Winter Wonderland!

Well school has been taking over my life, but it hasn't been too bad, a little crazy at times. There has been a few times that I have wanted to through my Medical Assisting workbook out of a window because I couldn't find a answer in the book. Ha ha! As of right now I still have a 4.0 GPA which is awesome!

So besides school taking over my life, work is still evil but it pays the bills, and I am getting good work reviews so I can't complain too much. I enjoy every time I get to go to the temple and do temple work and it's also time for me to just sit in the chapel and talk things over with Heavenly Father and just enjoy the peace and calm of the temple. Ah I love it there is no better place for peace but the temple or unless you are lucky enough to live up in the mountains in the peace a stillness of the wilderness. I so want to get away from the city right now I so would love to go up in the mountains right now and go sledding, tubing, snowmobiling, snow shoeing ah that would be so epic. The mountains have so much snow on them right now it is very pretty. In the valley we have nothing which is sad, I don't think we will have a white Christmas.

Thanksgiving was good I helped my mom make half of the meal and the food was so good! It was nice to have a few days off from work and school and just be home and with family. In the valley we got dumped on with snow we go almost a foot in the Salt Lake and then a week later we got dumped on again and ended up with two feet in the valley. Then it got warm and it just rained and melted all the snow in the valley.

I am finally all done with Christmas shopping which is nice, I still want to do some Christmas baking before Christmas day. This year when my mom asked me what I wanted for Christmas I had no idea really. For once I didn't really want anything, so I had to think about it for a few days.

But I do love the quiet stillness when it snows it's as if you are walking in the air when all the world is white and the snow is falling all around you. Sundays are still my favorite days. But this Sunday in Relief Society we went back to lesson 18 for some reason, it should have been lesson 24 about the Sabbath Day. Sunday school was good. Sacrament meeting was very good this Sunday.

I do plan to clean my room while I am on break from school, my room really needs it. I am off for two weeks from school. Happy Day and Christmas is almost here!

Golden Mist

Wow what a crazy past two months I have had. It has been a while since I have posted last. School is a lot of work, but for the first time in my life I actually like school which is so weird! Every Monday and Wednesday this past month I have got up around 6:30am. About the time I am driving to school the sun is rising. It is really pretty, because just before it peaks over the mountains the sky is a golden mist, and it makes it worth waking up at 6:30am.

School is good it's just a lot of homework and tests! But now I am done with two of my classes that I have, and on Monday I will have a new class. I done with all my tests and homework for my App 101 and Med 102 and I have A's in all of my classes so far. I hope I continue to get A's. This next four weeks I have just one class and it is on Monday and Wednesdays; it a Communication class, it seems like fun. Work is work, sometimes I hate it sometimes I don't. I did take Monday off from work and I went to my wards FHE it was fun we had a Halloween party it was good to see friends in the ward.

Of course it had to snow the week of Halloween; it even snowed in the valley and it was not fun cleaning it off the car and 8am it was freezing! I hope it doesn't snow again until Thanksgiving. It can snow all it wants in the mountains but in the valley I want it to stay away. I did miss institute this week I slept in. I do want to go to the temple this week. There is also a Halloween party on Saturday at friends house that I am going to, and then November will be here. It's like we had a short fall and then went straight to winter.

Monsoon Season!

So I started school and it's good I really like it. Though I wake up every day at like 6:30am and I don't go to bed until midnight or later which is usually not that good of a thing to do. But I live through it, I really like the pace that it is set at; I like having a class for 4 weeks and then switching to a new one for the next four weeks, I am a full time student and I work part time. So it's good it keeps me on my toes, and school is at times so intense that when I have free time I spend it doing homework. But it will be so worth it in the end.

Last Sunday it was really windy and rainy so we have this little field next to our drive way and there is this really big huge tree that is very old so when I got home from church there was this big branch that had come down and was laying across our driveway and our front yard. Thank goodness nothing got damaged but also our power went out Sunday at 4:40pm and didn't come back on until 7:20 am Monday morning. Monday I went to school and did my power point presentation, turned in English homework worked on my essay paper went to work came home and worked on my paper some more and finished up some other homework that was due. Tuesday turned in everything that was due then went to work and then went over to Sunny's and Allie's for a girl's night out party and watched When in Rome. Friday was my day off I went shopping and then I went to a party with some friends that I haven't seen in like 6 months and had a awesome time it was really good to see them. Then Saturday I ran errands and then came home and made chocolate chip cookies, then I went to a party at Erica's and Heidi's new place and that was fun.

