Winter Coldness!

So Christmas with the family was awesome. Just opening presents with the family, and having a yummy dinner; and just being able to be lazy all day and not have to go anywhere! Ah it was nice! Saturday I went to lunch with friends from high school; and then I went shopping which was a lot of fun. Then I went and watch Invictus with a friend in my ward. That was such a good movie, the ending kind of dragged on a bit, but it was fun to get out of the house!

Sunday went to church, then came home had dinner with my family. Then we had family home evening and the lesson was very good. It was on Ann M. Dibb her talk was called Hold On. She quoted President Monson and he said "Remember that you are entitled to our (Heavenly) Father's blessings in this work. He did not call you to your privileged post to walk alone, without guidance, trusting to luck. On the contrary, He knows your skill, He realizes your devotion, and he will convert your suspposed inadequacies to recognized strengths. He has promised: 'I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up' " ("Sugar Beets and the Worth of a Soul," Liahona, July 2009, 3-4; Ensign, July 2009, 5-6).

When I read something like that I feel so blessed to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ, it also gives me a lot of hope to keep holding on, and if we do the best that we can and keep our covenants then our testimonies will be strengthened . I also loved the quote " We must hold on tight to the iron rod and never let go."

Today I went with my mother and watched the Blind Side and that is such a good movie. It dealt with Christian values which I thought was awesome and I should do better in my own life, because I know better!

It also has been really cold where I live. I also enrolled for another semester of school, I just hope I have enough money!

So Tinsel!

Well I thought since I have time now and I am not longer stressing about my final project, because yay, at last it is done and over with. Now all I have to worry about is the test. So as long as I study for the test it should go well for me!

Halloween was a lot of fun the day before Halloween I went and saw a show with a few friends and afterwards we went to Denny's so that was a lot of fun. Halloween I spent with my family doing trunk or treat at my family ward stake house. It was a lot of fun seeing all the little kids dressed up in their costumes! Then I went over to a friends house and had a little party then we went out to a show and it was fun to go with friends in my ward.

November I got sick and was out of work for 4 days; went to the doctor got some meds and then felt better. Thanksgiving came and that was a lot of fun. I got to see my family and eat dinner with them, it was nice to just spend free time with them. Had some pie and played games with my family!

Now it's December and Christmas is just 15 days away I can't believe how fast this year has gone by. It's also really, really cold here; at least there is snow on the ground, it's going to snow more this weekend and I hope it does. I still need to do some Christmas shopping. I want to make cookies for this season I just hope I have time to do it all. I need to got to the temple I haven't gone yet this week. I will need to go by tomorrow because I don't like going on Saturday it's too busy. So just one test next Tuesday and then I will be done with school for the semester! It's so pretty now that we have snow on the ground, it makes me happy!!

Winter

Wow what a month. Halloween was a lot of fun this year because I actually had the night off. So I went to trunk or treat with my family and then I went and had fun with friends. Then the first week in November I had H1 N1 and that was not good but I got better. Thanksgiving with the family was good and a lot of fun. We had dinner at 2pm and then played Wii and Rock Band so it was a awesome day then Friday I went out with a friend we went down town and looked at the lights around temple square. Saturday went and slept over with a friend that was pretty fun. Well that is all for now. I will give details later.

Four Seasons!

So it is super cold here in the valley! Well it's super cold to me, I must admit I didn't think that it would get this cold so fast and that it would snow this early. Although the mountains are very beautiful with snow on them; so now it looks as if we are surrounded by snow, which is pretty neat looking. The seasons have been putting on a wonderful show for me in the valley. Spring was nice and wet but it also got warm, summer was hot and it was nice to get out of the city as often as I did, and go up in the mountains. Now we have fall and the leaves changed colors, not just in the mountains but here in the valley as well. Yesterday we got our first snow fall, and it's super cold to me but it looks awesome well the mountains look awesome!

Tomorrow I have a test, then I am super excited to go to the temple. Well I should be studying for my test instead of blogging. The only thing that I am not excited for is work, but got to get money some how. I am also going to a show Friday night and Saturday night, which should be fun; so I can't wait!

So other than it being super cold here, I love that we have the four seasons in Utah. There are some movies that I want to go and see like Where the Wild Things Are, and I want to get the last book of the Leven Thumps series. I need to finish the last book in the Prelude to Glory series I have just 100 pages left. Then I think I will start reading the last book in the Harry Potter series and finish the Hobbit as well. I want to watch Arsenic and Old Lace again before Halloween is over. I love that movie it makes me laugh a lot!

Smaller Things!

Ok so October is almost over I am sad to see it go, because the sun is going to start setting much earlier than it has been. But at least this year we had a good fall; all of the trees have been changing color especially in the valley which has been awesome.

I am still loving my institute class on Tuesday nights. Brother Wilcox is such an amazing teacher I am learning so much about the book of Revelation. I am also reading the book of Matthew in the bible and it is so cool to read it after I have been to Israel because now that I have been to Israel the stories are a little more clear. School is good I don't like going and taking notes but I am doing well on the homework and tests. So it makes me happy that I am not failing.

Church is good too! Especially Relief Society and Sunday school for some reason lately I have been getting a lot out the lessons! I guess it's because when I comment I am able to focus more on what the teacher is trying to get across. Sacrament meeting has been good as well, fast Sundays have been really good lately; and this month and last month we have has some really good talks. I have still been going to the Temple every week which has been awesome I am loving it. The Temple is amazing!!!!!!!!!!!

FHE activities have been fun as well this Monday we went to a corn maze and that was an adventure! Also last Saturday I went to the ward activity and that was a lot of fun; and then I went with April to the Jesters Royal and that was super fun, I laughed so much that my face was hurting by the end of the night it was really good! Also it has been fun getting to know people that are new to the ward. I really do like all the people that are in my ward!

When I went to do my visiting teaching today I decided that I was going to walk to her house, instead of driving; cause it wasn't too long of a walk to take, and walking is very good exercise! But as I was walking down the street that my grandparents used to live; I couldn't help but notice how small the yards and houses seemed now that I am older. I don't know why but when I was younger every yard seemed so huge, well when your smaller things seem a lot bigger. It did make me a little sad I guess because it also felt different. But it was nice to get out of the house and take a walk; and to walk through the leaves that have fallen off of the tress and hear the leaves crunch under my feet; and smell the crisp cool clean air, and to feel that Fall has come to the valley.

October!!

So last Monday we had sports night for FHE it was fun, I didn't play any sports, I just chatted with people. Then I had institute on Tuesday and school; school was alright I just had to take notes. Institute was fun though. Then went to work for the rest of the week it was also fall break for school, so no school on Thursday or Friday yay! Then Saturday was conference and it was awesome I got tickets for the afternoon Saturday session it was awesome!! Then I went with my two sisters and had girls night out we went to the Pie and then we went shopping and then we watched Fame. Fame was a really good show I loved it! Then Sunday watched conference both sessions, again it was amazing!

Then my mom came home from Disney Land and told us about her trip and then we went over to my aunts house for my cousins birthday then off to work I went! Tonight for FHE we were going to go to the capital and take a tour but then we stayed at the institute and played a game and then had ice cream. Tomorrow I have institute class it should be good. I also have a test this week I hope I do alright! I did go to the temple last Friday that was awesome, I wanted to go on Thursday but I woke up too late and so I couldn't go.

So it's finally October I love that it's October, I thought September would never end. I love that the air smells crisp and clean. In the valley we had some awesome thunderstorms and it snowed in the mountains. Fall and winter are going to be awesome except for the sun going down at 5pm!! Well I guess that's all that has happened since I last posted.

A Friend!

So Friday was a lot of fun I woke up went to institute then went to the temple. Went home then went shopping then to work. Then off to April's house to watch movies and eat pizza!!! Saturday cleaned house did visiting teaching then off to Relief Society Conference! Got to see a really good friend and then went to Leatherby's and other good friends came as well. So it was a really fun weekend!!!!!!!!

Well a good friend of mine from work moved back home to Canada. I haven't heard much from him, he was like a brother to me and now that he is gone, it's like he doesn't know me at all. So not fair, he said he would get on facebook more and we would be able to talk. Cause at work we would talk all the time, and now it's like we never were friends. What's up with that I really don't understand he was like an actual brother to me I really loved the brother, sister relationship that we had. How come now that he is gone that he talks to all his other friends that he left behind, but doesn't talk to me. It really makes me sad that he won't respond to my messages now. I really valued his friendship!!

I guess it's another reason why I have such an amazing visiting teacher, she makes me feel included and I don't feel so left out in the ward and outside of the ward. She is a true friend and lets me call her whenever I feel like it, and she doesn't get sick of me or make me feel like she needs to hang out with this person more when I am around. She is like another sister to me, just like 6 of my other bestest friends are!

Utah Fall!!

So winter is coming which will be exciting but I don't want the sun to set at 5pm; and the darkness to come. I mean don't get me wrong I love the winter season and I love Christmas; I like Thanksgiving and the snow! But I don't like it when the snow melts and it's just cold and dark! At least conference is coming and that is always so good and a good friend is coming for a short visit this weekend! School is over with for this week!

