Busy Days!

Ok so Tuesday I was late for my class but it's a good thing that we didn't have a lab! Then I went to work. I got to sleep in on Wednesday, but I didn't want to get out of bed. Then Thursday I had school again but I wasn't feeling all that great so I just went to my institute class. Then Friday I got to sleep in and again I didn't want to get out of bed. I also got paid on Friday which is nice, then I went to work. I got invited to a party at a friends house so I went there after work. Then Saturday got to sleep in and again I didn't want to get out of bed. I spent way to much time on the computer then I had plans to go to a ward activity and then I was invited over to a friends house in my ward, and I was also invited to a friends house to see all of my institute friends so I was triple booked for Saturday!! I ended up not going to the institute party.

I am happy though that the sun is out longer it was nice driving at 6:30pm with the sun still shinning. I can't wait for the smell of summer; and the summer storms; and the smell of the earth when it rains. I will also love it when it's warm and dry enough to go hiking!

Time and change again has been on my mind! I really do feel like I have lost the old me, again not like it's a bad thing it's actually a really good thing. But it still is kind of weirding me out a little. I guess it's just going to take some time getting used to the new me. Today is fast Sunday for my ward, and we are combined with the boys, so it should be a good lesson. I really don't want to go back to work on Monday, it's so lonely now that we are back to working alone; I hate it. But at least I don't have to work while conference is going on I get to watch all four sessions which is nice for once!

Also I have decided that I need another vacation. Lake Powell was good but after a disappointing Tuesday I feel that I need to get away again; so that maybe this time I can forget about the boy, and that he will be out of my head and this raw pain will go away, I thought I knew what this pain felt like, but apparently not since my heart is hurting so much worse than the last time; and it's weird because usually I can tell when a boy isn't interested in me as more than a friend, and I tend to stop liking him and I get over it; and I usually don't get hurt when I find out that he doesn't like me the same way that I like him. But I am stronger than I seem, I know that eventually the pain will go away and it will pass probably sooner than I expect it will; it will just take some time; I would really like to hide under my bed covers and stay there for two months; but what doesn't kill me will only make me stronger!