So yesterday at church we were combined with the boys and Brother Akerlow gave the lesson it was on weaknesses and sin it was good. Sunday school was good and Sacrament meeting I got an answer to a question that had been going through my mind a lot lately. Then I went to the mingle and talked to a lot of people in the ward and then went home to eat dinner and celebrate my aunt's birthday and we went to temple square then went back to my aunt's house and had cake and ice cream, and we watched some home movies.

Also it has been either super hott or thunderstorms off and on and it has been muggy so it has been like a monsoon season in the Valley also because of it raining so much the mountains are still pretty green it is awesome. Today I woke up to a huge thunderstorm that was raging which was pretty cool. I went to institute today I am taking a class on the New Testament and so far it's awesome. Much to my surprise when I got out of class today I saw a few of my friends that are in my ward. So that was pretty awesome. For now it has stopped raining but it most likely will start up again soon.

Speachify!

So I spoke in church on the 22nd of August so I thought I would share it with ya'll

I was really surprised when Brother Akerlow asked me to speak because this is my first time ever speaking in this ward. Also I don't like to stand up in front of a bunch of people and talk because I get really nervous. I have read the Book of Mormon many times and the the Book of Mormon is the first book of scripture that I have read from cover to cover.

But this time around I began to wonder why is this book so important? The first thing I though of was president Hinckley's promise. So I thought well that is true but there has to be more to the Book of Mormon than just that. So I remembered that Elder Holland gave a talk in Conference on the Book of Mormon last October. So Elder Holland said, "Love. Healing. Help. Hope. The power of Christ to counter all troubles in all times-including the end of times. That is the safe harbor God wants for us in personal or public days of despair. That is the message with which the Book of Mormon begins, and that is the message with which it ends, calling all to 'come unto Christ' and be perfected in him. That phrase -taken from Moroni's final lines of testimony, written 1,000 years after Lehi's vision-is a dying man's testimony of the only true way."

In addition the paragraph on the title page of the Book of Mormon says "And also to the convincing of the Jew and Gentile that JESUS IS THE CHRIST, the Eternal God, manifesting himself unto all nations." But what I think sums it up best is when Joseph Smith translated the Book of Mormon into English through the gift and power of God. He said that it is: "the most correct of any book on earth, and the keystone of our religion and a man would get nearer to God by abiding by its precepts, than by any other book." So why is this book so important? Well it came from God, it is a correct book, it is the keystone of our religion, and it is a way we can get nearer to God.

Another thing that really stuck out to me is the story of Lehi and his family fleeing out of Jerusalem and what Lehi did before they fled into the wilderness. Lehi is shown in a dream many amazing things from the Lord. And Lehi became so overjoyed that he went among the the people of Jerusalem and prophesied so Nephi writes in 1 Nephi 1: 18-20 he says, "Therefore, I would that ye should know, that after the Lord had shown so many marvelous things unto my father, Lehi, yea, concerning the destruction of Jerusalem, behold he went forth among the people, and began to prophesy and to declare unto them concerning the things which he had both seen and heard. And it came to pass that the Jews did mock him because of the things which he testified of them; for he truly testified of their wickedness and their abominations: and he testified that the things which he saw and heard, and also the things which he read in the book, manifested plainly of the coming of a Messiah, and also the redemption of the world. And when the Jews heard these things they were angry with him; yea, even as with the prophets of old, whom they had cast out, and stoned, and slain; and they also sought his life, that they might take it away. But behold, I, Nephi, will show unto you that the tender mercies of the Lord are over all those whom he hath chosen, because of their faith, to make them mighty even unto the power of deliverance."

