woke up and went to Jen's student ward that she was in before she moved to Utah. Jen and I went to a fireside. After the fireside we went over to one of her friends place and played catch phrase and what's yours like, so it was a fun night, and over all a good Sunday! Then Monday we went to the Calgary Zoo and that was really cool, and a lot of fun, we didn't have time to see all of it. Then we were going to leave that Monday night, but my friend Jen got sick so we didn't leave until Tuesday morning. So the drive back down was cool; and I am happy that I got to see some of the Montana mountains in the day light. Montana is just beautiful!!!

I happy that I got to go to Alberta, and I met some really amazing people while I was up there! I would really love to go back again this year if I could. But with school in the fall I don't think I will be able to go again until next year, which makes me a little sad; I would really like to go up there again and see the Calgary stampede that I keep hearing about! Also I would really like to see all the people that I got to know, again! Ok so I know that this says I posted on Thursday, but it should really say Sunday May 31, 2009!

Still Standing After Change!!

2009-05-17T22:54:00.004-06:00

Friday I went to work came home I didn't feel like going to the gym, so I just stayed home and watched movies on the TV. Saturday I slept in really late then I got up did some errands and then I went shopping I found some stuff that I really like though I need to take back a pair of jeans and get a different pair. So Saturday was an alright day I just wish I had other plans with friends but alas I didn't, so then I went home and got some stuff ready for Sunday. Then I tried to go to sleep but I couldn't shut my mind off so I only got like 5 hours of sleep last night.

Today I got up got ready for church I was a little late for church, but not to late church was good though I am really going to miss one of my friends that left today for Florida for an internship, I love that girl like a sister, it is going to hard not having her here anymore! The mingle was good Then I went to guess who's coming to dinner and that was good. Then I went out with my two new friends in my ward to another friends house. That was fun, their were some hot boys there!

Well I would really love to go out of town this week or at least get out of the city, but it all depends on if I can get work off especially on Friday! Well I will just go into work tomorrow and see. So I like two of my guy friends one doesn't seem to be into me as much as I am in to him, and I don't know about the other one yet I haven't really flirted with him yet so I will probably know soon that is if I get the courage to flirt with him!

Well one of my friends is still causing a few problems in my life and I don't like it. Even though it's not as bad as it was before. So thank goodness things are getting a little better. It makes me hurt though that this friend doesn't want to fix things, cause if this friend would things in this friends life would be so much better. Then this friend wouldn't have feel like they need to run away from things all the time. This friends just needs to stand and face things head on!

Also another thing that has been on my mind a lot lately is my grandparents. I miss them so much and wish they were here with me to share in my life with me! I would give anything in the world (well within reason) to be able to talk to them for a few hours, or to just call them up on the phone and tell them I miss them and love them so very much! I thank my Heavenly Father so much for allowing them to be in my life for at least 16 years! And I thank him for allowing Michaella to come in my life and become like a sister to me before she had to leave for Florida! Also I thank my Father in Heaven for my good friend Angela Jones, cause I think if she didn't leave to move back to Texas we would not have become so close like sisters. Many things have changed in my life lately and I welcome the change because for the most part the change has been good!!

Good Times!!

2009-05-07T23:10:00.002-06:00

So this week has been good for the most part, the weather has been good. Monday I got to go to FHE, and that was a lot of fun we picked up trash along the Jordan River Parkway and we go to play on the play ground. Then some of my friends from the ward and I went bowling my first score was 58 and then I got 108. So not bad I wish I could have beaten my score of 124! Then after bowling we went to IHop, and the pancakes are yummy!

Tuesday I slept in and then went to work, then after work I went out with a few friends from my ward then came home and I went to bed! Wednesday slept in again and then went to work. I was going to go to the gym but I decided not to. Today I over slept, I went to work, and I actually had fun at work. Then I went to the gym and that was good.

I have lost another 2lbs making a total of 21lbs that I have lost now! Lets just hope I can keep it off, so far I have been able to. Now that I have 21 gone that leaves 9 more to go!

Tomorrow I have a lot of things that need to get done. I need to get my brother a birthday gift and get some starburst for a party after work if it doesn't fall through. I need to get my nails done and hopefully I can get a job application. Then off to work I go. If I don't go to a party tomorrow night then I will go to the gym, maybe, it depends on how tired I am. I met a new guy and I like him a lot, he is taller and older than me which I like and we have a lot in common. So I will just have to keep at it, we are good friends now so hopefully it will turn into something more! But we will see, it may take some time for him to realize that I like him more than a friend!

Partly Cloudy!!

2009-05-03T22:21:00.002-06:00

So then sun it seems to have gone behind a cloud again. I was hoping for the sun to stay out longer this time. It makes me sad and a little hurt again to see the sun go away from me. But I know now that the sun has to disappear in order for me to appreciate the sun being out; it has to leave me sometimes! Even though I was hoping for the sun to stay out longer for good long time. I guess there is still something that I need to learn. I know that I need trials in order to survive in this life. This life is hard but that is the way it's always going to be, it's the only way it will be worth it. It's the only way to get back home to live with God the Father and Jesus Christ and to become Gods and Goddesses like Heavenly Father and Heavenly Mother.

I feel like I am running out of ideas. I still have a few more but will it be enough? I have had this constant poking ever since February to not give up on my life to keep going, hope has helped me to keep on going. It has been awesome knowing that I can get through my trials, and I am not afraid of them anymore. I know that being me is enough and that I need to focus on others, because it makes me forget about my self and I love it. Because then I am not depressed all the time and it helps me to stay happy and loving life!

Ok so Friday I went and ran some errands for my mom and then I went to work. At work I find out that I am working the next day and I had already made plans to go and get pedicures and get my hair done. So since I couldn't find anyone to cover my Saturday work shift I asked for Monday off and I got it off. But I had to cancel a few things and then rearrange things around so that I could go to work and still go to my family wards mother, daughter dinner and still go and watch movie with some of my friends. So Saturday was crazy day but good work wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. The mother, daught dinner was good I got to see my little sister and her husband and I got to see my older sister as well. My brother in-law was so funny the Young Women were taking kids for rides in a wagon and my brother in-law got in line and actually went for a ride in the wagon it was so hilarious!

Then I went to a movie with friends we went out to Jordan Landing and watched the X-Men and it was pretty good not bad. Then we went to a friends house and played on the Wii and talked then we all went home to go to bed. Then today I got up and went to a friends baby blessing and then I went to my ward and I was on time for once! Went to all meetings and then I went to the mingle I made a new friend and that was cool. I have tomorrow off and I am going to get a pedicure and then I am going to FHE I am so excited! So I guess the sun is out I just have to look around long enough to find it.

Sunny Days!!

2009-04-30T13:57:00.004-06:00

Ok so Tuesday after work I went to sing karaoke, with two of my friends from the ward! It was fun I don't think I did very good but oh well it was fun! But my friend Liz has an amazing voice and Brian has a good voice as well. It would be cool to have them sing in sacrament meeting. Then I put in Cool Runnings but I fell asleep like 20 min into the movie! So I slept in which was nice but I think I over slept a bit too much, so I woke up and got ready for work and then came home got something to eat then got on facebook! Then today I slept in but not as long as I did yesterday got up showered and now I am on facebook again! Then I went to run a few errands I needed condtioner and cereal and my mom wanted me to get her some sandals. Then I made food for me to eat so that I wouldn't faint at work!

Went to work it wasn't bad. Then I came home got changed for the gym, I got in a 30 min work out which is good. Then I got home and I was hoping that I had lost at least another pound; but sadly I haven't lost anything for a while, but at least I am not gaining any weight! So that makes me happy!

