Realize!!

Now that I have broken up with a boy that I was dating, I have come to realize a few things. I now have a better sense of what I want in a guy that I date. He has to be on the same page as me spiritually, and socially or a page ahead. If I ever start worry about other people's opinions about the guy that I am dating then it's just not going to work; and I need to feel calm with the boy that I date. With the next boy that I date, the relationship will have to go very slow. I have also realized that my mom needs to live forever so that I can always ask for her advice on things!

I went to the zoo the other day and it was a lot of fun! But it also made me realize again about how much I miss my grandparents; oh how I wish my grandparents were still alive and able to come to the zoo with me, or I wish that I could take them out to dinner or go to a concert or theater production. Or I wish I could go on vacation with them, and just to be able to call them on the phone and talk with them and tell them that I love them.

I got to see my younger sister and her husband on the 24th which was a lot of fun; it was good to see them I am happy that they came over and had dinner and did fireworks with us. It was also good to see my aunts family! I had to work on the 24th and the 25th but it wasn't bad because I got off at 5pm so I was still able to do stuff which was nice; and I do get two days off next week which will be a lot of fun.

Well I am starting to feel very tired so I think I am going to go to bed now, and get some sleep so that I can wake up and be on time for church!!!!!!!!

Summer Hotness!!

Wow this year has been pretty crazy, but I have been having a lot of fun! It is still hotter than ever here in Utah, but I prefer it that way I guess that's why I was born in July, because I love the heat! Summer is also my favorite season and the 4th is one of my favorite holidays!! Well I went to a party at my good friend Aimee's house and I went to the Oquirrh Mountain temple open house and that was really neat it is such a beautiful temple. I also did visiting teaching I still have one more girl to visit teach and then I will be done for the month, I do also need to go to the temple.

I also went with my ward up to Brighton for an activity we hiked up to Lake Solitude and then had dutch oven dinner and dessert! It was a lot of fun. Church was really good last week and this week. I really liked the story that Manelle shared in Relief Society about her mom; I just feel really bad because I was late but most of the time I am always late for church, I hate it I don't like or want to be late. Katie's lesson in Sunday school was good as well, I just hate it when I don't make any comments. Then it was guess who's coming to dinner I went to Jeff's house and we had tacos and it was really yummy! Also Hiram taught us how to breathe fire, and that was pretty neat; we also played a card game which was a lot of fun!

I was also dating a boy but things got way out of hand and so I broke up with him; which I am very happy that I did, because it just didn't feel right. But now I like another boy in my ward and I am not sure that he likes me. I think he used to like me, but now I am not so sure; so now it's kind of a wait and see if he gets that I am flirting with him, and hopefully it will be sooner rather than later, because I would like go out with him. I also might have another date with another boy that I met at my friends house at a party, that is if he ever calls me; it will be fun to see how that plays out.

The 24th is coming up this week which should be fun! My family and I usually go to the parade and then have dinner and have fun with fireworks! But this year I think we are just going to have a dinner and party and then have fun with fireworks; which is fine with me because then I get to sleep in! Saturday I will probably make plans with friends; so this week should be good I hope! Work will be lame but what is new about that, I usually find fun at work so it shouldn't be too bad! I also went a watched Harry Potter 6 opening night at 12am with some friends in my ward it was a lot of fun, but I was so out of it and tired when it was over! It was a good movie I wouldn't mind watching it again in the theater!!

Hot Summer Days!!

Wow a lot has happened in the past week. Most of it has been work but on the Friday July 3rd I went out with my friend Jessi down to Provo to the freedom days event that was going on down there and that was a lot of fun we also went to the mall and went shopping. Then we went to Apple Bee's and that was very yummy!!!!!!! Since Saturday was the 4th of July I spent it with my family, at Sugar House Park. We went to the Park around 11am and stayed there the whole day it was a lot of fun. A few of us went down to Barnes and Noble and we also got some food! Then The fireworks went off into the sky and it was beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday I went to church it was good and also I got talking to a boy and we have plans for Saturday and I am going to see if he wants to do something tonight after I get off of work. So we will see what happens, we will see!!!!!!!!!!

Finally the weather has been nice, and the sun hasn't been disappearing for a weeks at a time anymore! I am loving it even though it sometimes feels like it's too hott!!!! But I have to admit that I love the hot I guess that is why I was born in the summer! Today is also my birthday which is kind of neat! I am not really having any parties today because I am partying with my family on another day. But I am afraid that this month is going to be packed and that I am going to be double booked a lot! Oh well at least I will be busy!!!!!

Summer!!

Today is the last day of June I hate to see it go since summer is just starting; hopefully in July it won't rain as much! I went camping with my family just this weekend and it was fun. It was really cold because we were 10,000 feet up the mountain and the stars were very pretty you could see the milky way band; there were lots of deer, jack rabbits, and chipmunks. It was a lot fun hiking and just being with most of my family, and the caves were beautiful as well. I did get sun burnt but not too bad it will go to a tan soon!