So I began to wonder why would Lehi go and preach unto the people even though he probably knew that they would want to kill him if he went out and preached unto them? Well I came up with the answer that Lehi knew that the words of the Lord are worth dying for and that being a member of the Church of Jesus Christ is worth it, because we all know that this life is not the end, and that if we live worthy of the blessing to come, we can return home and live with our Father in Heaven and our Savior who is Christ. I know that the Book of Mormon is true and that it does truely testify of Christ it is a wonderful and beautiful book that Joseph Smith translated with and through the power of God and I testify like Elder Holland says in his conference talk "No wicked man could write such a book as this, and no good man would write it, unless it were true and he were commandeed of God to do so." I know that the Book of Mormon is the word of God, and I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ Amen.

Kings and Queens!

So I realized that in my last post I didn't explain enough about the train ride; when I had thought that I did. Well so my ward had an overnight camping trip up in Midway and we all when on a train ride on the Heber Creeper. It was very cold because it rained the entire time but other than that it was fun.

So for the 4th of July I went with my family up to Sugar House Park and we watched the huge fireworks burst right over our heads it was gorgeous! Later on that week had a BBQ with some of the wardies for my birthday. I also celebrated with my family later on and it was a pretty good birthday! Played night games with friends in my ward another night then spent the rest of that night socializing.

I have come to realize that we are all kings and queens in charge of our own lives. We have to decide when to change and if we need to change. Sometimes we can't see the change and it takes a while to see it. Other times it takes someone else pointing out that we need to change. Change can be hard at times; and sometimes it just seems so hard that we don't want to do it. Yes it is so much easier to give up and not work for something that we want; and all just because it seems hard. Well for me I needed a change. But we have to take risks and have a little faith that everything will turn out alright. So I am starting school on August 2 at Stevens Henager College I will get my Associates Degree in 20 months in Medical Specialties.

School is going to take over my life for the next 20 months but it will be good even though I am a little freaked out about school and wondering if this will be all worth it and I am a little freaked out about wondering if I can do it! I really hope I can and I really want this to work out. Cause I don't want to be stuck at community college for another 10 years. So this is my only good option right now for school. I just hope that my life doesn't get anymore crazy that it will by August 2nd, I just really want to be able to handle school and get done with homework.

There are some really amazing people in my ward that are such good examples to me. They help me to want to be a better person. I have been thinking about the story of Hannah lately and how she would go to the temple everyday and tell the Lord her problems. Oh how I need to start going to the temple once a week again. I also need to start doing my Stake calling again and find out who is the the co-chair over everyone in my Stake calling. My Stake calling is the only one calling that I haven't been doing right now. So I need to get on it, and step it up.

Life Under the SUN!

So the train ride was fun, though it was so cold it rained the entire time. In the morning since they had a lame breakfast a group of us in the ward went out to eat for breakfast in Midway and that was fun. Sunday I taught the lesson and I was so nervous for the first ten minutes then I calmed down, but everyone told me I did such a good job which made me happy. I would love to teach again so I hope I get another chance because I loved it even though I was nervous. So then we started getting really really HOT weather, which I absolutely love! Also I went to guess who's coming to dinner and that was a blast. Then on Saturday I went and had a BBQ party with some friends of mine from institute and has been 3 years since all of us have been together in one place; so it was good to see them again.

Friday after work I went with Nicole to Mona and we camped out with some of her friends from Logan; it was good to get away. Then the next day we went swimming and we were going to go hiking but we were very hungry so we got food. We went to where we were staying for the night in Manti and then we got cleaned up a bit; and then went to the Pageant which was so awesome and fun. I crashed as soon as I got into bed; and since I had to be visit taught after church, Nicole and I went home and made it in time for sacrament meeting. Then went to the mingle and talked to a bunch of people. Finally I went home and had dinner with my family and then we had FHE with my aunts family. I went to Jen's place after FHE with my family, and few of the wardies were there and we played games it was a blast. I went to work early on Monday because I was so tired from the weekend. Went to Fhe after work and I got to see some fireworks which was awesome. Then I went with Julio and Rhett and got some food which was fun.

Wednesday I went swimming with Jen and Jourdan; and it was awesome since it was such a Hot day; and we got food at Sonic. Thursday I got my nails done and I got a pedicure which was so nice to do. After work I met up with a group of the wardies up at the capital to watch Sandlot. It was a blast and so warm out, perfect weather for watching a movie outside. Saturday I am going with my family to watch fireworks some where for the 4th of July. In the Book of Mormon I am finally done with Jacob chapter 5 I need to be in Mosiah but I don't see that happening just yet. But I plan to read a ton on Saturday so hopefully I will be in Mosiah by then.