Another thing that makes me happy is now the drama in my life seems to be winding down I hope! The rain seems to have stopped and the sun is back out I want it to last for a good long time now. Also another thing is it seems as if time is slowing down a bit for me right now. Which I don't mind especially since things are finally getting good again.....and hopefully it will get even better! I am so greatful for my Heavenly Father and all that he does and gives me. Life for me is calm and content now. I just hope that no one that I know gets swine flu including myself, I hope that they can get this virus under control so that no one else will have to die. But outside today it was so nice and warm, too bad I had to work; I so would have loved to do something outside like go to a park or the zoo with some friends. But alas I need money. I wish I could invent a money tree and grow it in my back yard that would be so awesome if that could come true! But since that is not going to ever happen I must work. So I must live my life as best as I can!

Sunlight!!

2009-04-28T13:00:00.003-06:00

Friday I woke up got ready for work and then went to work, I wanted to go to the to the gym after work. But I was so tired after work that I decided that it was best I didn't go. So I will just have to go next Thursday and Friday, now it will be easier since school is out for the semester! Then Saturday I cleaned some of my house; and then got ready to go to the ward activity since I promised Cambree I would go. So I worked some things out with my friend and I know that things are not going to be the same. I must confess I am good with things not being the same as they once were, I guess it's the only way that I can move on with my life. The ward activity was pretty fun we were going to go bowling, but then we couldn't so we went back to the institute and played catch phrase and had snacks and nachos. Then we went to a friends house and watched Transformers!

Then when I got home I find out that one of my best friend's father pasted away Saturday morning, so my thoughts and prayers are with my friend and her family; my heart goes out to her! So Sunday was pretty good I really enjoyed Meg's lesson in Relief Society, Sunday School I couldn't focus all that well. Sacrament meeting was better I could at least focus on the talks. The mingle was pretty fun I got to talk to some people that I haven't seen in a while. Then Monday I got ready for work. I went to work and then I went bowling with some friends in my ward my first score was 124 so I have a new high score to beat, then my second score was 111! So I broke a hundred twice!!

So all in all, I think things are finally looking up! Also I called one of my best friends on Sunday and she hasn't called me back yet; I hope that at least by this weekend I will get a call or a text from her. Well since the sun is back out in my life, I hope it will stay out for a good long time!

Still Standing!!

2009-04-23T14:33:00.005-06:00

I had no idea that my life was going to get so out of control at the end of this month. I must confess that I am still hurting a little, though I am done being hurt, it needs to go away. But I guess I have to go through this; so that I can know that no matter what happens I will still be standing in the end! And I am still standing.........hope, I guess is still pushing me to move, to still go on. I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father even though it may seem like one of the doors in my life is shut, two more have opened wider. I hope with time, that the one that seems shut, will open again. Even though I know that things will probably never be the same as they once were, but maybe someday, somehow the change will be for the better. All that I can do now is still pray for this friend, and hope that things will work out for the best! All this time I have been wondering why I haven't cried, but I finally figured out why, and it's because it is not my fault. I really needed to cry though, it would have helped the pain leave or at least it would have been less. I am willing to accept the fact that things between this friend and I will never be the same. But I do hope that my friend will learn and grow from this experience. Going through this trail has changed me even a bit more.

So since I had such a crazy week I didn't take my final on Tuesday like I wanted, since I didn't study at all last week like I was going to, since I was in a state of complete shock. I stayed up really late last night and studied and then woke up really early this morning to take my final and I am really tired! This whole thing has really warped me! Good thing school is over with for this semester and I can sleep in tomorrow! I just hope I can make it through work! I am not going to the gym tonight either because I know I am just way too tired. So hopefully all the hurt and pain that I am feeling will pass sooner that I expect it will. I will for sure go to the gym after work on Friday and that should make me happier!

So I will say this last thing, I care about everyone around me, I don't like it when people are mad at me. Because in High School I know I hurt a few people, so when I got out of High School and matured a bit, I decided that I wasn't going to let every little thing get to me, and so I changed and I have been pretty much the same ever since. Of course about a month ago I became content with who I am and I know that just being me is enough. I am still standing and so I say again bring it on!!

Ward Stuff!!

2009-04-21T13:50:00.003-06:00

Sunday I got up I still felt sick to my stomach and so I didn't eat anything before I went to church. Got to church a little late but not too late! My good friend Rachel taught in Relief Society it was really good, she shared a personal experience that made me stop and think, and I love it when people say things that make stop and think! Then in Sunday school I find out something that I was afraid that would happen, I wasn't really surprised at all. Of course for the rest of church I couldn't focus, cause I was so worried for my friend. But things are better now and even though I am still hurt the pain is going away I hope! Then after church we had the mingle and it was good I didn't want to eat anything but I had fun talking to everyone that was there! Then I went to guess who's coming to dinner at Erica's and Cambree's house it was fun. Jake Jensen got us laughing pretty good, I had a good time!

Then Monday I woke up got ready for the day I had the night off so I went to Stake FHE and I had fun; one of the guys in the ward brought his roomate, and he was really good looking and so nice and funny! I wish I wouldn't get so nervous when I am around boys that I like, because for some reason my mind always goes blank and then I don't talk, and I feel so stupid. So I hope I get to see him again. Then I went bowling with friends in my ward I got like a 72 and then I got 115!!!!! Yay! I beat my previous high score! I was so stoked!! Then I went home got something to eat studied a bit for my final and then went to sleep!

Wow what a week!!

2009-04-18T22:25:00.006-06:00

Thursday I hear that a friend of mine is mad at me for something that is not my fault, and this friend told me twice that it wasn't my fault. So I admit I was really mad, I had so much adrenaline pumping through me, that if I hadn't got enough sleep the night before, so that I could go to the gym after work, I probably would have went over to my friends place and either yelled at or hit this friend. But since I wanted to go to the gym, I went, because I knew that my anger would leave me and it did! But I was still really hurt, I never thought that a friend could or would ever make me hurt so much! Thursday I also went to school and institute which was good I was really late for school though. Then off to work I went.

Friday I woke up at 10:30am and couldn't go back to sleep, so I got up and ate food and then went to work and then the gym! Today I got up at 10:30am again because I couldn't sleep any longer; because I was still really hurt. Then I got ready for work then came home from work for a bit, cleaned the living room then went to a local rock band concert that a friend invited me to; and it was a lot of fun and good music. Then I went out with my friend Rachel to get something to eat, because I really hadn't had anything to eat all day, and that was a lot of fun. We went to yummy Cafe Rio!!!!!!!!! And for some reason I am no longer hurt, well at least not all the time any more. So yay the pain is finally going away, I am healing yes! I was hoping the pain would go away sooner than I expected!

Also since I have been good and I went to the gym twice this week I have lost another 2lbs!! Making a total of 19lbs that I have lost!!!!!!!!!!

So I am really happy that the pain has passed sooner than I thought it would. I wish there was still something I could do to make this friend realize that they can't do this sort of thing to a friend; and then when they decide to apologize expect everything to be the same! I am sorry it doesn't work that way! I am ready and willing to forgive this friend; but this friend of mine needs to be ready and willing to accept the consequences of their actions!

Searching for a Miracle!!

2009-04-15T13:28:00.004-06:00

I am not afraid to be my self and now I let other people see the real me. I really like that I am content with who I am; it has taken me 12 years to realize that just being me is enough.

Lately I have been searching for a miracle and I hope it comes soon or before it is too late! I am still really afraid for one of my friends. I want things to be good again for this friend I want this friend to be happy and loving life. I need these things fixed, because it can't keep on happening over and over again it has gone on long enough. I have been giving this friend of mine advice and help when they needed it. But for some reason it hasn't jogged their head. So I keep on hoping and praying that some how, some way it will get in my friends head; and this friend will learn from this experience. And that my friend will realize that we need trials in order to survive in this life, and I hope that my friend will be able to overcome this trial. Sometimes the Lord has to bring us low before he can lift us higher; and the Lord is not just building the church he is also building us.