Also my visiting teacher is going to come over; and visit teach me and then we are going to play or have an adventure of some kind! Also I am going to go to the temple tomorrow so that is a bonus! I still really love my institute class and I wish could stay longer at FHE! I wish I didn't have to wake up for school. I wish I didn't have a headache right now.

Well fall is finally here in Utah well at least northern Utah, and I am excited for the leaves to change colors and to be able to have the windows rolled down because it's no longer hotter than 80 degrees! I love the way the air feels and smells it's so crisp and clean; and when we have thunderstorms in the fall it's awesome! Also Halloween is coming and I admit I like Halloween it's my 3rd favorite holiday! Well sorry the post is short I don't really have much else to say!

Laughter with Friends!!

So I have been going to the temple every week which has been awesome!! I am loving it!! It's also finally nice to have a really good friend in the ward; now I don't feel so out of place and it's also amazing that she likes to do things with me out side of church!!!!!!!!!!!!! She is awesome, and a true friend!!

School is good, work is not bad even though some days I just don't want to be there! It will be better when I can have my work hours from 8am to 4:30pm! Still hoping that something will happen so that I can change my work hours, any prayers would be helpful! I really need full time work!! It's so much fun going to FHE and going to Brother Wilcox's institute class! I don't like waking up for school though!

Saturday was a lot of fun, April and I went to a party then we went and got ice cream with a couple of guys in the ward, and it was so funny they thought that we were trying to trick them into a date with us! It was hilarious, ah it's fun to hang out with those two they really make me laugh a lot!! It was good to hang out with another good friend of mine at Barnes and Noble, we didn't buy anything which is amazing for us to do! But it was fun looking around the store I did find a lot of books that I want to buy though!! Well I am getting really sleepy so I am going to end my post now!!

Music!!

This one of my favorite songs it helps me when I am having a bad day!

Just A Ride Lyrics /Artist:Jem

Life, it's ever so strange
It's so full of change
Think that you've worked it out
Then BANG
Right out of the blue
Something happens to you
To throw you off course
And then you

Breakdown
Yeah you breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me
Because

It's just a ride, it's just a ride
No need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
Sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
Don't be scared
Don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
But don't forget it's just a ride

Truth, we don't wanna hear
It's too much to take
Don't like to feel out of control
So we make our plans
Ten times a day
And when they don't go
Our way we

Breakdown
Yeah we breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me
Because

It's just a ride, it's just a ride
No need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
Sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
Don't be scared
Don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
But don't forget it's just a ride

Slowly, oh so very slowly
Accept that
There's no getting off
So live it, just gotta go with it
Coz this ride's, never gonna stop

Breakdown
Don't you breakdown
No need to breakdown
No need at all
Because

It's just a ride, it's just a ride
No need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you all around
Sometimes you're up
Sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
Don't be scared now
Dry your eyes
It may feel so real inside
But don't forget enjoy the ride

Fall Madness!

So I have a new visiting teacher and she is just awesome and the best ever! So I went boating with my ward which was so much fun, I got a darker tan which is always nice. We also had a BBQ which was yummy and I had so much fun with April! I went out on the boat twice and tubing is so much fun. It was good to get out and do something different for a change. I did also clean my room this month, which makes me so happy!

Well I thought I was over a guy that I was dating a month or so ago; but it turns out that I am not! But I am stronger than I seem. I will get through this, it will pass and probably sooner than I think it will. And I like two other boys in my ward; and with one of them it's really hard to be around, because a friend of mine likes him. So I say that I am a damsel, I am in distress and I will handle it; it will just be a little hard. But I know I need to go through this because it will help me in the long run!

So I started school last Thursday and it seems like it will be good, although half of the time this semester I will be so tired, I just need to get myself to bed earlier than I normally do. I am also going to FHE every Monday and going to work late shift. On Tuesday I have an institute class in the evening and it is a really fun class Brother Willcox is so funny and I am learning so much. I love my Tuesday night institute class! I also went to the temple this week which was amazing I am going to go every week. I am going to try to go on Thursdays so that I can sleep after school on Tuesday. Then I won't be so dead for work on Tuesday night.

I really hope I get my work hours changed from evening to morning soon I really need it with the way things are happening in my life and I really need full time instead of part time. It would just be the best thing ever to happen to me if I could work from 8am to 4:30pm!!!!!!!! Also summer is ending and that makes me so sad that the sun is going to set at 5pm again but I love the snow and the season that comes with it I just don't like the darkness that it brings, and the cold days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Summer Vacation!!

Do you ever feel like when you go on a vacation and you love it so much, that when it's time to leave and go back home that you don't feel like you are going back home, but that you are leaving home instead. Well that's the way I felt after leaving my brother in law's uncle's cabin. It was so peaceful and beautiful. Being able to hear the wind in the trees and the grass and not have any city noise was awesome! I was sad to leave when it was over and I really did feel like I was leaving home. We got to drive the ATV's and I went on a couple of walks around the town, played pool and watched movies had fun in the hot spa, looked at the amazing stars at night and just had fun with the family!

Well my good friend Angela came to visit from Texas and brought her friend Katie along with her and it was awesome. We went to Leatherby's and then hiked Doughnut Falls, Silver Lake, and Twin Lakes. On the way back down from Twin Lakes I slipped and fell and got this huge cut on my left knee, but it wasn't too bad I would hike all day every day if I could and even with a big flesh wound. Then we went to Bear Lake, we played in the water and got sunburnt. Also on the way up to Bear Lake people were herding cattle it was awesome to watch! On the way back to home from Bear Lake we stopped and looked a the Logan Temple which was nice to see! We also went up Butterfield Canyon and had smores. The last night Katie and Angela were in town we went over to Camille's house and watched a movie ate popcorn and talked.

Sunday woke up early went with my family to the Oquirrh Temple dedication at 9am then went home and ate lunch then I went and took a nap. Had dinner with my parents and then we went to the city cemetary and looked at prophets and apostles graves that were there. It rained a little bit but not bad. The sunset was gorgeous!

I will miss Angela and Katie now that they have left, I had tonz of fun while they were here in Utah. I got to do a few things that I have been wanting to do all summer long. I am so happy that they were able to come and visit it was so good to see Angela again and it was fun to get to know Katie!!

School is going to start in a few days I confess I do want to go back to school, but I don't want to take tests or be graded on anything; if I could go to school like that I would be so happy for school to start instead of dreading that my summer is over. At least I have one thing to look forward to this week, on Saturday my student ward is having a boating activity so that should be tonz of fun!

Fun Summer!

Ok so I pretty much ready for school this fall semester! I don't have to buy any books so far which makes it even better!! So I want to see if I can get a job in my department during the morning, day hours. Because then I could go to FHE and I could go to the Temple more often and I could do my stake calling; and life would just be so much more easier to handle. So I just need to wait until my supervisor comes back and then I can apply for the position. I would work from 8am to 12pm which would be so awesome; and then I could have my boss put my name down for a full time position and then when one opened up I could get that; and that would just be amazing so I hope this job change will happen soon at least by next Friday!

This Saturday is my family reunion on my mom's side it will be fun to see those that come! So it will be fun, we are going to Wastington Park and it will be fun to walk around and explore! Since my sister's husband has a uncle that owns a cabin we are going to the cabin next weekend with the whole family which will be so much fun! We get to go swimming and 4 wheeling and just be lazy and play games and eat food! I can't wait!!!!!!!!!

So summer is ending and I must go back to school I am kind of happy to go back, but at the same time I am sad to see summer go. I love the summer it is my favorite season, I love the heat and the warm summer nights and being able to look at all the stars with no jacket on. I do need to go to the temple as soon as possible. In my personal reading I am in the 7th chapter of Moroni and in verse 41 it says "And what is it that ye shall hope for? Behold I say unto you that ye shall have hope throught the atonement of Christ and the power of his resurrection to be raised unto life eternal, and this because of your faith in him according to the promise." and that verse hit me so hard I had to got back and read it again; I just thought that verse was so amazing that if we just have hope and faith in the atonement of Christ that we can recieve the promise of eternal life! I am so thankfull for my Heavenly Father and my Savior Jesus Christ for leading me in my life. I know the Book of Mormon is true, and I am so thankful for the guidence that it gives me! The summer so far has been a fun one and I have a lot of good memories!

Realize!!

Now that I have broken up with a boy that I was dating, I have come to realize a few things. I now have a better sense of what I want in a guy that I date. He has to be on the same page as me spiritually, and socially or a page ahead. If I ever start worry about other people's opinions about the guy that I am dating then it's just not going to work; and I need to feel calm with the boy that I date. With the next boy that I date, the relationship will have to go very slow. I have also realized that my mom needs to live forever so that I can always ask for her advice on things!

I went to the zoo the other day and it was a lot of fun! But it also made me realize again about how much I miss my grandparents; oh how I wish my grandparents were still alive and able to come to the zoo with me, or I wish that I could take them out to dinner or go to a concert or theater production. Or I wish I could go on vacation with them, and just to be able to call them on the phone and talk with them and tell them that I love them.

I got to see my younger sister and her husband on the 24th which was a lot of fun; it was good to see them I am happy that they came over and had dinner and did fireworks with us. It was also good to see my aunts family! I had to work on the 24th and the 25th but it wasn't bad because I got off at 5pm so I was still able to do stuff which was nice; and I do get two days off next week which will be a lot of fun.