Rain!

Well I finally think it will be summer in Utah, that is if it will ever stop raining. But when it does and the air gets warm, it smells like summer here in Salt Lake. The trees are finally filled out with leaves; and since it has rained so much this spring the mountain that has the big U on it, is so green. I don't think I have ever seen it so green.Lately though now it has been very warm, and I am loving it!

As a ward we are reading the Book of Mormon and we need to be done with it by 8-23-10 so hopefully I can do it. I will give it my very best to finish in time. I am on chapter 8 of first Nephi and it's neat to notice things that I didn't the last time I read this most wonderful book. I don't think I ever fully realized how much faith Lehi had in the Lord. He probably knew that the Jews in Jerusalem were not going to believe him when he told them that Jerusalem would be destroyed, but he still went out and preached risking his life. It shows me that being a member of our church is so worth it and that it is worth risking your life for.

Memorial Day was very warm and I had the day off from work, I was hoping that we would have FHE as a ward but for some reason they canceled it. I guess they figure a lot of people are going to be gone, I had BBQ with my family for dinner and then I went with some of the wardies to a bonfire party, it was a lot of fun!

I am trying to eat better again and not eat so much chocolate. I need to go and get a gym pass at 24 hour fitness again and get going to the gym 3 times a week. Work isn't too bad. I had Wednesday off, so I went to the institute class that some of the wardies go to on Wednesday night. I have also started going back to the temple once a week which is really nice and brings me such peace.

Gorgeous!

Ok so as a girl I am very hard on myself when it comes to my looks. Growing up I have never really felt gorgeous. Even now it's sometimes hard to believe, even though I am content with who I am. I guess it's just my personality; I love it when boys tell me that I look pretty; I love it even more when I get asked out by a really hot guy. I feel gorgeous when I get asked out by any guy.

Don't get me wrong I am content with who I am and I don't care what people think about me. But I do care what I think about myself. So that is why I like to have people tell me that I am pretty, beautiful or gorgeous. I like it when I get approval from other people it makes me feel good about myself. I mean who doesn't?

Though beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and it's only skin deep. Really what matters to me most in a guy is personality. I want someone that I can talk to and has a lot of the same interests as I do. But we don't have to have everything in common, but just enough that I can have someone to talk to, and will tell me things. I love being the center of attention. I like to look pretty too; I like it when I look in the mirror and think to myself, that I am beautiful.

Whenever I try to say that my younger sister is more gorgeous than I am my mom gets a little angry at me. I mean I am not going to jump off a bridge just because I think my younger sister is more gorgeous than me. I just think that she is really pretty and she is in better shape than me. I know that I shouldn't think that I am not as pretty, as my younger sister, but I do.

I have known that I just need to be true to myself and to Heavenly Father and that's all that matters; and I don't need to worry about what other people think of me. I have been able to carry that since I was 24. I know who I am and I know what I want in life. But sometimes it's just nice to hear compliments.

Christ's Love!

So when I finished the Book of Mormon last time in my scripture reading I decided that I would read the New Testament. I must say that I have really been loving it. I have found a better understanding of the Savior's love for everyone. I have really enjoyed reading the 4 gospels again.

I absolutely love the parable of the Pharisee and the Publican in St Luke chapter 18 verse 9. "And he spake this parable unto certain which trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and despised others: Two men went up to the temple to pray; the one Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I thank thee, that I am not as other men are, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this publican. I fast twice in the week, I give tithes of all that I possess. And the publican standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes to heaven, but smote upon his breast, saying, God be merciful to me a sinner. I tell you, this man went down justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shalt be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted."

That parable reminds me of the Rameumptom story in the Book of Mormon. It was a ah ha moment after I read the parable in the New Testament, cause it's just another testimony to me that the Book of Mormon is true.