"Life it's ever so strange it's so full of change you think that you've worked it out than bang, right out the blue something happens to you, to throw you off course and then you break down. Truth we don't want hear it's too much to take, don't like to feel out of control so we make our plans ten times a day, and when they don't go our way we, break down, ya we break down, don't you break down listen to me, slowly, oh so very slowly except that there's no getting off, so live it, just got to go with it, cause this ride's never gonna stop, break down, don't you break down, no need to break down, no need at all, because it's just a ride it's just a ride no need to run no need to hide, it will take you all around, sometimes your up sometimes your down, it's just a ride, it's just a ride, don't be scared now dry your eyes, it might feel so real inside, but don't forget it's just a ride." This song is sung by Jem and it's called "Just a Ride" if anyone was wondering.

So on a to a positive note I had Monday off from work which was nice I went to my wards FHE and had a blast. We had a talent show and it was really good, one of my friends got up and sang and she rocked the house she was very good. Then I went bowling with some friends in the ward my first score was 82 and then I got a 65 and that is because I haven't bowled for two weeks. So oh well better luck next time!

Loving Life!!

2009-04-12T23:14:00.004-06:00

Saturday was a good day I got to sleep in; and then I woke up and cleaned part of the house up and then I was going to do some laundry, but everyone else in my house was doing laundry so I got ready for the day. I went out to eat with two of my good friends Marie and Camille at the Olive Garden which was so good. Then I went to Barnes and Noble with just Camille since Marie had to finish some things up before Sunday. So Camille and I went to Barnes and Noble and had fun, I wanted to get the book Truman and Camille said to me no I won't let you; and then I said you won't let me why what will you do tackle me to the ground in Barnes and Noble; and then she said yes and then will I put you in my trunk and take you far away and every once in while I will ask if you are dead yet; and then I said could you just imagine that......tackling me to the floor in Barnes and Noble! Then she said ok I guess I will let you get the book! Hahahaha Ahhhhhhh good times, good times!! I love my friend Camille and the sense of humor that we share!! So then I got home and my mom wanted me to run to the store and get some rolls and a pan to cook them in, and I also got me some salad yum! Then I got home did some laundry and then finally went to sleep.

Today I got up late and went to church Sunday School was really good we talked about the importance of unifying the church and I got a lot out of that lesson cause we should be going to church to help and lift others and I find that when I am helping other people with things or serving them then I am spending less time thinking about me and how bad my life is and I get such a good high when I am focusing on other people instead of me and life seems to feel right and I am content. Sacrament meeting was really good too! A girl in my ward that talked also sang "I Know that My Redemer Lives" and that was so uplifting to hear that song on Easter Sunday. I went to the mngle and it was fun we had an Easter egg hunt and then ate cup cakes. Then went home for family Easter dinner over at my aunts house and it was so much fun. My older sister and her husband came and my little sister and her husband came and then my older cousin and his wife came, so we had the entire family there at my aunts house for dinner then we had Family Home Evening and then we played apples to apples bible edition and we all got laughing so hard it was a lot of fun and we also had ice cream cakes that my sister made. So Easter Sunday it was a happy day!!

Now I have lost another 5lbs and so that makes a total of 17lbs that I have lost!!!! Yay!!!!!! I am so stoked!!!!!!!!!!!! My goal is to be able to fit into all of my prom dresses that I have, and to be able to fit into my senior year spirit week shirt and look good in it!

Well there is one thing that is bothering me I wish I still had grandparents I miss them and I think about them every day. Now that I am older and I have a job I wish I could take them out to dinner, that was one thing that I was looking forward to when I got older! I wish I could just pick up my phone and call them and tell them that I love them and that I miss them, or just to be able to go over to their house and visit with them would be wonderful! But I know I am so blessed even though my grandparents are gone I have my family that loves and supports me and friends that love and support me and I am content with who I am, I have a Heavenly Father that loves me and listens to me and my Savior who died for me to take away my sins is so that I can live with God the Father and Jesus Christ if I remain worthy of those blessings.

Life & 50 word mini-saga!

2009-04-10T23:47:00.007-06:00

Well Thursday I went to school and I wasn't as late as I usually am. So school was good on Thursday then I went to my institute class. Institute is always good, we talked about the signs that would come before the second coming. My institute teacher said something that made me think he said that even though we don't know the exact day that the Savior will come we won't be surprised when he does come; if we watch for the signs and obey the Prophet we won't be caught off guard! I love it when people say things that make me stop and think. So then I went home and made me something to eat cause I was starving and then I watched Lost, got on facebook for a bit; then went off to work.

Today I woke up and got ready because I had a nail appointment at 1pm I needed a new full nail set so I knew it was going to take a long time. I got home at like 3:40pm. Then I got a text from a friend asking me if I wanted to come over to Temple Square before I had work since it was such a nice day. But since I needed to eat something, I wouldn't have made it down there in time. I would have loved to go down there since for once it was such a beautiful day!! But alas I didn't have the time. Then I went to work it wasn't too bad, but I was so happy when it was over! The only thing that I am really mad a myself for is I didn't got to the gym on Thursday and tonight so shame on me. But I had stayed up to late on Wednesday and then I couldn't shut my mind off so I couldn't sleep. Thursday night I got enough sleep but work kind of warped me so I went home instead and I was a bit hungry, so I will have to go next week.

So Saturday I don't have much to do, I need to clean the house, and do some laundry; and then I have plans to go out with a friend to the Olive Garden; so it will be good, it will be nice to catch up with her since I haven't seen her in about a month. I do get to sleep in tomorrow, which is nice since I love sleep!

So here is another 50 word mini-saga!

"You are starting to realize how absolutely amazing you are, and how you have nothing to worry about. Everyone likes you and gets along with you so well!! I'm glad that you are able to carry that now." She said to me. My jaw drops, WOW I have an amazing friend.

So there is my second one. I know I have put this on an earlier post.....but this statement about me, really humbled me so I am really happy to have this good friend in my life.

50 word "mini-saga" for Katie!

2009-04-10T00:07:00.003-06:00

Ok Katie this is for you, this is the first one that I have made so here it is............

"What's wrong?" I said with concern. "Nothing that you or anyone else can help me with, it's something that I have to work out on my own." He said to me.
I sigh and touch his arm with concern and frustration, and wonder will he ever tare down this wall?

So there you go, and just to let y'all know that was a real conversation that I had. I will post more of the 50 word mini-sagas when I can have long time to think again!

Bring It On!

2009-04-08T00:23:00.009-06:00

So I did go to my class like the good girl that I am and it wasn't so bad as I thought it would be. I then went to my institute class and we talked about General Conference. It was really uplifting to here what other people in my class thought of General Conference; since it was so uplifting for me. I then stopped by the nail salon to get the gel fixed on my thumb nail since it was coming off, and I went to the Distribution Center to get April Ensigns and the manual for Relief Society; since I left my other one in my sunday school class and I didn't go back to get it, so who knows if it's still at church. So I just bought me a new one!

I finally got home and I was so hungry that I made me something to eat. I had dinner with my parents for once since I had the night off Tuesday, which was nice. It was good to have a evening to do what I wanted. So I went up to the U of U institute to surprise a good friend of mine that I hadn't seen in about a month. But then I ran into a good friend from high school and we got talking about a whole bunch of things, and it was good to catch up, and I ended up sitting next to her in the institute class and I did see my other friend for like a few seconds; and I was hoping to catch her after the class to see if she wanted to get something to eat. But she called me and said that she had to leave since she was falling asleep, and wanted to get home before she fell asleep at the wheel. But then a few of the boys in my ward showed up cause they had a church ball game, and so I stayed and watched them play. I haven't watched a basketball game in while, so it was a lot of fun watching the boys play.

