Still Standing!!

I had no idea that my life was going to get so out of control at the end of this month. I must confess that I am still hurting a little, though I am done being hurt, it needs to go away. But I guess I have to go through this; so that I can know that no matter what happens I will still be standing in the end! And I am still standing.........hope, I guess is still pushing me to move, to still go on. I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father even though it may seem like one of the doors in my life is shut, two more have opened wider. I hope with time, that the one that seems shut, will open again. Even though I know that things will probably never be the same as they once were, but maybe someday, somehow the change will be for the better. All that I can do now is still pray for this friend, and hope that things will work out for the best! All this time I have been wondering why I haven't cried, but I finally figured out why, and it's because it is not my fault. I really needed to cry though, it would have helped the pain leave or at least it would have been less. I am willing to accept the fact that things between this friend and I will never be the same. But I do hope that my friend will learn and grow from this experience. Going through this trail has changed me even a bit more.

So since I had such a crazy week I didn't take my final on Tuesday like I wanted, since I didn't study at all last week like I was going to, since I was in a state of complete shock. I stayed up really late last night and studied and then woke up really early this morning to take my final and I am really tired! This whole thing has really warped me! Good thing school is over with for this semester and I can sleep in tomorrow! I just hope I can make it through work! I am not going to the gym tonight either because I know I am just way too tired. So hopefully all the hurt and pain that I am feeling will pass sooner that I expect it will. I will for sure go to the gym after work on Friday and that should make me happier!

So I will say this last thing, I care about everyone around me, I don't like it when people are mad at me. Because in High School I know I hurt a few people, so when I got out of High School and matured a bit, I decided that I wasn't going to let every little thing get to me, and so I changed and I have been pretty much the same ever since. Of course about a month ago I became content with who I am and I know that just being me is enough. I am still standing and so I say again bring it on!!