Well I am starting to feel very tired so I think I am going to go to bed now, and get some sleep so that I can wake up and be on time for church!!!!!!!!

Summer Hotness!!

Wow this year has been pretty crazy, but I have been having a lot of fun! It is still hotter than ever here in Utah, but I prefer it that way I guess that's why I was born in July, because I love the heat! Summer is also my favorite season and the 4th is one of my favorite holidays!! Well I went to a party at my good friend Aimee's house and I went to the Oquirrh Mountain temple open house and that was really neat it is such a beautiful temple. I also did visiting teaching I still have one more girl to visit teach and then I will be done for the month, I do also need to go to the temple.

I also went with my ward up to Brighton for an activity we hiked up to Lake Solitude and then had dutch oven dinner and dessert! It was a lot of fun. Church was really good last week and this week. I really liked the story that Manelle shared in Relief Society about her mom; I just feel really bad because I was late but most of the time I am always late for church, I hate it I don't like or want to be late. Katie's lesson in Sunday school was good as well, I just hate it when I don't make any comments. Then it was guess who's coming to dinner I went to Jeff's house and we had tacos and it was really yummy! Also Hiram taught us how to breathe fire, and that was pretty neat; we also played a card game which was a lot of fun!

I was also dating a boy but things got way out of hand and so I broke up with him; which I am very happy that I did, because it just didn't feel right. But now I like another boy in my ward and I am not sure that he likes me. I think he used to like me, but now I am not so sure; so now it's kind of a wait and see if he gets that I am flirting with him, and hopefully it will be sooner rather than later, because I would like go out with him. I also might have another date with another boy that I met at my friends house at a party, that is if he ever calls me; it will be fun to see how that plays out.

The 24th is coming up this week which should be fun! My family and I usually go to the parade and then have dinner and have fun with fireworks! But this year I think we are just going to have a dinner and party and then have fun with fireworks; which is fine with me because then I get to sleep in! Saturday I will probably make plans with friends; so this week should be good I hope! Work will be lame but what is new about that, I usually find fun at work so it shouldn't be too bad! I also went a watched Harry Potter 6 opening night at 12am with some friends in my ward it was a lot of fun, but I was so out of it and tired when it was over! It was a good movie I wouldn't mind watching it again in the theater!!

Hot Summer Days!!

Wow a lot has happened in the past week. Most of it has been work but on the Friday July 3rd I went out with my friend Jessi down to Provo to the freedom days event that was going on down there and that was a lot of fun we also went to the mall and went shopping. Then we went to Apple Bee's and that was very yummy!!!!!!! Since Saturday was the 4th of July I spent it with my family, at Sugar House Park. We went to the Park around 11am and stayed there the whole day it was a lot of fun. A few of us went down to Barnes and Noble and we also got some food! Then The fireworks went off into the sky and it was beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday I went to church it was good and also I got talking to a boy and we have plans for Saturday and I am going to see if he wants to do something tonight after I get off of work. So we will see what happens, we will see!!!!!!!!!!

Finally the weather has been nice, and the sun hasn't been disappearing for a weeks at a time anymore! I am loving it even though it sometimes feels like it's too hott!!!! But I have to admit that I love the hot I guess that is why I was born in the summer! Today is also my birthday which is kind of neat! I am not really having any parties today because I am partying with my family on another day. But I am afraid that this month is going to be packed and that I am going to be double booked a lot! Oh well at least I will be busy!!!!!

Summer!!

Today is the last day of June I hate to see it go since summer is just starting; hopefully in July it won't rain as much! I went camping with my family just this weekend and it was fun. It was really cold because we were 10,000 feet up the mountain and the stars were very pretty you could see the milky way band; there were lots of deer, jack rabbits, and chipmunks. It was a lot fun hiking and just being with most of my family, and the caves were beautiful as well. I did get sun burnt but not too bad it will go to a tan soon!

Last week I did a few things with friends and that was a lot of fun! I can't believe the forth of July is coming up, I will be going with my family to Sugar House Park. So it should be fun! Then the next Saturday I have a party to go to I just hope I don't have to work before the party! Work is lame and a little boring now that one of our leads is back! I would like to see some more movies that are in the theater this summer, and I do want to star gazing in the valley some time this summer! Also I have finally reached my goal I have lost 30lbs, I am so stoked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rain, Rain Go Away!

Don't get me wrong or anything but it really, really, really needs to stop raining in the Salt Lake Valley! I mean we just barely got out of winter; and now the sun is disappearing again. I need the sun to come out; and I need summer to start or I think I might just go mad! No not really but I just have been missing the sun! June is almost over and I hate to see it go so quickly; tomorrow I am going into work late shift so that I can go to FHE we are having hot dogs and playing outdoor Volleyball. So it should be fun, I don't think I will eat hot dogs though, I think I will eat before I go to FHE. Because I should stay away from the junk food as much as I can.

So this Friday most of my family and I are going to Great Basin National Park and I am going to hike my little heart out! So it should be lots of fun we are camping at the park which my family hasn't done in a long time so that should be interesting! I bought myself a air matress and a new sleeping bag so I hope I don't freeze, and I hope it doesn't rain on us! So last Wednesday I had the night off from work and my friend Rose and I got some pizza and then went and watched Night at the Museum 2 and it was really funny! It was a fun night away from work! Also I went on a free tour around the Capital Building and that was way neat, I want to go again and I want to go see the 8th International Art Competition that they are showing at the Conference Center.

Also this year I have been wanting to go river rafting, so I made the comment on facebook that I want to river rafting really bad and my friend Aaron said "Blow up a floatable & stick it in the bathtub! Just close your eyes & swish the water around...almost like a Class II..." that comment made me laugh so hard for about five minutes it was so freaking hilarious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That just totally made my day about 100 times better!!

Roller Coaster!!

Well last Saturday I went out with my family to Denny's, and had dinner with them it was nice being able to see my sister and her husband. Then they came over to the house for a bit after Denny's so I got to visit with them a little longer. Sunday was guess who's coming to dinner, I made enchiladas, it went well enough, even if I couldn't have it out side in my back yard. Church was good I was actually on time for once it was a miracle! I don't like it when I am late!

Monday I went to work and then I went bowling I only played one game though I got a 107 and for someone that hasn't bowled in two weeks I think I did pretty well! So since I worked on Saturday I have tomorrow off and I am going to tour the Capital and go to the Pioneer Museum, and then I am having dinner with my good friend Rose and then we are going to see Night at the Museum 2 and maybe some other people will join us so it should be and eventful day!

So lately I have been thinking about things, I was hoping for boy that I had met to be interested in me enough to want to talk to me a lot on facebook. But alas it seems I repel boys I am tired of ending at a dead end all the time. I hate having to start all over again, but for some reason I can't help myself I met new boys and I get new crushes and it starts again. I just wish it would end or at least come to an end soon, I am tired of getting my hopes up; and I am tired of the boys that like me more than a friend; because I don't like them the same way and it makes me feel bad, because I can't be what they want me to be. Even though, I wish that I could; but I know in my heart that I can't like them more than a friend. I want to give up but every time I try to give up I get pushed forward which is good, but I hope that this roller coaster of trying to find the boy for me will end soon. I know that things will never be perfect and that it takes a lot of hard work for a relationship to work, but at least the roller coaster of dating and flirting will be done!

But I am so thankful for all that my Heavenly Father has given me and I guess all this dead end stuff is experience that I need for the future. I am so thankful for the Savior and his sacrifice for us so that we will have the opportunity to return to Heaven and live with God the Father and Jesus Christ.

Positive Thinking!

So I am not missing Alberta so much anymore. I am missing how the stars looked in Montana. I do want to go back to Alberta again someday. But for now I am happy with being back home. So yesterday I went to one of the Concerts in the Park on Temple Square and since it was raining they had in the Assembly Hall. The concert was good the group that performed sang really good but they just had some really cheesy jokes and it kind of got old after a while. Then I went to work which was fine it wasn't as lame as I thought it would be.

When I got home after work I wanted to charge my cell phone; but I couldn't find my cell phone charger! Uh it was horrible I looked every where and so I gave up for the time being so that I could get some sleep. So then I woke up today and looked everywhere; I even looked in places where I don't take my phone charger! But still no luck so I just went and bought me new one! If we didn't have a thunderstorm today I would have been in a very bad mood for the rest of the day! Today is also my mom's birthday which was nice, I had to work; but she and my dad went out for dinner and a movie.

I am hosting guess who's coming to dinner at my house, and I want to have it out side so I hope that it doesn't rain on us. So far it is just going to be partly cloudy; but if it does rain I am pretty sure that I can move the dinner to inside my house since I don't have a big group coming for dinner. So it will all work out but I would really like to have it outside in my back yard! Friday I am going to a party at a friends place and I will have to bring a snack, but it should be fun! Then I have to work on Saturday but I am happy that I get a day off the next week so it shouldn't be too bad.

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Life is still Sweet!!

Friday I had the night off so I made plans with my good friend Rose! So we decided to go up to the State Capital Building and just run around and look at things. It was a lot of fun then we went to Brigham Young Historic park, for a concert that was going on at the park and that was fun. Then we grabbed some food; and then went and found a good spot to look at the Valley at night and to eat our food!!