Ok so I am still not over this boy that I like. So I am thinking that even though it is stressing, freaking, and weirding me out a little I know that this is just one of my trails or tests that I have to go through; and so I say bring it on, let the rain come down and the waves crash on top of me; cause I know that I will come out on top standing tall and firm not matter what life throws at me; I am ready for it because I know who I am, I know what I want, I know what I stand for, I am stronger than I seem! But don't get me wrong I know I am nothing without my Heavenly Father he blesses my life so much, that even though sometimes I don't realize it, my cup is always full. I know that the Savior gave his life for us that so that we would be able to return and live with Christ and God the Father. I love Sunday's even though they are the craziest days. I love being able to attend all 3 meetings and then going home and being able to see all of my family, and I am so thankful for all the friends that I have in my life.

Running Through My Head!

2009-04-07T00:14:00.004-06:00

I slept in on Monday which was so nice; then I went to work then again I went to the bowling alley and watched while some of my friends bowled; only 5 of us went to Dee's and so it was a good night over all. Today I have school and I really don't want to go my laziness is kicking in again about school anyway; I would just like to sleep in and just go to my institute class at noon, but I probably won't I will be a good girl and wake up and go to school like I always do. I do need to start waking up earlier so that I can be on time for school and so that I can at least have my hair done before I walk out the door. Also I have no work today so I don't really quite know what I am going to do after school and institute; I may pop in my friends institute class and surprise her cause I haven't seen her for a while. If nothing else turns up I may just go and surprise my friend.

So another thing I really like a guy friend of mine but he doesn't like me, and even though I know he doesn't like me, I still like him more than a friend and I can't shake this feeling. This has never happened to me before and it is freaking me out a little; and I don't know what to do about it. So that is why I really would like to get away, and go on a vacation again. So that maybe if I can get away from this boy then maybe just maybe I will no longer like him more than a friend. Why do I have to like him so much and why won't it go away. Usually I can tell when a boy doesn't like me, so I stop liking him and then when I find out for sure that he doesn't like me more than a friend I don't get hurt. But now that I am no longer hurt by the fact that he doesn't like me the same way that I like him. For some reason that I can't figure out, I still like him and this feeling is not going away.

I am loving my life, I am so blessed. I know I would be nothing without my Heavenly Father I am so thankful for all that he does and gives me. I am so thankful for my Savior Jesus Christ and that he bled and died for me to take away my sins, I know that he lives. There is a line in one of the hyms that I really love that is how I feel about my Savior, "I marvel that he would descend from his throne divine To rescue a soul so rebellious and proud as mine, That he should extend his great love unto such as I, Sufficient to own, to redeem, and to justify. Oh it is wonderful that he should care for me Enough to die for me! Oh it is wonderful, wonderful to me!" I know the Book of Mormon is true and that it was written for our day. I know that Priesdent Monson is the Prophet of the Church, I am so thankful to be a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I would be lost if I didn't have the gospel in my life it has brought me so much happiness, even though sometimes life is hard; the Lord has to bring us low before he can lift us higher, and the Lord is not just building the church he is also building us. The lord will also never abandon us, so we should not abandon him. The Lord will also aid, strengthen us, help us, and cause us to stand. And I am truely blessed to have family and friends that love and support me!

Content!!

2009-04-05T22:05:00.011-06:00

Friday I didn't go to a friends house instead I went to work and then the gym! I am happy that I did because when I got home I found out that I had lost another pound! So now all together I have lost 12lbs I am so stoked!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then Saturday I watched General Conference both sessions which was very excellent. Then I went with my mom, aunt and my two sisters and we got pedicures and then went out to eat. That was a lot of fun mostly because I got to see my little sister. It was so good to see her; cause I don't see her that much anymore since she got married. I honestly love my little sister! I would do anything for her....well within reason of course!

Also for the past 2 nights I have been staying up until like 2am chatting with my friend Angela (that lives in Texas) on facebook! It has been nice being able to catch up on a lot of things with her! I miss her, I wish she was still here in Utah, and still in my ward! She may also come visit this summer; which is another thing that I am stoked about!!! I may also go see her this summer if everything works out! If not there is always next year!

So today I got to watch both sessions which was very nice; and over all General Conference was wonderful, amazing and now my cup is overflowing!! I took the time to write down a couple of my favorite quotes from Conference......"Choose to live by faith, not fear!" and "You can't be a life saver if you look like everyone else on the beach." Ya Conference was awesome, I really enjoyed every bit of it!! Then I went to work and it wasn't too bad it was actually nice because we got to work with another person so things didn't get too boring. I am just happy that I didn't have to work during conference! Also one of the great things about working while it's Conference is that there is always food that they let us eat!

So the other day I was telling a good friend of mine that I feel I am content and a lot more confident now than I ever have been, even though it's kind of weirding me out a little; and I am way different now, I guess it's because I am not used to the new me yet. So maybe it's also because of me finally losing weight and because I like everyone in my ward, and I feel like I could just go up to anyone in my ward and strike up a conversation without them looking at me like I am weird or that I shouldn't be talking to them; and then she said to me "You are starting to realize how absolutely amazing you are, and how you have nothing to worry about. Everyone likes you and gets along with you so well!! I'm glad that you are able to carry that now." Then I said to her "yes I have come to that realizion! I am content with who I am now!" Wow can I just say that I have one really absolutely amazing true friend; I can't believe that she said that about me.

So that brings me to my next topic, friends. A few of my friends have still been on my mind a lot, first one that comes to mind is one I haven't seen or heard from in quite a while, but yesterday we did chat a little on facebook. So now I am not so concerned about her. The next one I haven't heard or seen her for about a month almost, but tonight she finally sent me a text, so thank goodness I was starting to wonder if something had happened to her, cause it's not like her to not answer my calls or texts. Another friend is still going through a hard time, I have been trying to help cause I know that life is hard; we have to go through hard things in order to become strong and to be able to stand tall; because that is how we learn and grow and then we are better prepared for eternal life.

Work is not fun!

2009-04-01T21:37:00.005-06:00

Monday was alright I wasn't as sad as I was on Sunday, I went to work which was no fun again. Then after work I went and just chilled and watched while some of my friends bowled, only 4 of us went to Dees, and it was nice with a small group. Tuesday went to school and institute. I am not looking forward to going to class tomorrow I would like to sleep in and just go to my institute class, and also not go to work for the rest of this week as well!

Well today I got to sleep in which was nice, then since my parents were coming back; from out of town, my aunt came up stairs to ask me if I was going to leave a note for my mom (cause on Saturday I broke my moms stone pan) like I am that stupid and irresponsible, that I wouldn't tell my mom about what I had done; that was my plan all along if they came home after I left for work then I was going to leave a note; but if they came back before I went to work then I was just going to tell my mom about it! But oh well I guess she didn't mean any harm by it, but sometimes I wonder why she has to treat me like am a kid; when I am perfectly able to take care of things on my own.

Well I wish it was Friday I may go over to a friends house after work, and hopefully tonight I can get enough sleep so I can go to the gym on Thursday after work. I really hope it doesn't snow anymore in the valley; it can snow all it wants in the mountains, because that is where we need it. I am sick of the snow I wish we could have some nice weather for a change, rather it being cold and snowy. This weekend should be good though since it's conference I get to watch both sessions on Saturday then go out with my mom, aunt and both of my sisters for girls night out while the boys go to priesthood meeting. Then sunday I get to watch both sessions again then I have to go to work. Also I have lost 11lbs now I am so happy!!!!!!!!!!!

Lake Powell Pic!

2009-04-01T14:02:00.000-06:00

All of the girls set up the tents with no boys!!

Lake Powell Pic!

2009-04-01T13:41:00.004-06:00

So here is the sunset over Lake Powell!

Busy Days!