A girl in my stake gave a talk about how many miles are we away from Christ and told the story about the women that had the issue of blood. She just had to touch his hem and she was cured. Then she told the story of the man that walked five miles or so to see Jesus; so that Jesus would go and heal his son. It made me think how many miles are we willing to go to see Christ and how far away are we really away from Christ are we right behind him like the woman with an issue of blood or are we farther than that? And how many miles are we willing to go to be near him again if we have walked away from him?

Another part in the New Testament that I love, is when Christ says a scripture over and over again that has been on my mind a lot and it made me see how much Christ loves everyone. It's near the end of St John in chapter 13 just after Christ has washed the feet of the Twelve it's verse 16. "Verily, verily I say unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord; neither he that is sent greater than he that sent him."

Love!

So when I said that I ask too much of Heavenly Father, I mean that I feel like I always pray for what I want instead of praying for what I need. Or I feel that I pray selfish sometimes. I like talking to Heavenly Father and I like to tell him what is going in my life. I mean don't get me wrong I try to remember to pray. I hate it when I forget, and I do tell Heavenly Father what I am thankful for. I try to do my best every day.

I am so thankful for all that I have and for my friends and family. I love nothing more than spending time with everyone that I love. Life would be nothing without them.

I have a final tomorrow, it's my only final. I hope it goes well. I am so excited for school to be over with this semester. I have been getting a little sick of school. I am not going to school over the summer. I want and need a break. I want to see if I can get a internship or maybe some volunteer work. I finally decided what I want to do with my life and I want to get into med school. It's the main thing that really interests me in school. I do still dream and want nothing more than to be a wife and mother. I want to be married in the temple.

I need to get my self a gym pass I hope this Saturday I will have time to get one. I really need to start going to the gym again. I do have plans on Saturday but not until the evening. I do need to go to the temple this week. I hope I make it.

Life!

Wow it's been a while since I last posted. I wanted school to be some what over with. I just have my final to take and then I will be done with school this semester. I have been putting money into my saving for school in the fall. I finally decided what I want to do with my life I want to get into medical school. It will be a lot of school but I might as well do something that I want and love.

Sometimes I feel I ask to much of Heavenly Father. I love being a member of the Church of Jesus Christ. Lately I have been reading the New Testament in the book of St John I love that Christ says that he did not come into to the world to judge but he came to save. General Conference was so good I loved a lot of the talks. I have been going to the temple I haven't gone in a while I need to get back into going weekly.

Well my brother got fired from his job almost a year ago and he still doesn't have a new one. All he does is sit at my parents house and play video games and watch movies or TV. Or he goes over to a friends house. Maybe he looks for a job, I have no idea though if he does or not. I think if he was actively looking he would find one at like Wendy's or something like that. Well I hope he gets one soon!

I want to go hiking a lot this summer. I would love to go up to Bear Lake and lay out on the beach at least maybe 3 times this summer. I can't wait for the summer and I hope it gets warm soon.

Exhilarated!

Why is it that when I stand on top of a mountain cliff with the wind rushing at my face, or when I take a rain walk in a thunderstorm and breathe in the smell of the rain, or when it's a gorgeous day out and I don't need a jacket and I can drive with the windows rolled down and not get cold, with the air smelling fresh, that I feel so calm, and peaceful. I guess it's because I love the outdoors, and I love being in nature and I don't get to be outdoors as long as I would like. It also leaves me feeling exhilarated.

Last Friday I went out with a good friend of mine and we had a wonderful time at Barnes and Noble. I bought a book of course, it is very hard for me not to buy a book from that store. I bought Alice in Wonderland and Through the looking Glass, it's a very intriguing book. I like it a lot. Then Saturday I went out with good friend in my ward to Applebee's and then we went over to another friends house in the ward for a party and played games and watched Breakin' and Roller Derby. It was a lot of fun.

Sunday was ward conference and it was rather good, at least that is what I thought; though I wish someone in my ward would have taught the Sunday school lesson. Then the Mingles committee went all out and made this huge meal for everyone and it was very good. Then I went home and I was so full that I didn't eat dinner with family. Instead I made chocolate chip cookies, and they turned out really good. Then went over to my aunt's house to visit with her family which was nice.

