Rain!

Well I finally think it will be summer in Utah, that is if it will ever stop raining. But when it does and the air gets warm, it smells like summer here in Salt Lake. The trees are finally filled out with leaves; and since it has rained so much this spring the mountain that has the big U on it, is so green. I don't think I have ever seen it so green.Lately though now it has been very warm, and I am loving it!

As a ward we are reading the Book of Mormon and we need to be done with it by 8-23-10 so hopefully I can do it. I will give it my very best to finish in time. I am on chapter 8 of first Nephi and it's neat to notice things that I didn't the last time I read this most wonderful book. I don't think I ever fully realized how much faith Lehi had in the Lord. He probably knew that the Jews in Jerusalem were not going to believe him when he told them that Jerusalem would be destroyed, but he still went out and preached risking his life. It shows me that being a member of our church is so worth it and that it is worth risking your life for.

Memorial Day was very warm and I had the day off from work, I was hoping that we would have FHE as a ward but for some reason they canceled it. I guess they figure a lot of people are going to be gone, I had BBQ with my family for dinner and then I went with some of the wardies to a bonfire party, it was a lot of fun!

I am trying to eat better again and not eat so much chocolate. I need to go and get a gym pass at 24 hour fitness again and get going to the gym 3 times a week. Work isn't too bad. I had Wednesday off, so I went to the institute class that some of the wardies go to on Wednesday night. I have also started going back to the temple once a week which is really nice and brings me such peace.

Gorgeous!

Ok so as a girl I am very hard on myself when it comes to my looks. Growing up I have never really felt gorgeous. Even now it's sometimes hard to believe, even though I am content with who I am. I guess it's just my personality; I love it when boys tell me that I look pretty; I love it even more when I get asked out by a really hot guy. I feel gorgeous when I get asked out by any guy.

Don't get me wrong I am content with who I am and I don't care what people think about me. But I do care what I think about myself. So that is why I like to have people tell me that I am pretty, beautiful or gorgeous. I like it when I get approval from other people it makes me feel good about myself. I mean who doesn't?

Though beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and it's only skin deep. Really what matters to me most in a guy is personality. I want someone that I can talk to and has a lot of the same interests as I do. But we don't have to have everything in common, but just enough that I can have someone to talk to, and will tell me things. I love being the center of attention. I like to look pretty too; I like it when I look in the mirror and think to myself, that I am beautiful.

Whenever I try to say that my younger sister is more gorgeous than I am my mom gets a little angry at me. I mean I am not going to jump off a bridge just because I think my younger sister is more gorgeous than me. I just think that she is really pretty and she is in better shape than me. I know that I shouldn't think that I am not as pretty, as my younger sister, but I do.

I have known that I just need to be true to myself and to Heavenly Father and that's all that matters; and I don't need to worry about what other people think of me. I have been able to carry that since I was 24. I know who I am and I know what I want in life. But sometimes it's just nice to hear compliments.

Christ's Love!

So when I finished the Book of Mormon last time in my scripture reading I decided that I would read the New Testament. I must say that I have really been loving it. I have found a better understanding of the Savior's love for everyone. I have really enjoyed reading the 4 gospels again.

I absolutely love the parable of the Pharisee and the Publican in St Luke chapter 18 verse 9. "And he spake this parable unto certain which trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and despised others: Two men went up to the temple to pray; the one Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I thank thee, that I am not as other men are, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this publican. I fast twice in the week, I give tithes of all that I possess. And the publican standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes to heaven, but smote upon his breast, saying, God be merciful to me a sinner. I tell you, this man went down justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shalt be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted."

That parable reminds me of the Rameumptom story in the Book of Mormon. It was a ah ha moment after I read the parable in the New Testament, cause it's just another testimony to me that the Book of Mormon is true.

A girl in my stake gave a talk about how many miles are we away from Christ and told the story about the women that had the issue of blood. She just had to touch his hem and she was cured. Then she told the story of the man that walked five miles or so to see Jesus; so that Jesus would go and heal his son. It made me think how many miles are we willing to go to see Christ and how far away are we really away from Christ are we right behind him like the woman with an issue of blood or are we farther than that? And how many miles are we willing to go to be near him again if we have walked away from him?

Another part in the New Testament that I love, is when Christ says a scripture over and over again that has been on my mind a lot and it made me see how much Christ loves everyone. It's near the end of St John in chapter 13 just after Christ has washed the feet of the Twelve it's verse 16. "Verily, verily I say unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord; neither he that is sent greater than he that sent him."

Love!

So when I said that I ask too much of Heavenly Father, I mean that I feel like I always pray for what I want instead of praying for what I need. Or I feel that I pray selfish sometimes. I like talking to Heavenly Father and I like to tell him what is going in my life. I mean don't get me wrong I try to remember to pray. I hate it when I forget, and I do tell Heavenly Father what I am thankful for. I try to do my best every day.

I am so thankful for all that I have and for my friends and family. I love nothing more than spending time with everyone that I love. Life would be nothing without them.

I have a final tomorrow, it's my only final. I hope it goes well. I am so excited for school to be over with this semester. I have been getting a little sick of school. I am not going to school over the summer. I want and need a break. I want to see if I can get a internship or maybe some volunteer work. I finally decided what I want to do with my life and I want to get into med school. It's the main thing that really interests me in school. I do still dream and want nothing more than to be a wife and mother. I want to be married in the temple.