2009-03-29T00:25:00.004-06:00

Ok so Tuesday I was late for my class but it's a good thing that we didn't have a lab! Then I went to work. I got to sleep in on Wednesday, but I didn't want to get out of bed. Then Thursday I had school again but I wasn't feeling all that great so I just went to my institute class. Then Friday I got to sleep in and again I didn't want to get out of bed. I also got paid on Friday which is nice, then I went to work. I got invited to a party at a friends house so I went there after work. Then Saturday got to sleep in and again I didn't want to get out of bed. I spent way to much time on the computer then I had plans to go to a ward activity and then I was invited over to a friends house in my ward, and I was also invited to a friends house to see all of my institute friends so I was triple booked for Saturday!! I ended up not going to the institute party.

I am happy though that the sun is out longer it was nice driving at 6:30pm with the sun still shinning. I can't wait for the smell of summer; and the summer storms; and the smell of the earth when it rains. I will also love it when it's warm and dry enough to go hiking!

Time and change again has been on my mind! I really do feel like I have lost the old me, again not like it's a bad thing it's actually a really good thing. But it still is kind of weirding me out a little. I guess it's just going to take some time getting used to the new me. Today is fast Sunday for my ward, and we are combined with the boys, so it should be a good lesson. I really don't want to go back to work on Monday, it's so lonely now that we are back to working alone; I hate it. But at least I don't have to work while conference is going on I get to watch all four sessions which is nice for once!

Also I have decided that I need another vacation. Lake Powell was good but after a disappointing Tuesday I feel that I need to get away again; so that maybe this time I can forget about the boy, and that he will be out of my head and this raw pain will go away, I thought I knew what this pain felt like, but apparently not since my heart is hurting so much worse than the last time; and it's weird because usually I can tell when a boy isn't interested in me as more than a friend, and I tend to stop liking him and I get over it; and I usually don't get hurt when I find out that he doesn't like me the same way that I like him. But I am stronger than I seem, I know that eventually the pain will go away and it will pass probably sooner than I expect it will; it will just take some time; I would really like to hide under my bed covers and stay there for two months; but what doesn't kill me will only make me stronger!

Spring Is Here!

2009-03-24T23:17:00.007-06:00

Ok so I went to Lake Powell for spring break and had a blast! It was nice to get away from the city and life at home for a bit! I went with some of my friends in my student ward. We took a boat and went tubing, & wake boarding. It was a fun road trip, my friend Matt caught a duck and my friend Rachel got a really bad bruise on her back. I am just glad that no one died and that I didn't have to give CPR. At night it was so neat the moon wasn't out so the sky was filled with stars and you could see the stars in the water; and we got to see a lot of shooting stars! Another one of my friends fell out of her chair twice that was pretty funny! The water was cold though it was about 60 degrees, once you got used to it, it was nice; and it was above 80 degrees during the day! I didn't lose any weight which is a little disappointing; but at least I didn't gain anything, so I still have lost only 10lbs. I did get a nice tan and I didn't get sun burnt too bad!

So I went to the Draper Temple dedication it was nice. Church was good even though I was late because I was so sore and tired from Lake Powell. Church was shortened because of the Temple dedication it was kind of neat because in Relief Society we go to spend some time getting to know some of the girls that we didn't know. Then we had sacrament meeting; which was good, I didn't think that it would end so early though. Then I went over to a friends house after the dedication and we ate pizza and chocolate chip cookies; looked at pictures from Lake Powell and talked.

Then Monday I had work off so I got to go to my wards FHE it was at lot of fun. It was nice for once to have a Monday off and to be able to go to FHE. Then I went bowling with some friends in my ward; my scores were really good this time, I got 107 and then 111. So 111 is my new high score! Also I got asked a question that was worded wrong and things got way out of control; but everything got worked out, so things are good again.

All in all spring is finally here the birds are coming back the grass is green; the sun is out longer! I love the sun I can't wait for summer to come! I have been missing the long days and the warm summer nights!

Good Days!!

2009-03-15T23:07:00.003-06:00

OK so I didn't go to the gym last Thursday shame on me. I didn't go because I was really tired and I didn't want the same thing to happen like last Thursday so I went home after work which was good. Friday I did go to the gym and it was nice I lost another 4lbs so all together I have lost 10lbs which makes me so happy!!

Then Saturday I went and got a lot of things done and I went to my friend Manelle's house for PI day and we just talked then a few of us went outside and got chased by Zombies on Rick's phone, I was kind of slow and couldn't keep up with everyone all the time but for the most part it was fun ( mostly the reason I couldn't keep up with everyone was because I had the wrong shoes on) then we went back to Manelle's house got some water and Jackie came over and so we talked for a bit longer then everyone went home.

Church was good today I got a lot out of the lesson in Relief Society and Sunday school. Sacrament Meeting was really good too, church seemed to go really fast and I didn't want it too I guess because I was really enjoying church today!!

So nothing bad happened this weekend and I am really happy that nothing did I just hope that nothing bad will happen when I go to Lake Powell with a few of my friends later this week. I know how to do CPR and rescue breathing but I don't want to do it unless I really have too!!

So Blessed!

2009-03-12T13:41:00.003-06:00

Last Friday I went over to my friend Jaime's house and we had a lot of fun playing Imagine If and watching both of the Ghost Buster movies. Sunday was Stake Conference and I really enjoyed the talks that were given. Monday went to work then went bowling with friends in my ward!! Today I passed my written test in my first aid class, and now I have two more days of work this week and two days of work next week. Then off to Lake Powell with friends in my ward! Yea!

Also I got my tax return so I am buying a new camera!! Yea!! Now hopefully nothing bad will happen for the rest of this week. I probably will go to the gym tonight after work, and I really need to, since I didn't go last week at all. Shame on me.......but I went out with friends instead. I am so blessed; I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father, because things in my life could be much worse!

I have friends who care about me and I care about them. I have a family that supports me. I have a roof over my head. Heavenly Father answers my prayers and I know that he cares about me. I am more strong and confident than I ever have been in my life. School is going well. I don't have to work during General Conference, I get to watch all four sessions. I love going to church; and I love all my friends and family!! I would be nothing without my Heavenly Father!!

Time!!

2009-03-07T23:50:00.003-07:00

Something that has been on my mind is time. Time seems to be moving so fast lately, and sometimes I would like it to slow down or just stop for a while. I guess that is why I have been feeling like I am losing my old self, and why I can't go back; because time has been pushing me forward and it has been changing me.

Also like I said in my first post of March.....not that I don't like the new me; cause I have been seeing things a little more clearly and I am more confident that I ever have been.

Although I am afraid that becoming this new me I will leave one of my friends behind because our friendship has been one sided every so often; and the more I try and involve her with all my new friends the more she doesn't like it. Even though she doesn't say anything to me, I can see it on her face or hear it in her voice. I don't want to lose her, so I will keep on trying and hope that one day she will come around.

So I guess that's why I have been feeling weirded out, or that something is missing is because of time passing by too quickly, and because I have been changing so fast lately.

I have some friends from the past that have kind of slipped through my fingers and I see them maybe once a year; but sometimes I would like to give them a good shake and ask WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?? But I guess things happen and change must come and time moves on.

So I will always be here for my friends no matter what happens, because I care about them; and their secrets are safe with me!

Test and Beautiful Day!

2009-03-05T23:47:00.012-07:00

Today I had a lab test which I passed!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so happy that I didn't have to go to work today!! So when I got home I took some pictures of the sky because the clouds were just gorgeous! So here are a few pictures I took!

I really like the sun light coming through this cloud!

So then later on I went to a friends bridal shower and then I went to Barnes and Noble with a good friend and got a book and hot chocolate, so all in all today was a good day and the weekend is here and that makes me even more happy and it's a good end to a good day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Visits and Testimony!