Monday went to school I was a little late, then I went home ate dinner with my family. Then I went to my wards FHE activity we had a very good lesson, and we played killerball which was a lot of fun. I left for work after that. So I slept in the next day which was very nice. Work hasn't been so bad lately it's been really nice getting a break from what I usually do.

Conference is coming up, and I can't wait. I am happy that I don't have to work during conference, but I do work late Sunday night, and I am not looking forward to waking up for school the next day. But I do get that Monday off so when I get home from school I am going to take a nap. I am so happy though that the sun stays out longer now, and the weather has been so warm which is just awesome.

Well I can honestly say that when I am hiking in the mountains on a nice day or looking at the stars at night, and spending time in the mountains with the wind rushing at me on a very warm day, and being able to smell the rain, and hearing the thunder along with the rain pounding down is very exhilarating!

Fight for the Good in Life!

Well the warm weather is coming around again and it's making me wish it was summer! It's nice and all having it warm in the valley, but it never lasts especially in the spring. I do hope that when the next storm comes in, that it just rains in the valley and the snow stays up in the mountains. Because snow in the valley does nothing for the water that we need in the summer, the snow in the mountains is what we need for water in the summer.

I read all of the Percy Jackson Lightening Thief books and I really like them. I am reading The Hobbit for the second time in a row and I am reading The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, Angels & Demons, and the New Testament. Huck Finn is really sad but good. I did go and see the Percy Jackson movie and I like it, it's good. I have also seen Alice in Wonderland and I love that movie, I love the whole lesson behind it, and how good overcomes evil. And that you can find that you are brave and you can defeat your own fears. I have also seen the Blind Side and I really love that movie. I want to see How to Train Your Dragon when it comes out to theaters. I also can't wait for the last book of Fable Heaven to come out.

Church is good we just had Stake Conference, and a lot was said that got me thinking; which is cool, so here is bit of what was said. "We are here for a certain purpose and to have experiences that are good and hard." "Temple work has a great benefit for all and not just one special group." "All roads lead to the Temple." "The earth would be utterly wasted if members of the church did not come to the Temple and do service for the dead."

"The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep."
Robert Frost-

It was a really good Stake Conference; I really liked that the Salt Lake Temple President's wife quoted Robert Frost, because sometimes the woods are really lovely dark and deep and I would just like to go into them and spend months in them enjoying the beauty of nature and life; but things need to be done, and life can't be lived by standing still; we all have a part to do and people need us; and they need us to carry our load, but we are never alone Christ is always there standing at the door knocking, but we have to let him in, we have to make room and time for the Savior and Heavenly Father. Once a friend told me that I make life as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ sound so easy, so I told this friend well that's because it is, but we are the ones that make it hard, we are the ones that shut the door to Christ, we are the ones that turn away. With man some things are possible but with God all things are possible.

Can't Stop Me Now!

I went and watched Alice in Wonderland on Monday and I really do love the the movie and this song performed by Avril Lavigne. Also since I have watched the movie it has got me asking the question...Why is a raven like a writing desk?
Alice Lyrics

Trippin out
Spinning around
I'm underground
I fell down
Yeah I fell down

I'm freaking out, where am I now?
Upside down and I can't stop it now
Can't stop me now, oh oh

I,I, I'll get by
I,I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I,I, I won't cry

I found myself in Wonderland
Got back on my feet, again
Is this real?
Is this pretend?
I'll take a stand until the end

I,I, I'll get by
I,I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I,I, I won't cry

Summer Sun!!

Well the Olympics are over with, I am sad to see them go; but maybe now I will be able to get better sleep at night. School is still kind of kicking my trash, I wish I loved school but alas it vexes me a lot! I do need to go to the Temple this week. I really wish that life would slow down a bit or stop for a while. But I guess life has to go fast so that we can learn to keep up with it and it helps us in the long run.

On Sunday there was a fireside up at the U of U institute; Sister Bednar spoke and it was a really good talk she had some really good advice. I wish they would put her talk on the church website, but I doubt it.

Work is alright, I do wish I had more hours but during the morning to afternoon. Instead of evening to late night. I would rather have that instead of a raise.

I am watching Lost and I must admit that I am addicted to this show. It is driving me a little nuts because the 6th and final season is susppose answer questions; well it answers some questions, but it also makes more questions.