Saturday I didn't sleep well so I woke up late and then went to a friends baby shower; I got to see some of my friends that I haven't seen in a really long time; and that was a lot of fun being able to see them!! Then my friend Camille took me up to Sandy and we hiked along Dry Creek and that was just amazing! It was really beautiful even though it rained on us a bit!

Then today I was late for church surprise, surprise! But it was good, Rick did a good job on his lesson even though again I didn't make any comments. I feel bad when I don't make any comments in Sunday school. Because it was a really good lesson and Katie did a really good job last sunday when she taught! Uh! Well then in sacrament meeting I sat down next to a boy who was somewhat new in the ward and he was pretty good looking, and he introduced himself and he seems very nice; I should have invited him to go to a concert with me on Tuesday but I didn't think of it until he left church! Well there are other concerts, and I will have a chance to talk to him again! So I will live, anyway sacrament meeting was pretty good! Then I went over to my aunt's house with my family and my sister and her husband were there and it was good to see them both! And I go to see my other sister which was nice! So this weekend and Sunday was good!

Another 50 word mini saga!!

"So how are you liking Alberta?" He asked me. "I love it here, it makes me so sad that I have to leave tomorrow." I said. "You would give up living in Utah to live up here?!?" He asked. "Well I wouldn't want to live up here forever." I said.

Life is Still Good!!

So I lost 3lbs in Alberta which makes me so happy; so that makes a total of 24lbs that I have lost!!! Saturday there was an activity at my Bishop's house so I went there and talked to some of friends and the Bishop's wife made breakfast; which was yummy, then I went hiking in Mill Creek Canyon with my good friend Rose and that was fun and very beautiful!! Then went over to my aunt's house and had dinner and I got to see some of my cousins, which was nice!!

Sunday went to church we were combined with the boys in the first hour, Sunday school was good, Katie did a wonderful job, even though I didn't make any comments! The last hour of church it was kind of hard to focus. The mingle was good and then I went home and had dinner with my family and then we had fhe with my aunt's family. Then I got visit taught which was most wonderful!

Life is Good!!

Well I got my wish I was able to go on at road trip and have a vacation!! I went to Calgary Alberta, Canada! I left Wednesday night with my friend Jen, and three others. We made a short stop in Idaho Falls and got to look at the Temple and grabbed something to eat. It was really awesome to get to see the Idaho Falls Temple at night! Driving through Montana at night was pretty neat; the stars were so beautiful that it made me want to cry! As we were driving through Montana we see this white light on the mountain, so my friend Kar and I were wondering what it was; and in the back seat Jen kept on saying that it was Mary, but we thought that she was talking about something else, so finally I asked Jen, "Jen what is that big bright light on the mountain," and she says "It's Mary," and then it finally dawns on us that it's a statue of the the Virgin Mary on the mountain; and we just start cracking up laughing, it was so funny!! Then we got into Alberta around 5am and it was freezing cold!! Then we got into Calgary, and we got fed breakfast at one of Jen's friends house, which was really nice! Then I went with Jen and we visited some of her family which was a lot of fun! Jen and I got fed dinner at her brother's house and then they taught me how to play poker, we only played for fun though! I won a few hands! Jen and myself had fun with her nieces and nephews at her brothers house, jumping on the trampoline, I have forgotten how much fun a trampoline is.

Then the next day we went to the Calgary Olympic Park where they have the ski jumps and the bobsled track, and that was neat; they also had a Hall of Fame and a Museum. Then I went with Jen and her mom and we watched Angels and Demons; and then we went out to dinner along with Jen's dad to Montana's; the food was to die for! It was so yummy, we so need a Montana's in the valley!! Then I with Jen to a friends house and we played a game and that was a lot of fun. So Saturday we went to Banff National Park and it was so beautiful!! First though we stopped at Cougar Creek and we went on a hike and we also got to play in the water which was fun, I did get a sun burn. Then we finally got to Banff and had dinner; the down town area looks like Jackson Hole. Then we finally got to see some sites. We saw the Bow Falls and the Banff Springs Hotel, and Lake Moraine and Lake Louise both of the lakes were still frozen but still very pretty, at least I thought both lakes were still very beautiful! Then we went back to Calgary to go to bed.

Sunday woke up and went to Jen's student ward that she was in before she moved to Utah. Jen and I went to a fireside. After the fireside we went over to one of her friends place and played catch phrase and what's yours like, so it was a fun night, and over all a good Sunday! Then Monday we went to the Calgary Zoo and that was really cool, and a lot of fun, we didn't have time to see all of it. Then we were going to leave that Monday night, but my friend Jen got sick so we didn't leave until Tuesday morning. So the drive back down was cool; and I am happy that I got to see some of the Montana mountains in the day light. Montana is just beautiful!!!

I happy that I got to go to Alberta, and I met some really amazing people while I was up there! I would really love to go back again this year if I could. But with school in the fall I don't think I will be able to go again until next year, which makes me a little sad; I would really like to go up there again and see the Calgary stampede that I keep hearing about! Also I would really like to see all the people that I got to know, again! Ok so I know that this says I posted on Thursday, but it should really say Sunday May 31, 2009!

Still Standing After Change!!

Friday I went to work came home I didn't feel like going to the gym, so I just stayed home and watched movies on the TV. Saturday I slept in really late then I got up did some errands and then I went shopping I found some stuff that I really like though I need to take back a pair of jeans and get a different pair. So Saturday was an alright day I just wish I had other plans with friends but alas I didn't, so then I went home and got some stuff ready for Sunday. Then I tried to go to sleep but I couldn't shut my mind off so I only got like 5 hours of sleep last night.

Today I got up got ready for church I was a little late for church, but not to late church was good though I am really going to miss one of my friends that left today for Florida for an internship, I love that girl like a sister, it is going to hard not having her here anymore! The mingle was good Then I went to guess who's coming to dinner and that was good. Then I went out with my two new friends in my ward to another friends house. That was fun, their were some hot boys there!

Well I would really love to go out of town this week or at least get out of the city, but it all depends on if I can get work off especially on Friday! Well I will just go into work tomorrow and see. So I like two of my guy friends one doesn't seem to be into me as much as I am in to him, and I don't know about the other one yet I haven't really flirted with him yet so I will probably know soon that is if I get the courage to flirt with him!

Well one of my friends is still causing a few problems in my life and I don't like it. Even though it's not as bad as it was before. So thank goodness things are getting a little better. It makes me hurt though that this friend doesn't want to fix things, cause if this friend would things in this friends life would be so much better. Then this friend wouldn't have feel like they need to run away from things all the time. This friends just needs to stand and face things head on!

Also another thing that has been on my mind a lot lately is my grandparents. I miss them so much and wish they were here with me to share in my life with me! I would give anything in the world (well within reason) to be able to talk to them for a few hours, or to just call them up on the phone and tell them I miss them and love them so very much! I thank my Heavenly Father so much for allowing them to be in my life for at least 16 years! And I thank him for allowing Michaella to come in my life and become like a sister to me before she had to leave for Florida! Also I thank my Father in Heaven for my good friend Angela Jones, cause I think if she didn't leave to move back to Texas we would not have become so close like sisters. Many things have changed in my life lately and I welcome the change because for the most part the change has been good!!

Good Times!!

So this week has been good for the most part, the weather has been good. Monday I got to go to FHE, and that was a lot of fun we picked up trash along the Jordan River Parkway and we go to play on the play ground. Then some of my friends from the ward and I went bowling my first score was 58 and then I got 108. So not bad I wish I could have beaten my score of 124! Then after bowling we went to IHop, and the pancakes are yummy!

Tuesday I slept in and then went to work, then after work I went out with a few friends from my ward then came home and I went to bed! Wednesday slept in again and then went to work. I was going to go to the gym but I decided not to. Today I over slept, I went to work, and I actually had fun at work. Then I went to the gym and that was good.

I have lost another 2lbs making a total of 21lbs that I have lost now! Lets just hope I can keep it off, so far I have been able to. Now that I have 21 gone that leaves 9 more to go!

Tomorrow I have a lot of things that need to get done. I need to get my brother a birthday gift and get some starburst for a party after work if it doesn't fall through. I need to get my nails done and hopefully I can get a job application. Then off to work I go. If I don't go to a party tomorrow night then I will go to the gym, maybe, it depends on how tired I am. I met a new guy and I like him a lot, he is taller and older than me which I like and we have a lot in common. So I will just have to keep at it, we are good friends now so hopefully it will turn into something more! But we will see, it may take some time for him to realize that I like him more than a friend!

Partly Cloudy!!

So then sun it seems to have gone behind a cloud again. I was hoping for the sun to stay out longer this time. It makes me sad and a little hurt again to see the sun go away from me. But I know now that the sun has to disappear in order for me to appreciate the sun being out; it has to leave me sometimes! Even though I was hoping for the sun to stay out longer for good long time. I guess there is still something that I need to learn. I know that I need trials in order to survive in this life. This life is hard but that is the way it's always going to be, it's the only way it will be worth it. It's the only way to get back home to live with God the Father and Jesus Christ and to become Gods and Goddesses like Heavenly Father and Heavenly Mother.