2009-03-04T23:56:00.006-07:00

Sunday was pretty good I enjoyed fast and testimony meeting! Then I went home and my mom didn't have dinner ready..........so it's a good thing I ate something at the mingle after church. I then went to the fireside and I really enjoyed Elder Hales' talk, I stayed after a bit and talked with everyone in my ward that came to the CES fireside. I was invited over to Britty's place to watch a movie but since I hadn't had a full meal all day, and my sister and her husband came over for Sunday family dinner; I wanted to eat something and visit with my sister and brother in-law; cause the last time I got to visit with them was Christmas. So I went home and got to visit with them and eat food!!

Monday was a lot of fun I went bowling; my scores weren't so good though I got a 77 and then a 96. So better luck next Monday! Then all of us that went bowling, went to Dee's, and that was super fun; & when I got home I remembered who my friend Liz was in the murder mystery dinner, she was Mr. Fife. Tuesday for some reason I forgot to set my alarm and I didn't wake up until 12:20pm and my class starts at 11:00am; oh well good thing I don't have my test until tomorrow.

Then I went to work and since I worked on Saturday I get a day off this week and my day off is Thursday so I don't know what I am going to do on Thursday after school I have plans at 8pm; but what to do till then......well I will think of something. Today my sister came over to use the phone so she could pay her cell phone bill because she forgot to pay it on time. Also I found out that the 4th book of Fablehaven is coming out March 24th which makes me happy; because I thought it wasn't coming out until the summer!

Sometimes I worry about certin people in my family because they are having a hard time, and usually there is nothing I can do but pray for them and hope for the best. I wish though that there was something else or more that I could do for them. Well I guess the only other thing to do is try to be a better example to them; so I will continue to go to all of my church meetings; I know I will never lose my testimony, and I will keep trusting my Heavenly Father.

Thoughts!

2009-03-01T23:31:00.008-07:00

Do you ever feel like you are losing your old self and becoming something new? Not that it is necessarily a bad thing, because change is good sometimes. But no matter how hard I try to go back, I find myself moving forward instead. I mean to say that I have not lost who I am or what I stand for, or what I want and believe in life. Well let me see if I can explain.......lately I've just been feeling like something is out of place......I guess. Well I usually read about 5 books at a time and I write in my journal regularly; but for some reason this year I have stopped reading my leisurely novels and I don't write in my journal as often as I used to! It's been weirding me out a little because I love to read; reading is one of my passions in life! I still read my scriptures and I have been reading more verses than I usually do; because I want to get through the Book of Mormon again and I want to read the Pearl of Great Price cover to cover.

Another thing is.....I have been in two accidents already this year and they were both within a month; and I almost got in another one when I ran that red light coming home from the gym; and that right there is not like me at all, because I don't get into accidents. Although I am so grateful to have a Heavenly Father that watches out for me, because I could have ran that red light and hit that van and I probably would have been seriously hurt or maybe even dead, or the person in the van could have been hurt or dead!

Even though I have been seeing the big picture a little better and Heavenly Father has been answering my prayers; and I have been trying to be a better person and friend, I feel like I should do more for my friends but whatever it is I can't seem to think of it or I must be overlooking it.

One of my best friends is having a hard time because her father has cancer and I haven't seen her in over 4 months, I have had family with cancer, my aunt (and she was one of my favorite aunt's) had bone marrow cancer and died from it, and one of my cousins had to go through chemo twice. So I feel her pain but I don't know what else to say to her other than that I am here for her, and I am praying for her, and I am sorry for her. Another friend of mine I have kind of neglected because she lives out of state and it's hard sometimes to know what to say; and sometimes when I can talk to her I find I don't have a whole lot to say, and it drives me a little crazy and I get upset with myself because I should have tonz of things to tell her.

Then another friend is going through a hard time because of personal reasons, and all I can do is say that I am there for this friend if they ever want to talk, because their secrets are safe with me. Another thing bothering me is that I feel like I am moving on and leaving one of my friends behind or that I am moving and she is just standing still; and I want to help her and I have tried....but I am running out of ideas, and I don't want to leave her behind; she has been one of my most truest and trusting friends that I probably will ever have. These are friendships I care deeply about.

And I want all my friends to know that no matter what happens I will always be here for them.

Crazy day!

2009-02-28T23:38:00.005-07:00

WOW what a day; today was pretty crazy! I didn't get done with everything that I wanted to do though; well I just didn't get to go shopping. Oh well I will just have to go on Friday or after school on Tuesday.

So I woke up at 11:00am got ready for work went to work at 1pm and then I got off at 5pm then went and got my nails done; after that I was so freakin' hungry that I had to go get something to eat, and then I finally got home; cleaned up the house a bit, then ate my food! I still need to do my laundry I've been putting it off all week; because I either forgot or things were just too busy or crazy to do it. So at least a little bit of it needs to get done before I go to sleep.

Tomorrow I have to be to church a 12pm so that means I have to wake up at least by 9:40am to get ready for church. Since tomorrow is fast Sunday it shouldn't be a problem. So church should be good. The CES Fireside should be good as well; that is one thing that I am looking forward to tomorrow.

I still haven't read the 4 chapters in my text book, and I didn't clean everything up in my house that I needed to! I did go to the gym twice this week which was very good of me, even though I almost ran a red light and almost hit someone! Lets just hope that I don't get into anymore accidents this year; because two in one month at the first part of this new year, is for sure a record. Also for some reason every night for the past two months my cat has been unusually really noisy at night.

Busy!

2009-02-27T23:58:00.005-07:00

Well today I went to the dentist; thank goodness no cavities, also I had to pay a $9.00 dollar co-pay which was so not fair, well one more reason to hate the dentist! Then I went shopping for jeans and shoes I found one pair of jeans that I like, but no shoes; so I am just going to keep on looking for shoes, and I should buy another pair of jeans; I don't know though if I can find any because I hate the low rise and I don't like boot cut.

So then I went home because I needed something to eat before I left for work. Work was alright it felt kind of long though. Then I went to the gym, and my weight is still the same as before; but at least I am not gaining weight, and thank goodness on the way home from the gym I didn't run any red lights! Today is also payday so I have money now yea! I still need to get my nails done and I forgot to call and make an appointment for tomorrow so I am just going to have to do that early tomorrow.

I need to read 4 chapters before Tuesday, so that I can be ready for my practical test on Thursday; and then be ready for the written test on the next Tuesday. Also I have work tomorrow at 1:00pm which will be interesting and as a result I get off at 5pm so I will have the whole evening to do whatever I want; most likely I will go shopping! I am so happy that it's the weekend!

Red Light!

2009-02-26T23:07:00.005-07:00

So I actually finally paid off school for this semester; which is good because now I am no longer in debt. Tomorrow is payday yea!! I am going to get me some new jeans and shoes. I went to the gym tonight and on the way home I almost ran a red light and I almost hit a van. Yikes! Good thing I was 5 blocks away from my house; I haven't done something like that for almost 2 years and usually when I run red lights it's 3am in the morning and no one is around. Thank goodness though I didn't hit anyone or anything! Cause I really can't afford to hit anyone else; since I have already gotten in two accidents this year! Heavenly Father was sure watching over me!! I have to go to the dentist tomorrow and I need to make an appointment to get my nails done on Saturday before I go to work, and I am so happy that I get to go to work at 1pm and I get off at 5pm. Yea I have evenings off on Saturdays now, and I won't be late for church anymore because I won't be getting off work at 1:30am on a Sunday. I still have only lost 6lbs which isn't too bad; at least I am not gaining weight!

Institute!

2009-02-26T14:45:00.003-07:00

Today in Institute we were reading from Moses 7:47-69 and we made a list of all the things that we thought were important in those verses and from the student manual. So here is some of the list that I made.........and a few of my thoughts.

The Atonement.