It was also really warm out side tonight when I got home from work. Why does the weather keep on taunting me with summer weather I am so ready for it to be summer. I am so sick of the cold and it being winter. I so want to go to bear lake and sit in the water and the beach. I want to go hiking and boating as well. There are some many movies out in theaters right now that I want to see.

Under The Sun!

There is something that I want to write but for some reason I don't know how to write it so that it will make sense.

Well one of my best friends keeps on saying that she is going to leave and move up to Canada for a while I don't want her to. She is the only one that leaves crazy voice mails like I do; and we have a lot in common, she has been a true friend. It makes want to cry when I think about her leaving.

Also a friend of mine came to church in a bad mood, I don't know why. But that also made me feel sad. i guess it made me sad because my friend knows to act better than that.

Another good friend of mine is getting married shortly and I would love nothing more than to be at the celebration but money is the problem as well as work. But I am so happy for her, I wish her the best in life with her future husband!

Well I still want to believe that planet earth turns slowly and I wish I could just sit back and enjoy the beauty of the Utah mountains. I want summer to come, I am sick of the winter and it being so cold. I need the sun. It has felt like I have been away from the heat of the sun for a very long time. I need to be back under the hottness of the sun!!

I Want to Believe that Planet Earth Turns Slowly!

Sometimes I feel that life is spinning way too fast for me; and I want nothing more than for it to slow down. Or maybe even stop for a while. Or just be like how it is on Sundays, I must admit that I love Sundays; going to church is a lot of fun and I usually learn a lot, I Iove the mingles that we have after church; and we have such a awesome activities committee, and fhe committee. I do need to do better in my callings and I want and need to go to the temple this week because I did not do it last week.

Work still stresses me out and it drains my energy so much sometimes; and I hate it when I have nightmares about work it’s so not fair. You would think that once I am away from the place that I would not have anything to do with work but no I have to dream about it, curse it all!

School is also another thing in my life that stresses and drains my energy. I wish I was done and knew what I wanted to major in; but alas I am not that lucky and nothing really interests me. I wish I could just live in a cabin and have a horse ranch, now that would be a lot of fun just mountains and horses for the rest of my life, that would be awesome! Ah maybe someday when I have a million dollars.

Well all that I can say is that I am hanging in here, and don’t worry about me I am a big tough girl; I tie my own shoes and everything, I can take care of myself all the bad stuff will not bring me down; because I know that I need trails in order to survive in this life. I can take the good with the bad because the good always wins; and I know that my Heavenly Father will always be there for me; and that he tests me so that my weakness will become my strengths.

Harsh Storms!!

So went out to dinner tonight with my family and my aunts family for my cousins birthday. I am stuffed, good thing it's fast Sunday tomorrow. I am so happy that it's the weekend and that I got to sleep in today otherwise I don't think I would be alive today.

The Olympics are starting next week I can't wait. It's going to be so much fun watching the snowboarding, ice skating, skiing, bobsledding, and so much more. And there is a new episode of Lost next week as well which I can't wait for. I hope they answer more questions and don't leave it hanging as they did last episode. Tomorrow is church and it should be good since it will be the First Presidency Message and it's called On Being Spiritually Prepared, and I love the opening sentence; “If we do not have a deep foundation of faith and a solid testimony of truth, we may have difficulty withstanding the harsh storms and icy winds of adversity which inevitably come to each of us." President Thomas S. Monson

It reminds me of something that I have said before andthat is I like to stand and face the storm head on, because when it comes down hard, I find out that I can handle it. Right now I am watching Cool Runnings and I like what Junior says about knowing what you want and if you want it bad enough then you will get it. But above all else we must come unto Christ and follow him in everything; because then he will make our burdens easy and light and he will take our yokes upon him; and we must always stay in the light and the darkness will not be able to overcome us. And we should want to come unto the Lord.

Next weekend I will be going up to a cabin for a short vacation and that should be good with my family and being able to get away from the city.

Buckle Up and Hold On!

For some reason lately a scripture has been running through my head a lot and it's Proverbs 3:5-6 and it says "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not to thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths."