I feel like I am running out of ideas. I still have a few more but will it be enough? I have had this constant poking ever since February to not give up on my life to keep going, hope has helped me to keep on going. It has been awesome knowing that I can get through my trials, and I am not afraid of them anymore. I know that being me is enough and that I need to focus on others, because it makes me forget about my self and I love it. Because then I am not depressed all the time and it helps me to stay happy and loving life!

Ok so Friday I went and ran some errands for my mom and then I went to work. At work I find out that I am working the next day and I had already made plans to go and get pedicures and get my hair done. So since I couldn't find anyone to cover my Saturday work shift I asked for Monday off and I got it off. But I had to cancel a few things and then rearrange things around so that I could go to work and still go to my family wards mother, daughter dinner and still go and watch movie with some of my friends. So Saturday was crazy day but good work wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. The mother, daught dinner was good I got to see my little sister and her husband and I got to see my older sister as well. My brother in-law was so funny the Young Women were taking kids for rides in a wagon and my brother in-law got in line and actually went for a ride in the wagon it was so hilarious!

Then I went to a movie with friends we went out to Jordan Landing and watched the X-Men and it was pretty good not bad. Then we went to a friends house and played on the Wii and talked then we all went home to go to bed. Then today I got up and went to a friends baby blessing and then I went to my ward and I was on time for once! Went to all meetings and then I went to the mingle I made a new friend and that was cool. I have tomorrow off and I am going to get a pedicure and then I am going to FHE I am so excited! So I guess the sun is out I just have to look around long enough to find it.

Sunny Days!!

Ok so Tuesday after work I went to sing karaoke, with two of my friends from the ward! It was fun I don't think I did very good but oh well it was fun! But my friend Liz has an amazing voice and Brian has a good voice as well. It would be cool to have them sing in sacrament meeting. Then I put in Cool Runnings but I fell asleep like 20 min into the movie! So I slept in which was nice but I think I over slept a bit too much, so I woke up and got ready for work and then came home got something to eat then got on facebook! Then today I slept in but not as long as I did yesterday got up showered and now I am on facebook again! Then I went to run a few errands I needed condtioner and cereal and my mom wanted me to get her some sandals. Then I made food for me to eat so that I wouldn't faint at work!

Went to work it wasn't bad. Then I came home got changed for the gym, I got in a 30 min work out which is good. Then I got home and I was hoping that I had lost at least another pound; but sadly I haven't lost anything for a while, but at least I am not gaining any weight! So that makes me happy!

Another thing that makes me happy is now the drama in my life seems to be winding down I hope! The rain seems to have stopped and the sun is back out I want it to last for a good long time now. Also another thing is it seems as if time is slowing down a bit for me right now. Which I don't mind especially since things are finally getting good again.....and hopefully it will get even better! I am so greatful for my Heavenly Father and all that he does and gives me. Life for me is calm and content now. I just hope that no one that I know gets swine flu including myself, I hope that they can get this virus under control so that no one else will have to die. But outside today it was so nice and warm, too bad I had to work; I so would have loved to do something outside like go to a park or the zoo with some friends. But alas I need money. I wish I could invent a money tree and grow it in my back yard that would be so awesome if that could come true! But since that is not going to ever happen I must work. So I must live my life as best as I can!

Sunlight!!

Friday I woke up got ready for work and then went to work, I wanted to go to the to the gym after work. But I was so tired after work that I decided that it was best I didn't go. So I will just have to go next Thursday and Friday, now it will be easier since school is out for the semester! Then Saturday I cleaned some of my house; and then got ready to go to the ward activity since I promised Cambree I would go. So I worked some things out with my friend and I know that things are not going to be the same. I must confess I am good with things not being the same as they once were, I guess it's the only way that I can move on with my life. The ward activity was pretty fun we were going to go bowling, but then we couldn't so we went back to the institute and played catch phrase and had snacks and nachos. Then we went to a friends house and watched Transformers!

Then when I got home I find out that one of my best friend's father pasted away Saturday morning, so my thoughts and prayers are with my friend and her family; my heart goes out to her! So Sunday was pretty good I really enjoyed Meg's lesson in Relief Society, Sunday School I couldn't focus all that well. Sacrament meeting was better I could at least focus on the talks. The mingle was pretty fun I got to talk to some people that I haven't seen in a while. Then Monday I got ready for work. I went to work and then I went bowling with some friends in my ward my first score was 124 so I have a new high score to beat, then my second score was 111! So I broke a hundred twice!!

So all in all, I think things are finally looking up! Also I called one of my best friends on Sunday and she hasn't called me back yet; I hope that at least by this weekend I will get a call or a text from her. Well since the sun is back out in my life, I hope it will stay out for a good long time!

Still Standing!!

I had no idea that my life was going to get so out of control at the end of this month. I must confess that I am still hurting a little, though I am done being hurt, it needs to go away. But I guess I have to go through this; so that I can know that no matter what happens I will still be standing in the end! And I am still standing.........hope, I guess is still pushing me to move, to still go on. I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father even though it may seem like one of the doors in my life is shut, two more have opened wider. I hope with time, that the one that seems shut, will open again. Even though I know that things will probably never be the same as they once were, but maybe someday, somehow the change will be for the better. All that I can do now is still pray for this friend, and hope that things will work out for the best! All this time I have been wondering why I haven't cried, but I finally figured out why, and it's because it is not my fault. I really needed to cry though, it would have helped the pain leave or at least it would have been less. I am willing to accept the fact that things between this friend and I will never be the same. But I do hope that my friend will learn and grow from this experience. Going through this trail has changed me even a bit more.

So since I had such a crazy week I didn't take my final on Tuesday like I wanted, since I didn't study at all last week like I was going to, since I was in a state of complete shock. I stayed up really late last night and studied and then woke up really early this morning to take my final and I am really tired! This whole thing has really warped me! Good thing school is over with for this semester and I can sleep in tomorrow! I just hope I can make it through work! I am not going to the gym tonight either because I know I am just way too tired. So hopefully all the hurt and pain that I am feeling will pass sooner that I expect it will. I will for sure go to the gym after work on Friday and that should make me happier!

So I will say this last thing, I care about everyone around me, I don't like it when people are mad at me. Because in High School I know I hurt a few people, so when I got out of High School and matured a bit, I decided that I wasn't going to let every little thing get to me, and so I changed and I have been pretty much the same ever since. Of course about a month ago I became content with who I am and I know that just being me is enough. I am still standing and so I say again bring it on!!

Ward Stuff!!

Sunday I got up I still felt sick to my stomach and so I didn't eat anything before I went to church. Got to church a little late but not too late! My good friend Rachel taught in Relief Society it was really good, she shared a personal experience that made me stop and think, and I love it when people say things that make stop and think! Then in Sunday school I find out something that I was afraid that would happen, I wasn't really surprised at all. Of course for the rest of church I couldn't focus, cause I was so worried for my friend. But things are better now and even though I am still hurt the pain is going away I hope! Then after church we had the mingle and it was good I didn't want to eat anything but I had fun talking to everyone that was there! Then I went to guess who's coming to dinner at Erica's and Cambree's house it was fun. Jake Jensen got us laughing pretty good, I had a good time!

Then Monday I woke up got ready for the day I had the night off so I went to Stake FHE and I had fun; one of the guys in the ward brought his roomate, and he was really good looking and so nice and funny! I wish I wouldn't get so nervous when I am around boys that I like, because for some reason my mind always goes blank and then I don't talk, and I feel so stupid. So I hope I get to see him again. Then I went bowling with friends in my ward I got like a 72 and then I got 115!!!!! Yay! I beat my previous high score! I was so stoked!! Then I went home got something to eat studied a bit for my final and then went to sleep!

Wow what a week!!

Thursday I hear that a friend of mine is mad at me for something that is not my fault, and this friend told me twice that it wasn't my fault. So I admit I was really mad, I had so much adrenaline pumping through me, that if I hadn't got enough sleep the night before, so that I could go to the gym after work, I probably would have went over to my friends place and either yelled at or hit this friend. But since I wanted to go to the gym, I went, because I knew that my anger would leave me and it did! But I was still really hurt, I never thought that a friend could or would ever make me hurt so much! Thursday I also went to school and institute which was good I was really late for school though. Then off to work I went.

Friday I woke up at 10:30am and couldn't go back to sleep, so I got up and ate food and then went to work and then the gym! Today I got up at 10:30am again because I couldn't sleep any longer; because I was still really hurt. Then I got ready for work then came home from work for a bit, cleaned the living room then went to a local rock band concert that a friend invited me to; and it was a lot of fun and good music. Then I went out with my friend Rachel to get something to eat, because I really hadn't had anything to eat all day, and that was a lot of fun. We went to yummy Cafe Rio!!!!!!!!! And for some reason I am no longer hurt, well at least not all the time any more. So yay the pain is finally going away, I am healing yes! I was hoping the pain would go away sooner than I expected!

Also since I have been good and I went to the gym twice this week I have lost another 2lbs!! Making a total of 19lbs that I have lost!!!!!!!!!!