The Earth lives and will be sanctified from all unrighteousness.
When I read that I thought how cool that the earth lives as a whole, because I always knew that things on the earth had spirits, but I had never really given a whole lot of thought about just the earth being alive. Also how neat is it that since there has been and will be wickedness on the earth; that the earth will be vindicated and cleansed.

Noah will be the Father of all nations.

The Savior will come again.
I like what Enoch asks God as he is ascending up to the Father "Wilt thou not come again upon the earth ?" Then the lord tells Enoch "As I live, even so will I come in the last days." (Moses 7:59-60)

Resurrection

The Second Coming is when the Earth will be at rest.

All are able to receive exaltation in the Celestial Kingdom, if they have lived worthy.

Revelation from God will not be taken away again.

Book of Mormon to come forth.

A new Jerusalem will come forth.

The City of Enoch will be brought back down to the earth, and the earth will rise.

So I am for sure going to the gym tonight after work which will be good because last week I didn't go. In my first aid class today we did unconscious choking cpr for adult, child, and infant. The cycles are so much easier to do than they were a couple of years ago; though the heal of my right hand still hurts after doing chest compressions.

Just Let It Go!

2009-02-24T13:37:00.006-07:00

So last night I went bowling with friends in my student ward. It was so much fun my scores were 100 and 105 so I beat my score of 101. So next time I hope I can beat my score of 105.

When I was little my sister and I would fight so much; but we also had a good time when we were not fighting. Since I am so laid back and as I got older I realized something.....that if I just kept on fighting with her that's all that would happen, and nothing would get resolved; so I decided that when we would get in a disagreement, I would just stop talking and not bring it up again; cause when I would fight back all it did make make her fight back even more; and I was so sick and tired of arguing with her; so I thought what's the point in arguing with her, when all it does is just make her even more mad. Something had to be done to stop it. So when we got in a argument I just stopped talking, and things were better for me I don't know about her; but I usually felt so much better if I didn't argue back. But don't get me wrong there were a few times when we fought, that I would just kept on fighting with her until we ran out of things to say. I mean I am only human.

So fighting is no fun; I really don't like to fight with other people, so I tend to avoid it as much as possible or I just stop talking. So in the end when I do fight it usually doesn't end well and it causes more stress to come into my life; which I don't need because I have enough stress from school, work, and boys already; so it's just better for me if I drop it and let it go.

Come What May!

2009-02-22T22:58:00.003-07:00

Today in Relief Society we talked about Elder Wirthlin's talk Come What May and Love it. It was a really good lesson even though I forgot to bring my ensign, but I had read the talk before. So I knew what the lesson was about. One of the girls made a comment about laughing at the little things because it's in the past and there is nothing to you can do about it. Another girl made the comment, so you can cry about it or you can laugh about it; but crying doesn't do you any good so you might as well laugh. Well I agree with that to a certain point sometimes you have to cry, cause that is how you heal sometimes; at least that is my opinion. In Sunday school we talked about the keys of the Priesthood and what they were. Then in Sacrament meeting Bishop Burton's wife came and spoke to us. It was pretty neat, and she talked about Israel; and having just recently returned from the Holy Land, and how she now has a deeper understanding of the Savior than she did before, because being there she learnd so much about Jesus Christ.

Sorry if my post seems a bit confusing I tried not to make it so, but it makes sense to me in my head; so sorry if I ramble on and on.

Good days and Bad days!

2009-02-21T23:46:00.004-07:00

I have my good days and my bad days just like everyone else; even though it seems like I am a little down and hard on my self a lot, and I just want to hide under my bed covers for a month. I don't like to give up on life; hope, I guess pushes me on to try it again or to try something else or to look at it a different way. Sometimes I do get depressed for a while, but I know it will pass and hopefully sooner than I think it will, because I am stronger than I seem.

The real lesson that I learn over and over again is that I have to have bad days; because then I wouldn't be where I am today and I wouldn't have been able to pick my self up at the end of the day, and if I wasn't strong I would have given up on life a long time ago and I wouldn't be in a good place.

I am so thankful to have the gospel in my life and a Heavenly Father that cares enough about me to answer my prayers, and even though life is so hard sometimes and I just want to give up;I stop and think about all the good that has happened in my life and the bad times are worth it because it makes me appreciate the good times, and the good always over comes the bad. I am so blessed and I thank my Father in Heaven for it. I know that Jesus is the Christ and that he bled and died for me to take away my sin, and made it possible for me to be able to return to my home in Heaven. I am so greatfull that I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ. I say this in the name of Jesus Christ amen.

4 Hours of Sleep!

2009-02-19T22:45:00.004-07:00

Last night I couldn't sleep; I only got like 4 hours of sleep which is not good; thank goodness I can sleep in tomorrow; I just hope I don't sleep in too long. So I went to school and I was late but only by 5 min. but it turns out that my class was canceled; which is way cool; so I went over to the institute to wait for my Pearl of Great Price class to start; it was nice for once to be on time for my institute class. I went home for a bit, then off to work I went; now I am at home again making some food to eat, and relaxing! But I am really tired; so I am going to go to sleep early tonight!!

Slept In

2009-02-18T23:10:00.004-07:00

OK so today I slept in way too long, then I went to work and then came home and now I am just relaxing. Tomorrow I have school and institute; it should be good; I always enjoy my institute class!
But that means that I don't get to sleep in which is no fun. But at least I get to watch CSI New York, and Lost. And I can finally pay off my school tuition! Yea!! I will no longer be in debt for school this semester!! My cat is also being freakin' annoying, and if she doesn't stop being noisy she will wake up my mom! I need something to eat; I am freakin' hungry right now so as soon as I post this I am going to get something to eat! I have lost 6 lbs now!!!!

To hide or not to hide, that is the question!

2009-02-18T00:22:00.006-07:00

I would really love to hide under my bed covers for like a month but since that isn't an option I guess I will just have to live my life and go to work, school, church, and institute! Also I would rather not drive anymore I wish I could just fly!

So since President's Day was this week I wanted to write something about it and I read an article that I really liked in the Mormon Times section so here is a bit from that article...."In his book, "Abraham Lincoln, God's Humble Instrument," Ron L. Andersen describes a 14-year-old boy who didn't find any of the existing churches in the mid-1800s to his liking, so he didn't join any of them. He relied instead on the God of his prayers for answers.
He didn't smoke, swear, chew tobacco, drink or despise minorities.
He lost people dear to him, including his mother and two young sons.
He was called "peculiarsome."
He enjoyed a good wrestle, liked playing with children, laughed easily and often.
He believed the Founding Fathers designed the Constitution with divine guidance and that America was founded for a wise purpose, a purpose in which he felt he would play a significant role.
He had a hunger for learning and truth but not a great business head. Instead of amassing wealth, he more often gave his money away to those he felt needed his help."

By Sharon Haddock

Mormon Times

Thursday, Feb. 12, 2009

Also I am concerned about one of my best friends because her father has cancer, and I haven't seen her for 4 months; and my cat is being really noisy right now and she needs to be quiet or she will wake up my mom; and I do get to sleep in happy day!

Awkward days!

2009-02-16T00:50:00.004-07:00

Well Saturday what a day. So the guy that I side swiped calls me up to thank me for telling him that I had scraped the paint off of his car; and that I am awesome for being honest. I really didn't want to hear from him because I wanted to forget about the entire accident and put it behind me and not have to think about it again. So since he called I wanted to start crying after I hung up. But I didn't because I had make-up on, and if I started to cry over that again, I would of been mad at my self because sometimes I just don't like to cry. So it would be really nice to just hide under my bed covers for like a month.

Well church was really good up until the end of sacrament meeting after the prayer this guy stands up and shouts in the chapel "If anyone needs free hugs they can get one from me" or something like that; and I am sorry but that just was way awkward and it totally ruined the spirit for me. So church was good just a little disappointing at the end. Then I went to guess who's coming for dinner at James house and it was a lot of fun and the food was so good I have never had smoked chicken before and man it was so freaking good.