I guess the reason why that has been on my mind a lot is because a few of my friends have been afraid to put their trust in the Lord and take risks. They are also scared to fail but that is how you learn and gain experience. No one is perfect and Heavenly Father doesn't expect us to be perfect but he does want us to give it our best; and to not give up and to keep going no matter how hard it gets. I really like the quote from Haunted Mansion "You try you fail, you try you fail, but the only true failure is when you stop trying." There is always hope and I really like what was said in conference by an Apostle and he said "Choose to live by faith, not fear."

Also what comes to mind when I start thinking about these things is Christ he will always be standing at the door knocking but we have to let him in, and even though it sounds so simple, well because it is because the plan was made by Heavenly Father with the help of Christ we are the ones that make it hard that is why it is said that we are lower than the dust of the earth. Only we can let Christ in only we can push him away. Another thing that comes to mind is Anne M. Dibb's talk from last conference about holding on she said "We learn and grow by overcoming challenges with faith, persistence, and personal righteousness. I've been strengthened by President Thomas S. Monson's endless confidence in our Heavenly Father and in us. He has said: "Remember that you are entitled to our [Heavenly] Father's blessings in this work. He did not call you to your privileged post to walk alone, without guidance, trusting to luck. On the contrary, He knows your skill, He realizes your devotion, and He will convert your supposed inadequacies to recognized strengths. He has promised: 'I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up' " (Sugar Beets and the Worth of a Soul," Liahona, July 2009, 3-4; Ensign, July 2009, 5-6).

When I was at work yesterday I noticed an article from the Ensign that someone had put up on their office wall and so here it is.

Gordon B. Hinckley, “Put Your Trust in God,” Ensign, Feb 2006, 63

It isn’t as bad as you sometimes think it is.
It all works out. Don’t worry.
I say that to myself every morning.
It will all work out.
Put your trust in God,
and move forward with faith
and confidence in the future.
The Lord will not forsake us.
He will not forsake us.
If we will put our trust in Him,
if we will pray to Him,
if we will live worthy of His blessings,
He will hear our prayers.

No matter what Heavenly Father wants us to be happy; as long as we don't give up and endure to the end and do the best that we possibly can; then there is no need to fear and we will have faith. Just believe in yourself because Heavenly Father already does.

There's Always Gonna Be Another Mountain!!

Life has a funny way of making things work out, and then again life is funny when things don't work out. I guess it is for the best, but I will always have that what if. Lately I have been so wrapped up in my life and a book and school; that I have been kind of staying out of touch with a few friends, so to all of my friends who are reading this........How are you all? Sorry I have been out of touch I would like to say that I will do better but I am not perfect. But I love you all so much! I know my fault for letting our friendship slip away. But in the end I hope you all will find it in you to forgive me. I will say though that I will try my best to keep in touch.

Life is hard some days but for the most part I know I need it to be hard. It's the only way that I can live in this world. I have known for a while that I don't need to prove myself to anyone anymore; as long as I am true to myself and Heavenly Father, I am not worried about what other people say about me. The cup is always half full with me.......always! It's never half empty!! Because I was born for the storm, and oh how I need it! Even though sometimes I don't understand it!

School is good, I didn't do so well on the quiz; but I hope things will improve when I get my laptop that's coming. I must say that I am a U.S. History freak but I am learning new things. Church is good I just wish they would fire me from my stake calling but I don't think that will happen for a while.

There are a lot of things that I want to do in this life, I know that I won't be able to do everything; but I can try my best to do what I can! Lately there have been a lot of thoughts going through my head because of what people have said or I just have been thinking about it. So here are a few of them.

"Some may say, “I don’t like myself.” Sorry. You can shape who you become, you can be more than you are today, but you will always be you." Elder Anderson CES Fireside Jan. 10, 2010

"I like to stand and face the storm head on, cause when it comes down hard, I find out that I can handle it."

"Kind words are sweet tones of the heart." Hymns 232

"So how can you see what your life is worth, Or where your value lies? You can never see through the eyes of man, You must look at your life, Look at your life through heaven's eyes."

"There's always gonna be another mountain I'm always gonna wanna make it move always gonna be an uphill battle and sometimes I'm gonna have to lose."