So I am really happy that the pain has passed sooner than I thought it would. I wish there was still something I could do to make this friend realize that they can't do this sort of thing to a friend; and then when they decide to apologize expect everything to be the same! I am sorry it doesn't work that way! I am ready and willing to forgive this friend; but this friend of mine needs to be ready and willing to accept the consequences of their actions!

Searching for a Miracle!!

I am not afraid to be my self and now I let other people see the real me. I really like that I am content with who I am; it has taken me 12 years to realize that just being me is enough.

Lately I have been searching for a miracle and I hope it comes soon or before it is too late! I am still really afraid for one of my friends. I want things to be good again for this friend I want this friend to be happy and loving life. I need these things fixed, because it can't keep on happening over and over again it has gone on long enough. I have been giving this friend of mine advice and help when they needed it. But for some reason it hasn't jogged their head. So I keep on hoping and praying that some how, some way it will get in my friends head; and this friend will learn from this experience. And that my friend will realize that we need trials in order to survive in this life, and I hope that my friend will be able to overcome this trial. Sometimes the Lord has to bring us low before he can lift us higher; and the Lord is not just building the church he is also building us.

"Life it's ever so strange it's so full of change you think that you've worked it out than bang, right out the blue something happens to you, to throw you off course and then you break down. Truth we don't want hear it's too much to take, don't like to feel out of control so we make our plans ten times a day, and when they don't go our way we, break down, ya we break down, don't you break down listen to me, slowly, oh so very slowly except that there's no getting off, so live it, just got to go with it, cause this ride's never gonna stop, break down, don't you break down, no need to break down, no need at all, because it's just a ride it's just a ride no need to run no need to hide, it will take you all around, sometimes your up sometimes your down, it's just a ride, it's just a ride, don't be scared now dry your eyes, it might feel so real inside, but don't forget it's just a ride." This song is sung by Jem and it's called "Just a Ride" if anyone was wondering.

So on a to a positive note I had Monday off from work which was nice I went to my wards FHE and had a blast. We had a talent show and it was really good, one of my friends got up and sang and she rocked the house she was very good. Then I went bowling with some friends in the ward my first score was 82 and then I got a 65 and that is because I haven't bowled for two weeks. So oh well better luck next time!

Loving Life!!

Saturday was a good day I got to sleep in; and then I woke up and cleaned part of the house up and then I was going to do some laundry, but everyone else in my house was doing laundry so I got ready for the day. I went out to eat with two of my good friends Marie and Camille at the Olive Garden which was so good. Then I went to Barnes and Noble with just Camille since Marie had to finish some things up before Sunday. So Camille and I went to Barnes and Noble and had fun, I wanted to get the book Truman and Camille said to me no I won't let you; and then I said you won't let me why what will you do tackle me to the ground in Barnes and Noble; and then she said yes and then will I put you in my trunk and take you far away and every once in while I will ask if you are dead yet; and then I said could you just imagine that......tackling me to the floor in Barnes and Noble! Then she said ok I guess I will let you get the book! Hahahaha Ahhhhhhh good times, good times!! I love my friend Camille and the sense of humor that we share!! So then I got home and my mom wanted me to run to the store and get some rolls and a pan to cook them in, and I also got me some salad yum! Then I got home did some laundry and then finally went to sleep.

Today I got up late and went to church Sunday School was really good we talked about the importance of unifying the church and I got a lot out of that lesson cause we should be going to church to help and lift others and I find that when I am helping other people with things or serving them then I am spending less time thinking about me and how bad my life is and I get such a good high when I am focusing on other people instead of me and life seems to feel right and I am content. Sacrament meeting was really good too! A girl in my ward that talked also sang "I Know that My Redemer Lives" and that was so uplifting to hear that song on Easter Sunday. I went to the mngle and it was fun we had an Easter egg hunt and then ate cup cakes. Then went home for family Easter dinner over at my aunts house and it was so much fun. My older sister and her husband came and my little sister and her husband came and then my older cousin and his wife came, so we had the entire family there at my aunts house for dinner then we had Family Home Evening and then we played apples to apples bible edition and we all got laughing so hard it was a lot of fun and we also had ice cream cakes that my sister made. So Easter Sunday it was a happy day!!

Now I have lost another 5lbs and so that makes a total of 17lbs that I have lost!!!! Yay!!!!!! I am so stoked!!!!!!!!!!!! My goal is to be able to fit into all of my prom dresses that I have, and to be able to fit into my senior year spirit week shirt and look good in it!

Well there is one thing that is bothering me I wish I still had grandparents I miss them and I think about them every day. Now that I am older and I have a job I wish I could take them out to dinner, that was one thing that I was looking forward to when I got older! I wish I could just pick up my phone and call them and tell them that I love them and that I miss them, or just to be able to go over to their house and visit with them would be wonderful! But I know I am so blessed even though my grandparents are gone I have my family that loves and supports me and friends that love and support me and I am content with who I am, I have a Heavenly Father that loves me and listens to me and my Savior who died for me to take away my sins is so that I can live with God the Father and Jesus Christ if I remain worthy of those blessings.

Life & 50 word mini-saga!

Well Thursday I went to school and I wasn't as late as I usually am. So school was good on Thursday then I went to my institute class. Institute is always good, we talked about the signs that would come before the second coming. My institute teacher said something that made me think he said that even though we don't know the exact day that the Savior will come we won't be surprised when he does come; if we watch for the signs and obey the Prophet we won't be caught off guard! I love it when people say things that make me stop and think. So then I went home and made me something to eat cause I was starving and then I watched Lost, got on facebook for a bit; then went off to work.

Today I woke up and got ready because I had a nail appointment at 1pm I needed a new full nail set so I knew it was going to take a long time. I got home at like 3:40pm. Then I got a text from a friend asking me if I wanted to come over to Temple Square before I had work since it was such a nice day. But since I needed to eat something, I wouldn't have made it down there in time. I would have loved to go down there since for once it was such a beautiful day!! But alas I didn't have the time. Then I went to work it wasn't too bad, but I was so happy when it was over! The only thing that I am really mad a myself for is I didn't got to the gym on Thursday and tonight so shame on me. But I had stayed up to late on Wednesday and then I couldn't shut my mind off so I couldn't sleep. Thursday night I got enough sleep but work kind of warped me so I went home instead and I was a bit hungry, so I will have to go next week.

So Saturday I don't have much to do, I need to clean the house, and do some laundry; and then I have plans to go out with a friend to the Olive Garden; so it will be good, it will be nice to catch up with her since I haven't seen her in about a month. I do get to sleep in tomorrow, which is nice since I love sleep!

So here is another 50 word mini-saga!

"You are starting to realize how absolutely amazing you are, and how you have nothing to worry about. Everyone likes you and gets along with you so well!! I'm glad that you are able to carry that now." She said to me. My jaw drops, WOW I have an amazing friend.

So there is my second one. I know I have put this on an earlier post.....but this statement about me, really humbled me so I am really happy to have this good friend in my life.

50 word "mini-saga" for Katie!

Ok Katie this is for you, this is the first one that I have made so here it is............

"What's wrong?" I said with concern. "Nothing that you or anyone else can help me with, it's something that I have to work out on my own." He said to me.
I sigh and touch his arm with concern and frustration, and wonder will he ever tare down this wall?

So there you go, and just to let y'all know that was a real conversation that I had. I will post more of the 50 word mini-sagas when I can have long time to think again!

Bring It On!

So I did go to my class like the good girl that I am and it wasn't so bad as I thought it would be. I then went to my institute class and we talked about General Conference. It was really uplifting to here what other people in my class thought of General Conference; since it was so uplifting for me. I then stopped by the nail salon to get the gel fixed on my thumb nail since it was coming off, and I went to the Distribution Center to get April Ensigns and the manual for Relief Society; since I left my other one in my sunday school class and I didn't go back to get it, so who knows if it's still at church. So I just bought me a new one!

I finally got home and I was so hungry that I made me something to eat. I had dinner with my parents for once since I had the night off Tuesday, which was nice. It was good to have a evening to do what I wanted. So I went up to the U of U institute to surprise a good friend of mine that I hadn't seen in about a month. But then I ran into a good friend from high school and we got talking about a whole bunch of things, and it was good to catch up, and I ended up sitting next to her in the institute class and I did see my other friend for like a few seconds; and I was hoping to catch her after the class to see if she wanted to get something to eat. But she called me and said that she had to leave since she was falling asleep, and wanted to get home before she fell asleep at the wheel. But then a few of the boys in my ward showed up cause they had a church ball game, and so I stayed and watched them play. I haven't watched a basketball game in while, so it was a lot of fun watching the boys play.

Ok so I am still not over this boy that I like. So I am thinking that even though it is stressing, freaking, and weirding me out a little I know that this is just one of my trails or tests that I have to go through; and so I say bring it on, let the rain come down and the waves crash on top of me; cause I know that I will come out on top standing tall and firm not matter what life throws at me; I am ready for it because I know who I am, I know what I want, I know what I stand for, I am stronger than I seem! But don't get me wrong I know I am nothing without my Heavenly Father he blesses my life so much, that even though sometimes I don't realize it, my cup is always full. I know that the Savior gave his life for us that so that we would be able to return and live with Christ and God the Father. I love Sunday's even though they are the craziest days. I love being able to attend all 3 meetings and then going home and being able to see all of my family, and I am so thankful for all the friends that I have in my life.