I need to get my self a gym pass I hope this Saturday I will have time to get one. I really need to start going to the gym again. I do have plans on Saturday but not until the evening. I do need to go to the temple this week. I hope I make it.

Life!

Wow it's been a while since I last posted. I wanted school to be some what over with. I just have my final to take and then I will be done with school this semester. I have been putting money into my saving for school in the fall. I finally decided what I want to do with my life I want to get into medical school. It will be a lot of school but I might as well do something that I want and love.

Sometimes I feel I ask to much of Heavenly Father. I love being a member of the Church of Jesus Christ. Lately I have been reading the New Testament in the book of St John I love that Christ says that he did not come into to the world to judge but he came to save. General Conference was so good I loved a lot of the talks. I have been going to the temple I haven't gone in a while I need to get back into going weekly.

Well my brother got fired from his job almost a year ago and he still doesn't have a new one. All he does is sit at my parents house and play video games and watch movies or TV. Or he goes over to a friends house. Maybe he looks for a job, I have no idea though if he does or not. I think if he was actively looking he would find one at like Wendy's or something like that. Well I hope he gets one soon!

I want to go hiking a lot this summer. I would love to go up to Bear Lake and lay out on the beach at least maybe 3 times this summer. I can't wait for the summer and I hope it gets warm soon.

Exhilarated!

Why is it that when I stand on top of a mountain cliff with the wind rushing at my face, or when I take a rain walk in a thunderstorm and breathe in the smell of the rain, or when it's a gorgeous day out and I don't need a jacket and I can drive with the windows rolled down and not get cold, with the air smelling fresh, that I feel so calm, and peaceful. I guess it's because I love the outdoors, and I love being in nature and I don't get to be outdoors as long as I would like. It also leaves me feeling exhilarated.

Last Friday I went out with a good friend of mine and we had a wonderful time at Barnes and Noble. I bought a book of course, it is very hard for me not to buy a book from that store. I bought Alice in Wonderland and Through the looking Glass, it's a very intriguing book. I like it a lot. Then Saturday I went out with good friend in my ward to Applebee's and then we went over to another friends house in the ward for a party and played games and watched Breakin' and Roller Derby. It was a lot of fun.

Sunday was ward conference and it was rather good, at least that is what I thought; though I wish someone in my ward would have taught the Sunday school lesson. Then the Mingles committee went all out and made this huge meal for everyone and it was very good. Then I went home and I was so full that I didn't eat dinner with family. Instead I made chocolate chip cookies, and they turned out really good. Then went over to my aunt's house to visit with her family which was nice.

Monday went to school I was a little late, then I went home ate dinner with my family. Then I went to my wards FHE activity we had a very good lesson, and we played killerball which was a lot of fun. I left for work after that. So I slept in the next day which was very nice. Work hasn't been so bad lately it's been really nice getting a break from what I usually do.

Conference is coming up, and I can't wait. I am happy that I don't have to work during conference, but I do work late Sunday night, and I am not looking forward to waking up for school the next day. But I do get that Monday off so when I get home from school I am going to take a nap. I am so happy though that the sun stays out longer now, and the weather has been so warm which is just awesome.

Well I can honestly say that when I am hiking in the mountains on a nice day or looking at the stars at night, and spending time in the mountains with the wind rushing at me on a very warm day, and being able to smell the rain, and hearing the thunder along with the rain pounding down is very exhilarating!

Fight for the Good in Life!

Well the warm weather is coming around again and it's making me wish it was summer! It's nice and all having it warm in the valley, but it never lasts especially in the spring. I do hope that when the next storm comes in, that it just rains in the valley and the snow stays up in the mountains. Because snow in the valley does nothing for the water that we need in the summer, the snow in the mountains is what we need for water in the summer.

I read all of the Percy Jackson Lightening Thief books and I really like them. I am reading The Hobbit for the second time in a row and I am reading The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, Angels & Demons, and the New Testament. Huck Finn is really sad but good. I did go and see the Percy Jackson movie and I like it, it's good. I have also seen Alice in Wonderland and I love that movie, I love the whole lesson behind it, and how good overcomes evil. And that you can find that you are brave and you can defeat your own fears. I have also seen the Blind Side and I really love that movie. I want to see How to Train Your Dragon when it comes out to theaters. I also can't wait for the last book of Fable Heaven to come out.

Church is good we just had Stake Conference, and a lot was said that got me thinking; which is cool, so here is bit of what was said. "We are here for a certain purpose and to have experiences that are good and hard." "Temple work has a great benefit for all and not just one special group." "All roads lead to the Temple." "The earth would be utterly wasted if members of the church did not come to the Temple and do service for the dead."

"The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep."
Robert Frost-

It was a really good Stake Conference; I really liked that the Salt Lake Temple President's wife quoted Robert Frost, because sometimes the woods are really lovely dark and deep and I would just like to go into them and spend months in them enjoying the beauty of nature and life; but things need to be done, and life can't be lived by standing still; we all have a part to do and people need us; and they need us to carry our load, but we are never alone Christ is always there standing at the door knocking, but we have to let him in, we have to make room and time for the Savior and Heavenly Father. Once a friend told me that I make life as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ sound so easy, so I told this friend well that's because it is, but we are the ones that make it hard, we are the ones that shut the door to Christ, we are the ones that turn away. With man some things are possible but with God all things are possible.