Today I am going bowling after work it should be a lot of fun; I hope I beat my score of 101! I just hope work doesn't make me too tired; and I do get to sleep in today!!

Pearl of Great Price!

2009-02-13T21:58:00.005-07:00

Ok so today I got to sleep in which was lovely! I also got paid today so now I can finally pay off my tuition for school. Work was alright it wasn't bad. My head hurts though and I am very hungry, so I should eat something soon.

Yesterday in my Pearl of Great Price institute class we talked about Cain and Abel and the sacrifices that they gave and there is one part in the student manual I really liked, which was what The Prophet Joseph Smith taught: "By faith in this atonement or plan of redemption, Abel offered to God a sacrifice that was accepted, which was the firstlings of the flock. Cain offered of the fruit of the ground, and was not accepted, because he could not do it in faith, he could have no faith, or could not exercise faith contrary to the plan of heaven. It must be the shedding the blood of the Only Begotten to atone for man; for this was the plan of redemption; and without the shedding of was no remission; and as the sacrifice was instituted for a type, by which man was to discern the great Sacrifice which God had prepared; to offer a sacrifice contrary to that, no faith could be exercised, because redemption was not purchased in that way, nor the power of atonement instituted after that order; consequently Cain could have no faith; and whatsoever is not of faith, is a sin" (Teachings of the Prophet Joseph Smith,58).

The last part of that quote gets me thinking about how much Christ payed for our sins and how wonderful the atonement is and how merciful our Heavenly Father is to us. It reminds of the hymn How Great Thou Art and the 3rd verse "And when I think that God, his Son not sparing, Sent him to die, I scarce can take it in, That on the cross, my burden gladly bearing, He bled and died to take away my sin, Then sings my soul, my Savior God, to thee, How great thou art!

Good Day!

2009-02-10T23:46:00.004-07:00

Ok so I stayed up way to late last night, so I am really sleepy. I am so happy that I get to sleep in tomorrow. My right arm is sore from playing volley ball last night. I am freaking cold right now, I have been cold all day long, and I don't like it. It felt like it was 10 degrees out side today! But I guess that's February for ya, nothing but cold and no sun! I did go to school today, and thank goodness I didn't hit any cars. School was good, it wasn't boring for once. Institute was good, some very interesting questions were asked. Then I went to work, and it wasn't bad either so all in all today was a good day!!

Even a bit more about me.

2009-02-10T00:33:00.006-07:00

So Monday night I went bowling with some friends in my ward, and my first score was 85 and then the second time around I got 101! So it was pretty awesome because I wanted to at least get 100!

Also here is some more about me. I like the dry Utah heat better than humid heat. I am good at keeping secrets. My friend Camille and I call Barnes and Noble and Deseret Book the evil stores. My favorite Jamba is Caribbean Passion. I love the smell of the air when it rains. My dad named me. I love horses, and I would like to own a few some day. I love calla lilies and the Gerber Daisys, those are my two favorite flowers. I love most movies, and I want more of them. I don't know how many movies my family has because there is too many to count I am guessing on I think we have over 200 movies. I am such a night person, I hate waking up early. I love to sleep.

Sunday

2009-02-08T22:59:00.003-07:00

Last night thank goodness I got at least 8 hours of sleep, because I needed it. So today I went to church which was good, in Relief Society we talked about how we can remain strong and true in the Church and one of the girls gave the comment on how she stays focused is that she keeps in mind of the temple and wanting to be able to be worthy to go to the temple and also to be worthy to be married in the temple, that was a really neat comment to hear I never really thought about focusing on temple blessings would push us away from being fence sitters.

Sunday school we talked about the different promptings of the Holy Ghost, and we had some very good discussions about receiving answers to prayers, and that while we are waiting to receive an answer that we should read our scriptures more, think about our prayers before we say them, and go to all of our church meetings.

Then in sacrament meeting talks were given on the 4th Article of Faith, and about how sometimes we let fear take over our lives and fear taking us away from the church. So church was really good I got a lot out of it. We shouldn't let fear overcome us, but it does happen because we are only human. One way I overcome fear is that I think about tomorrow and that it's a new day and what goes down must always come back up, because there is opposition in all things but the good lasts longer for me and a lot of times I forget about the bad days that I have had. As long as we focus on the good and do our best, the good will always overcome the bad.

Only 5 hours of sleep!

2009-02-07T11:08:00.004-07:00

Since I only got 5 hours of sleep and I woke up today at 7:45am which is super early for me. I tried going back to sleep but for some reason I couldn't. So I am extremely tired. I am writing this while listening to the Fray "You Found Me." I still need to clean my living room and I should eat something for lunch.

Later tonight I am going out with my friend Camille, we will probably go get something to eat for dinner and then go to Barnes and Noble. So it should be fun....well I always have fun with Camille!

It's too Cold!

2009-02-06T23:42:00.008-07:00

Ok so I went to the gym tonight. It was good but I am tired now. Today was a good day I got to sleep in, which is wonderful because I love to sleep! Then I went to work and then the gym and then I had to stop at the store because I am out of conditioner and orbit gum. Now I am at home relaxing which is wonderful.

So one thing that annoys me, is that at my work we always get Martin Luther King Jr. holiday off but we don't get Presidents Day off. And if we didn't have a Abraham Lincoln then we would not have a Martin Luther, and since when did Martin Luther become bigger than Abraham, Washington, Adams, Madison and all the rest of the great Presidents that our country has had. All those Presidents sacrificed a lot for our country and the people. So you would think that my work would like to honor them more. I am not saying that Martin Luther King Jr. shouldn't be honored or not have a holiday, but I just think that we should honor the men that paved the way to stop people being racist first, before we honor Martin Luther King Jr. I know that Martin Luther King Jr. was a great man and helped our country see the prejudice against the African Americans that was going on. It just kind of annoys me, but since there is nothing I can do about it, I just have to let it go. But it's completely lame that I don't have work off on Presidents Day!

Another thing I am not liking the cold so much and all this bad air that we keep on getting in the Salt Lake valley. I really do wish it was summer already. I so would like to hide in my bed with the covers over me and wait until May comes, when we have 60 degree weather again. I miss the sun and the really warm summer nights.

School and Institute!

2009-02-05T23:29:00.006-07:00

So I didn't go to the gym, because I was way too hungry after work and I needed food. So shame on me, but I will just have to go tomorrow and work out a little longer than usual.

Besides work today I went to school and thank goodness I wasn't late, and it was good we got out early so I was on time for my Pearl of Great Price class. We had a really good discussion about Eve and Satan tempting her to eat the fruit of the tree of good and evil. Some things come to mind when I think about that...1 I am very grateful that Eve ate the fruit other wise we would not be here on this earth with bodies. 2 It must of taken a very smart and courageous woman to eat of the fruit. 3 It had to be done so that we could come to earth to gain a body and eventually be like God the Father and his Son, as Gods and Goddesses. As long as we live righteously.

Not a good week for me!

2009-02-05T14:21:00.004-07:00

Ok so the the car that I scraped the paint off, it turns out that my friend wants to get it fixed. Which I was afraid that was going to happen. But I didn't want it to happen, because I had to call the insurance company. Cause in January as I was driving to work the road was frozen from the night before and when I was driving there was snow on the ground and it was still snowing and I went through intersection at North and West Temple and then all of a sudden I started to slide to the right, and I slid into a parked car and put a dent on the back end of the drivers side and also scraped a little bit of the paint off.

So probably the the insurence is up already, and now it is going to go through the roof, and I know that my mom is a little bit dissapointed in me even though she hasn't said anything to me. But I can see it on her face. So this week ranks up there in one of my top five bad weeks.