Running Through My Head!

I slept in on Monday which was so nice; then I went to work then again I went to the bowling alley and watched while some of my friends bowled; only 5 of us went to Dee's and so it was a good night over all. Today I have school and I really don't want to go my laziness is kicking in again about school anyway; I would just like to sleep in and just go to my institute class at noon, but I probably won't I will be a good girl and wake up and go to school like I always do. I do need to start waking up earlier so that I can be on time for school and so that I can at least have my hair done before I walk out the door. Also I have no work today so I don't really quite know what I am going to do after school and institute; I may pop in my friends institute class and surprise her cause I haven't seen her for a while. If nothing else turns up I may just go and surprise my friend.

So another thing I really like a guy friend of mine but he doesn't like me, and even though I know he doesn't like me, I still like him more than a friend and I can't shake this feeling. This has never happened to me before and it is freaking me out a little; and I don't know what to do about it. So that is why I really would like to get away, and go on a vacation again. So that maybe if I can get away from this boy then maybe just maybe I will no longer like him more than a friend. Why do I have to like him so much and why won't it go away. Usually I can tell when a boy doesn't like me, so I stop liking him and then when I find out for sure that he doesn't like me more than a friend I don't get hurt. But now that I am no longer hurt by the fact that he doesn't like me the same way that I like him. For some reason that I can't figure out, I still like him and this feeling is not going away.

I am loving my life, I am so blessed. I know I would be nothing without my Heavenly Father I am so thankful for all that he does and gives me. I am so thankful for my Savior Jesus Christ and that he bled and died for me to take away my sins, I know that he lives. There is a line in one of the hyms that I really love that is how I feel about my Savior, "I marvel that he would descend from his throne divine To rescue a soul so rebellious and proud as mine, That he should extend his great love unto such as I, Sufficient to own, to redeem, and to justify. Oh it is wonderful that he should care for me Enough to die for me! Oh it is wonderful, wonderful to me!" I know the Book of Mormon is true and that it was written for our day. I know that Priesdent Monson is the Prophet of the Church, I am so thankful to be a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I would be lost if I didn't have the gospel in my life it has brought me so much happiness, even though sometimes life is hard; the Lord has to bring us low before he can lift us higher, and the Lord is not just building the church he is also building us. The lord will also never abandon us, so we should not abandon him. The Lord will also aid, strengthen us, help us, and cause us to stand. And I am truely blessed to have family and friends that love and support me!

Content!!

Friday I didn't go to a friends house instead I went to work and then the gym! I am happy that I did because when I got home I found out that I had lost another pound! So now all together I have lost 12lbs I am so stoked!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then Saturday I watched General Conference both sessions which was very excellent. Then I went with my mom, aunt and my two sisters and we got pedicures and then went out to eat. That was a lot of fun mostly because I got to see my little sister. It was so good to see her; cause I don't see her that much anymore since she got married. I honestly love my little sister! I would do anything for her....well within reason of course!

Also for the past 2 nights I have been staying up until like 2am chatting with my friend Angela (that lives in Texas) on facebook! It has been nice being able to catch up on a lot of things with her! I miss her, I wish she was still here in Utah, and still in my ward! She may also come visit this summer; which is another thing that I am stoked about!!! I may also go see her this summer if everything works out! If not there is always next year!

So today I got to watch both sessions which was very nice; and over all General Conference was wonderful, amazing and now my cup is overflowing!! I took the time to write down a couple of my favorite quotes from Conference......"Choose to live by faith, not fear!" and "You can't be a life saver if you look like everyone else on the beach." Ya Conference was awesome, I really enjoyed every bit of it!! Then I went to work and it wasn't too bad it was actually nice because we got to work with another person so things didn't get too boring. I am just happy that I didn't have to work during conference! Also one of the great things about working while it's Conference is that there is always food that they let us eat!

So the other day I was telling a good friend of mine that I feel I am content and a lot more confident now than I ever have been, even though it's kind of weirding me out a little; and I am way different now, I guess it's because I am not used to the new me yet. So maybe it's also because of me finally losing weight and because I like everyone in my ward, and I feel like I could just go up to anyone in my ward and strike up a conversation without them looking at me like I am weird or that I shouldn't be talking to them; and then she said to me "You are starting to realize how absolutely amazing you are, and how you have nothing to worry about. Everyone likes you and gets along with you so well!! I'm glad that you are able to carry that now." Then I said to her "yes I have come to that realizion! I am content with who I am now!" Wow can I just say that I have one really absolutely amazing true friend; I can't believe that she said that about me.

So that brings me to my next topic, friends. A few of my friends have still been on my mind a lot, first one that comes to mind is one I haven't seen or heard from in quite a while, but yesterday we did chat a little on facebook. So now I am not so concerned about her. The next one I haven't heard or seen her for about a month almost, but tonight she finally sent me a text, so thank goodness I was starting to wonder if something had happened to her, cause it's not like her to not answer my calls or texts. Another friend is still going through a hard time, I have been trying to help cause I know that life is hard; we have to go through hard things in order to become strong and to be able to stand tall; because that is how we learn and grow and then we are better prepared for eternal life.

Work is not fun!

Monday was alright I wasn't as sad as I was on Sunday, I went to work which was no fun again. Then after work I went and just chilled and watched while some of my friends bowled, only 4 of us went to Dees, and it was nice with a small group. Tuesday went to school and institute. I am not looking forward to going to class tomorrow I would like to sleep in and just go to my institute class, and also not go to work for the rest of this week as well!

Well today I got to sleep in which was nice, then since my parents were coming back; from out of town, my aunt came up stairs to ask me if I was going to leave a note for my mom (cause on Saturday I broke my moms stone pan) like I am that stupid and irresponsible, that I wouldn't tell my mom about what I had done; that was my plan all along if they came home after I left for work then I was going to leave a note; but if they came back before I went to work then I was just going to tell my mom about it! But oh well I guess she didn't mean any harm by it, but sometimes I wonder why she has to treat me like am a kid; when I am perfectly able to take care of things on my own.

Well I wish it was Friday I may go over to a friends house after work, and hopefully tonight I can get enough sleep so I can go to the gym on Thursday after work. I really hope it doesn't snow anymore in the valley; it can snow all it wants in the mountains, because that is where we need it. I am sick of the snow I wish we could have some nice weather for a change, rather it being cold and snowy. This weekend should be good though since it's conference I get to watch both sessions on Saturday then go out with my mom, aunt and both of my sisters for girls night out while the boys go to priesthood meeting. Then sunday I get to watch both sessions again then I have to go to work. Also I have lost 11lbs now I am so happy!!!!!!!!!!!

Lake Powell Pic!

All of the girls set up the tents with no boys!!

Lake Powell Pic!

So here is the sunset over Lake Powell!

Busy Days!

Ok so Tuesday I was late for my class but it's a good thing that we didn't have a lab! Then I went to work. I got to sleep in on Wednesday, but I didn't want to get out of bed. Then Thursday I had school again but I wasn't feeling all that great so I just went to my institute class. Then Friday I got to sleep in and again I didn't want to get out of bed. I also got paid on Friday which is nice, then I went to work. I got invited to a party at a friends house so I went there after work. Then Saturday got to sleep in and again I didn't want to get out of bed. I spent way to much time on the computer then I had plans to go to a ward activity and then I was invited over to a friends house in my ward, and I was also invited to a friends house to see all of my institute friends so I was triple booked for Saturday!! I ended up not going to the institute party.

I am happy though that the sun is out longer it was nice driving at 6:30pm with the sun still shinning. I can't wait for the smell of summer; and the summer storms; and the smell of the earth when it rains. I will also love it when it's warm and dry enough to go hiking!

Time and change again has been on my mind! I really do feel like I have lost the old me, again not like it's a bad thing it's actually a really good thing. But it still is kind of weirding me out a little. I guess it's just going to take some time getting used to the new me. Today is fast Sunday for my ward, and we are combined with the boys, so it should be a good lesson. I really don't want to go back to work on Monday, it's so lonely now that we are back to working alone; I hate it. But at least I don't have to work while conference is going on I get to watch all four sessions which is nice for once!

Also I have decided that I need another vacation. Lake Powell was good but after a disappointing Tuesday I feel that I need to get away again; so that maybe this time I can forget about the boy, and that he will be out of my head and this raw pain will go away, I thought I knew what this pain felt like, but apparently not since my heart is hurting so much worse than the last time; and it's weird because usually I can tell when a boy isn't interested in me as more than a friend, and I tend to stop liking him and I get over it; and I usually don't get hurt when I find out that he doesn't like me the same way that I like him. But I am stronger than I seem, I know that eventually the pain will go away and it will pass probably sooner than I expect it will; it will just take some time; I would really like to hide under my bed covers and stay there for two months; but what doesn't kill me will only make me stronger!

Spring Is Here!

