Time!!

Something that has been on my mind is time. Time seems to be moving so fast lately, and sometimes I would like it to slow down or just stop for a while. I guess that is why I have been feeling like I am losing my old self, and why I can't go back; because time has been pushing me forward and it has been changing me.

Also like I said in my first post of March.....not that I don't like the new me; cause I have been seeing things a little more clearly and I am more confident that I ever have been.

Although I am afraid that becoming this new me I will leave one of my friends behind because our friendship has been one sided every so often; and the more I try and involve her with all my new friends the more she doesn't like it. Even though she doesn't say anything to me, I can see it on her face or hear it in her voice. I don't want to lose her, so I will keep on trying and hope that one day she will come around.

So I guess that's why I have been feeling weirded out, or that something is missing is because of time passing by too quickly, and because I have been changing so fast lately.

I have some friends from the past that have kind of slipped through my fingers and I see them maybe once a year; but sometimes I would like to give them a good shake and ask WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?? But I guess things happen and change must come and time moves on.

So I will always be here for my friends no matter what happens, because I care about them; and their secrets are safe with me!