Last week I did a few things with friends and that was a lot of fun! I can't believe the forth of July is coming up, I will be going with my family to Sugar House Park. So it should be fun! Then the next Saturday I have a party to go to I just hope I don't have to work before the party! Work is lame and a little boring now that one of our leads is back! I would like to see some more movies that are in the theater this summer, and I do want to star gazing in the valley some time this summer! Also I have finally reached my goal I have lost 30lbs, I am so stoked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rain, Rain Go Away!

Don't get me wrong or anything but it really, really, really needs to stop raining in the Salt Lake Valley! I mean we just barely got out of winter; and now the sun is disappearing again. I need the sun to come out; and I need summer to start or I think I might just go mad! No not really but I just have been missing the sun! June is almost over and I hate to see it go so quickly; tomorrow I am going into work late shift so that I can go to FHE we are having hot dogs and playing outdoor Volleyball. So it should be fun, I don't think I will eat hot dogs though, I think I will eat before I go to FHE. Because I should stay away from the junk food as much as I can.

So this Friday most of my family and I are going to Great Basin National Park and I am going to hike my little heart out! So it should be lots of fun we are camping at the park which my family hasn't done in a long time so that should be interesting! I bought myself a air matress and a new sleeping bag so I hope I don't freeze, and I hope it doesn't rain on us! So last Wednesday I had the night off from work and my friend Rose and I got some pizza and then went and watched Night at the Museum 2 and it was really funny! It was a fun night away from work! Also I went on a free tour around the Capital Building and that was way neat, I want to go again and I want to go see the 8th International Art Competition that they are showing at the Conference Center.

Also this year I have been wanting to go river rafting, so I made the comment on facebook that I want to river rafting really bad and my friend Aaron said "Blow up a floatable & stick it in the bathtub! Just close your eyes & swish the water around...almost like a Class II..." that comment made me laugh so hard for about five minutes it was so freaking hilarious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That just totally made my day about 100 times better!!

Roller Coaster!!

Well last Saturday I went out with my family to Denny's, and had dinner with them it was nice being able to see my sister and her husband. Then they came over to the house for a bit after Denny's so I got to visit with them a little longer. Sunday was guess who's coming to dinner, I made enchiladas, it went well enough, even if I couldn't have it out side in my back yard. Church was good I was actually on time for once it was a miracle! I don't like it when I am late!

Monday I went to work and then I went bowling I only played one game though I got a 107 and for someone that hasn't bowled in two weeks I think I did pretty well! So since I worked on Saturday I have tomorrow off and I am going to tour the Capital and go to the Pioneer Museum, and then I am having dinner with my good friend Rose and then we are going to see Night at the Museum 2 and maybe some other people will join us so it should be and eventful day!

So lately I have been thinking about things, I was hoping for boy that I had met to be interested in me enough to want to talk to me a lot on facebook. But alas it seems I repel boys I am tired of ending at a dead end all the time. I hate having to start all over again, but for some reason I can't help myself I met new boys and I get new crushes and it starts again. I just wish it would end or at least come to an end soon, I am tired of getting my hopes up; and I am tired of the boys that like me more than a friend; because I don't like them the same way and it makes me feel bad, because I can't be what they want me to be. Even though, I wish that I could; but I know in my heart that I can't like them more than a friend. I want to give up but every time I try to give up I get pushed forward which is good, but I hope that this roller coaster of trying to find the boy for me will end soon. I know that things will never be perfect and that it takes a lot of hard work for a relationship to work, but at least the roller coaster of dating and flirting will be done!

But I am so thankful for all that my Heavenly Father has given me and I guess all this dead end stuff is experience that I need for the future. I am so thankful for the Savior and his sacrifice for us so that we will have the opportunity to return to Heaven and live with God the Father and Jesus Christ.

Positive Thinking!

So I am not missing Alberta so much anymore. I am missing how the stars looked in Montana. I do want to go back to Alberta again someday. But for now I am happy with being back home. So yesterday I went to one of the Concerts in the Park on Temple Square and since it was raining they had in the Assembly Hall. The concert was good the group that performed sang really good but they just had some really cheesy jokes and it kind of got old after a while. Then I went to work which was fine it wasn't as lame as I thought it would be.

When I got home after work I wanted to charge my cell phone; but I couldn't find my cell phone charger! Uh it was horrible I looked every where and so I gave up for the time being so that I could get some sleep. So then I woke up today and looked everywhere; I even looked in places where I don't take my phone charger! But still no luck so I just went and bought me new one! If we didn't have a thunderstorm today I would have been in a very bad mood for the rest of the day! Today is also my mom's birthday which was nice, I had to work; but she and my dad went out for dinner and a movie.

I am hosting guess who's coming to dinner at my house, and I want to have it out side so I hope that it doesn't rain on us. So far it is just going to be partly cloudy; but if it does rain I am pretty sure that I can move the dinner to inside my house since I don't have a big group coming for dinner. So it will all work out but I would really like to have it outside in my back yard! Friday I am going to a party at a friends place and I will have to bring a snack, but it should be fun! Then I have to work on Saturday but I am happy that I get a day off the next week so it shouldn't be too bad.