Ok so I went to Lake Powell for spring break and had a blast! It was nice to get away from the city and life at home for a bit! I went with some of my friends in my student ward. We took a boat and went tubing, & wake boarding. It was a fun road trip, my friend Matt caught a duck and my friend Rachel got a really bad bruise on her back. I am just glad that no one died and that I didn't have to give CPR. At night it was so neat the moon wasn't out so the sky was filled with stars and you could see the stars in the water; and we got to see a lot of shooting stars! Another one of my friends fell out of her chair twice that was pretty funny! The water was cold though it was about 60 degrees, once you got used to it, it was nice; and it was above 80 degrees during the day! I didn't lose any weight which is a little disappointing; but at least I didn't gain anything, so I still have lost only 10lbs. I did get a nice tan and I didn't get sun burnt too bad!

So I went to the Draper Temple dedication it was nice. Church was good even though I was late because I was so sore and tired from Lake Powell. Church was shortened because of the Temple dedication it was kind of neat because in Relief Society we go to spend some time getting to know some of the girls that we didn't know. Then we had sacrament meeting; which was good, I didn't think that it would end so early though. Then I went over to a friends house after the dedication and we ate pizza and chocolate chip cookies; looked at pictures from Lake Powell and talked.

Then Monday I had work off so I got to go to my wards FHE it was at lot of fun. It was nice for once to have a Monday off and to be able to go to FHE. Then I went bowling with some friends in my ward; my scores were really good this time, I got 107 and then 111. So 111 is my new high score! Also I got asked a question that was worded wrong and things got way out of control; but everything got worked out, so things are good again.

All in all spring is finally here the birds are coming back the grass is green; the sun is out longer! I love the sun I can't wait for summer to come! I have been missing the long days and the warm summer nights!

Good Days!!

OK so I didn't go to the gym last Thursday shame on me. I didn't go because I was really tired and I didn't want the same thing to happen like last Thursday so I went home after work which was good. Friday I did go to the gym and it was nice I lost another 4lbs so all together I have lost 10lbs which makes me so happy!!

Then Saturday I went and got a lot of things done and I went to my friend Manelle's house for PI day and we just talked then a few of us went outside and got chased by Zombies on Rick's phone, I was kind of slow and couldn't keep up with everyone all the time but for the most part it was fun ( mostly the reason I couldn't keep up with everyone was because I had the wrong shoes on) then we went back to Manelle's house got some water and Jackie came over and so we talked for a bit longer then everyone went home.

Church was good today I got a lot out of the lesson in Relief Society and Sunday school. Sacrament Meeting was really good too, church seemed to go really fast and I didn't want it too I guess because I was really enjoying church today!!

So nothing bad happened this weekend and I am really happy that nothing did I just hope that nothing bad will happen when I go to Lake Powell with a few of my friends later this week. I know how to do CPR and rescue breathing but I don't want to do it unless I really have too!!

So Blessed!

Last Friday I went over to my friend Jaime's house and we had a lot of fun playing Imagine If and watching both of the Ghost Buster movies. Sunday was Stake Conference and I really enjoyed the talks that were given. Monday went to work then went bowling with friends in my ward!! Today I passed my written test in my first aid class, and now I have two more days of work this week and two days of work next week. Then off to Lake Powell with friends in my ward! Yea!

Also I got my tax return so I am buying a new camera!! Yea!! Now hopefully nothing bad will happen for the rest of this week. I probably will go to the gym tonight after work, and I really need to, since I didn't go last week at all. Shame on me.......but I went out with friends instead. I am so blessed; I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father, because things in my life could be much worse!

I have friends who care about me and I care about them. I have a family that supports me. I have a roof over my head. Heavenly Father answers my prayers and I know that he cares about me. I am more strong and confident than I ever have been in my life. School is going well. I don't have to work during General Conference, I get to watch all four sessions. I love going to church; and I love all my friends and family!! I would be nothing without my Heavenly Father!!

Time!!

Something that has been on my mind is time. Time seems to be moving so fast lately, and sometimes I would like it to slow down or just stop for a while. I guess that is why I have been feeling like I am losing my old self, and why I can't go back; because time has been pushing me forward and it has been changing me.

Also like I said in my first post of March.....not that I don't like the new me; cause I have been seeing things a little more clearly and I am more confident that I ever have been.

Although I am afraid that becoming this new me I will leave one of my friends behind because our friendship has been one sided every so often; and the more I try and involve her with all my new friends the more she doesn't like it. Even though she doesn't say anything to me, I can see it on her face or hear it in her voice. I don't want to lose her, so I will keep on trying and hope that one day she will come around.

So I guess that's why I have been feeling weirded out, or that something is missing is because of time passing by too quickly, and because I have been changing so fast lately.

I have some friends from the past that have kind of slipped through my fingers and I see them maybe once a year; but sometimes I would like to give them a good shake and ask WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?? But I guess things happen and change must come and time moves on.

So I will always be here for my friends no matter what happens, because I care about them; and their secrets are safe with me!

Test and Beautiful Day!

Today I had a lab test which I passed!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so happy that I didn't have to go to work today!! So when I got home I took some pictures of the sky because the clouds were just gorgeous! So here are a few pictures I took!

I really like the sun light coming through this cloud!

So then later on I went to a friends bridal shower and then I went to Barnes and Noble with a good friend and got a book and hot chocolate, so all in all today was a good day and the weekend is here and that makes me even more happy and it's a good end to a good day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Visits and Testimony!

Sunday was pretty good I enjoyed fast and testimony meeting! Then I went home and my mom didn't have dinner ready..........so it's a good thing I ate something at the mingle after church. I then went to the fireside and I really enjoyed Elder Hales' talk, I stayed after a bit and talked with everyone in my ward that came to the CES fireside. I was invited over to Britty's place to watch a movie but since I hadn't had a full meal all day, and my sister and her husband came over for Sunday family dinner; I wanted to eat something and visit with my sister and brother in-law; cause the last time I got to visit with them was Christmas. So I went home and got to visit with them and eat food!!

Monday was a lot of fun I went bowling; my scores weren't so good though I got a 77 and then a 96. So better luck next Monday! Then all of us that went bowling, went to Dee's, and that was super fun; & when I got home I remembered who my friend Liz was in the murder mystery dinner, she was Mr. Fife. Tuesday for some reason I forgot to set my alarm and I didn't wake up until 12:20pm and my class starts at 11:00am; oh well good thing I don't have my test until tomorrow.

Then I went to work and since I worked on Saturday I get a day off this week and my day off is Thursday so I don't know what I am going to do on Thursday after school I have plans at 8pm; but what to do till then......well I will think of something. Today my sister came over to use the phone so she could pay her cell phone bill because she forgot to pay it on time. Also I found out that the 4th book of Fablehaven is coming out March 24th which makes me happy; because I thought it wasn't coming out until the summer!

Sometimes I worry about certin people in my family because they are having a hard time, and usually there is nothing I can do but pray for them and hope for the best. I wish though that there was something else or more that I could do for them. Well I guess the only other thing to do is try to be a better example to them; so I will continue to go to all of my church meetings; I know I will never lose my testimony, and I will keep trusting my Heavenly Father.

Thoughts!

Do you ever feel like you are losing your old self and becoming something new? Not that it is necessarily a bad thing, because change is good sometimes. But no matter how hard I try to go back, I find myself moving forward instead. I mean to say that I have not lost who I am or what I stand for, or what I want and believe in life. Well let me see if I can explain.......lately I've just been feeling like something is out of place......I guess. Well I usually read about 5 books at a time and I write in my journal regularly; but for some reason this year I have stopped reading my leisurely novels and I don't write in my journal as often as I used to! It's been weirding me out a little because I love to read; reading is one of my passions in life! I still read my scriptures and I have been reading more verses than I usually do; because I want to get through the Book of Mormon again and I want to read the Pearl of Great Price cover to cover.

Another thing is.....I have been in two accidents already this year and they were both within a month; and I almost got in another one when I ran that red light coming home from the gym; and that right there is not like me at all, because I don't get into accidents. Although I am so grateful to have a Heavenly Father that watches out for me, because I could have ran that red light and hit that van and I probably would have been seriously hurt or maybe even dead, or the person in the van could have been hurt or dead!

Even though I have been seeing the big picture a little better and Heavenly Father has been answering my prayers; and I have been trying to be a better person and friend, I feel like I should do more for my friends but whatever it is I can't seem to think of it or I must be overlooking it.

One of my best friends is having a hard time because her father has cancer and I haven't seen her in over 4 months, I have had family with cancer, my aunt (and she was one of my favorite aunt's) had bone marrow cancer and died from it, and one of my cousins had to go through chemo twice. So I feel her pain but I don't know what else to say to her other than that I am here for her, and I am praying for her, and I am sorry for her. Another friend of mine I have kind of neglected because she lives out of state and it's hard sometimes to know what to say; and sometimes when I can talk to her I find I don't have a whole lot to say, and it drives me a little crazy and I get upset with myself because I should have tonz of things to tell her.

Then another friend is going through a hard time because of personal reasons, and all I can do is say that I am there for this friend if they ever want to talk, because their secrets are safe with me. Another thing bothering me is that I feel like I am moving on and leaving one of my friends behind or that I am moving and she is just standing still; and I want to help her and I have tried....but I am running out of ideas, and I don't want to leave her behind; she has been one of my most truest and trusting friends that I probably will ever have. These are friendships I care deeply about.

And I want all my friends to know that no matter what happens I will always be here for them.